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Things are so complicated

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 02:21:46 GMT

A brief candle; both ends burning
An endless mile; a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last.

-Charlie Daniels

Semi-Charmed Life by Third Eye Blind

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 03:20:11 GMT

I'm packed and I'm holding
I'm smiling, she's living, she's golden
She lives for me, says she lives for me
Ovation, her own motivation
She comes round and she goes down on me
And I make her smile, like a drug for you
Do ever what you wanna do, coming over you
Keep on smiling, what we go through
One stop to the rhythm that divides you
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse
Chop another line like a coda with a curse
Come on like a freak show takes the stage
We give them the games we play, she said...
I want something else, to get me through this
Semi-charmed kinda life, baby, baby
I want something else, I'm not listening when you say good-bye
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there, someplace back there
Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal myth, will lift you up until you break
It won't stop, I won't come down
I keep stock with the tick-tock rhythm, I bump for the drop
And then I bumped up, I took the hit that I was given
Then I bumped again, then I bumped again
I said...
How do I get back there, to the place where I fell asleep inside you
How do I get myself back to the place where you said...
I want something else, to get me through this
Semi-charmed kinda life, baby, baby
I want something else, I'm not listening when you say good-bye
I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling, an earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right
And when the plane came in, she said she was crashing
The velvet it rips in the city, we tripped on the urge to feel alive
Now I'm struggling to survive, those days you were wearing that velvet dress
You're the priestess, I must confess
Those little red panties they pass the test
Slide up around the belly, face down on the mattress
One
And you hold me, and we're broken
Still it's all that I wanna do, just a little now
Feel myself, head made of the ground
I'm scared, I'm not coming down
No, no
And I won't run for my life
She's got her jaws now, locked down in a smile
But nothing is all right, all right
And I want something else, to get me through this life
Baby, I want something else
Not listening when you say...
Good-bye, good-bye, good-bye
Good-bye
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there
Someplace back there, in the place we used to start
I want something else

sometimes i just feel like crying

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 15:01:11 GMT

No One really reads this, so I guess it's okay to be a little more honest.

I'm scared.
The doctor found a "soft lump" in my left breast.

I would never say that to anyone (except Joe).

The doctor said not to be worried, that cancer lumps are hard.
But with my history, it's hard not to be.

Feel your boobies, everyone.
Grope a boob, save a life.

It may have helped my grandmother more than we figured, and it certainly has helped my mom, and thousands of other women.

so tired

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 00:26:28 GMT

I am so tired.
Very randomly, too.

I don't feel like I DO anything.
I feel like I'm so lazy all the time.

Even though I work 40 hours a week.
My kitchen really needs to be cleaned.
And so do the bedrooms.

Laundry really needs to get done.
But for some reason, i cannot motivate myself to do ANY of it.

so apparently...

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 04:27:25 GMT

For me to be a "true" geek...

I have to dress different

Talk funny

Wear weird shoes

Put my hair in random ponytails...

wtf.

all week

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 07:01:33 GMT

so tired.
and i fall asleep easily...

but then I wake up.
and can't get back to sleep.

Last weekend, it was that I couldn't get to sleep... and then I couldn't STAY asleep.

*sigh*
off to bed. I have to beat this.

Shacking up.

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 05:53:18 GMT

Joe and I got a house.

2 bedrooms, 1 bath.
In Clovis.

We sign the lease tomorrow, and move in August 1st.

<333333

The awkward stage of growing up.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 17:34:51 GMT

I'm watching it all around me.

My cousins, my best friends... growing up, and moving into the places emotionally that will be for god only knows how long.

It will get better.
Then, it will get worse.

And then, just maybe, with a glimmer, you'll find the spark you are looking for.
Take hold, grab on.

Enjoy the ride.
Make it last as long as you can.

oh yeah...

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 17:29:23 GMT

I have a Tattoo.

And a Wii. <33

i am

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 03:54:57 GMT

getting a tattoo on sunday