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| Life or DeathI work at the hospital and the majority of the time I spend giving mothers and fathers good news about their pregnancies... that they're healthy, that the test results are normal, that there doesn't look like there is anything extra that we should be concerned about... I sit down with the families and give them good news... that everything they had hoped for is coming true... that they are bringing a life into this world and it is healthy...
Unfortunately, today was a day that I still haven't come to grips with... I work at the hospital and a very small proportion of the time I spend grieving with mothers and fathers because I have bad news about their pregnancies... they they're not healthy, that the test results are abnormal, that there looks like there are big concerns that we should be worried about... I sit down with families and have to share with them bad news... that everything they had hoped for had some how been taken away...
It's an odd feeling... almost out of bodyesque... to hear yourself... to hear the words being spoken and watching as you can see the moment that you've broken someones heart or shattered their dreams... at least that's the way I feel...
I shared with two families today that their children would be severely affected with mental retardation and physical handicap and possibly have very life-threatening health complications... I watched at mom and dad fought back the tears and tried to hold it together... I know this is what I've been trained to do... but somehow it all seems so unnatural... that we are supposed to care... but only for a limited time... inside I want to hold them, to cry with them, to pray with them... that somehow I had the power to help them through this... it's such a lesson in humility... because it was at this point that I felt so helpless...
I wonder what tomorrow will bring...
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| According to Xanga, it's been 1184 days since I first joined. I'm not really sure why I joined in the first place... possibly because I was bored one night when I was supposed to be studying... but since that day I've been faithfully writing entries for all to read...
As you can see... I've written a total of 6 entries in my 3 1/2 years on xanga... giving me an average of almost 1 entry every 200 days... I've been a little irresponsible lately as I've only posted once in the last 1 1/2 years... so today is the day I've decided to bring people back up to date on my life...
Let me start with a picture...
This is where God has taken me... I know HEAVEN?? but alas no... just Hawaii... probably only a stones throw away... =) But I've become a transplanted Canadian learning to live the life of a pseudo-Samoan. I landed on this wonderful 100 mile wide island on October 6, 2006 and time has flown by... occupied with adjusting to a new lifestyle and a new group of friends has had it's ups and downs... stay tuned as next week I'll start my quest to hula... haha...
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