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Name: ashleigh
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Fort Worth
Birthday: 6/29/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: hiking, thunderstorms, movies, digging thru junk at garage sales/thrift stores, taking pictures, camping, roadtrips, nursing, reading, cold sheets, daydreaming, watching my son grow, singing my head off in the car, electronic toys, drinking caffeine until im wired, candles, my music collection, picnics, rainbows, being loved, wandering aisles at target/walmart, my impressive witch cackle, meeting new people, walking barefoot in sand, driving, hearing my son praise God, smell of rain, tattoos/piercings, pajamas, 'discovering' good bands noone i know has heard of, loving on babies, playing cards/board games, do-it-yourself hair dye, live music, makeup, watching baptisms, thought of getting married and having more kids, coming up with decent puns, windchimes, talking with a friend until the sun comes up, giving my testimony, stargazer lilies, having God-given peace, autumn, and writing lists of random things i like that could go on and on and on and on (you get the idea)
Occupation: Medical
Message: message me
MSN: ash_n_julian
Yahoo:  ashnessmonster
Member Since:
9/15/2005
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| the coolest things are happening. ok. so its been forever. the new job is kicking my butt ...its so incredibly busy and i have tons more responsibility but its all worth these lovely kiddos. who else gets to blow bubbles and play games while helping these kids beat the odds. theres sad stuff too...lost a few already. went and prayed with a family last night whos in the ICU unexpectedly. a divine appointment for sure because she was having an emergency procedure just as i arrived and the family was forced to leave her room. today there is a little improvement so maybe she will pull through this. whatever God's will...isnt that the hardest thing to pray? i found myself praying that with the family but also for peace and joy that passes our understanding. i hope they feel that and the love of their Father in these hard hard times. enough of that. the giddy happy news is my bro decided to go out on a limb and finance a new camera for me. a PROFESSIONAL camera. ill be doing portraits, small weddings, and hopefully some commercial photography. ive felt the yes from God on this but im scared outta my wits. i have my first shoot next weekend with the family of one of my coworkers. shes been forewarned not to expect perfection or even anything good so i feel more comfortable. i pray for sunshine daily. so keep me in mind and if you need a photographer, call me when i get better...hehe.
love.
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| so an update. things are awesome here. ive settled in nicely. i miss joplin quite a bit. the beautiful trees and old unique houses but mostly the people. the weather here is hot. it will only get worse. we had a couple of 100+ days in april already...and thats not even the heat index. me and the pool are friends. julians getting so much more comfortable in the water. hopefully by the end of summer hell be sans floaties. im still pale as a ghost. i swear i have no melanin but i also have a huge history of skin cancer in the family so im constantly slathering the white stuff on. loving the living on my own thing. slowly but surely ill feel at home. i still dont have any furniture to sit on. thats my next thing to check off. my grams is coming down to help me find some stuff and she said shed let me pay her off over some time so i can afford it. that will be a happy day! ive decided against having a television in hopes it will force me to be a better mom to my son and stop wasting time. weve been playing alot more together and reading so much more. ive also been consistent in my quiet time with the Lord. im finding so much strength in Him. im also discovering who i am on a much deeper level. i still hope that his plans will line up with mine. ive been single for awhile now. i feel like im ready for a serious relationship. ive been back such a short time and havent met anyone yet and im not looking either. i know looking gets anyone in trouble. its wonderful to be back at my home church. ive been finding ways to get more involved. im starting to work with my sons class. its a start. i need to find a small group. thats something i miss from joplin, my small group. although that fell apart shortly before i moved. a sad sad thing. my best friends 19 weeks pregnant and gorgeous. im jealous. really. but im fighting it. she watches julian and they have a blast together. i wish it could be me staying at home with him. maybe someday. its been difficult transitioning from 3-12hr days to 5-8hr days. im just as tired at the end of the day and i only get 2 days off...but the thing that makes it bearable is my days off are always weekends and holidays. julian will start kindergarten in a couple months and it will be perfect. i love my job. the kids are so brave. they remind me everyday how precious life is and how we should live from day to day. its challenging and i like the girls i work with. things are changing within the clinic so theres alot of tension but everyone is still smiling and noones killed anyone yet. okay. im rambling now. if you have my number, gimme a call and lets catch up. congratulations on making it through this long boring blog. | | |
| ok. im over a month of days gone bye with no blogging attempts. shame. i have a whirlwind of craziness passing through my life. good stuff though. made the visit to texas a couple weeks ago and a job landed in my lap. as you know, i had no intention of moving back to texas. the job is wonderful and i interviewed for it...stressing that i lacked alot of the qualifications they were looking for. i guess my personality won out because they offered and i accepted. my car broke down the day before i was to go back to joplin....after working my last 2 weeks at the hospital i left in a whirlwind after finding a suitable car and packing a small portion of my things in it. i signed a lease on a small but cute apt near my mom and best friend who will be watching julian until he starts kindergarten. I have such peace about everything surrounding this life change...although it was bittersweet as i had met the most wonderful people in joplin....not to mention i just love the city itself. i think im a small town girl at heart. so babble babble...my apt should be ready this week. i start my orientation a week from today and my cars working wonderfully...i think it suites my personality. oh...and its good to be home. | | |
| Happy Valentine's Day!
im sick. ugh.
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| its been over a month since my last blog. shame.
im getting excited about moving out of the grandparents house in a
couple months. ive been saving my money pretty well. im also very
nervous about being completely responsible for all bills and an entire
house, and not to mention, the 4-year old companion i have. granted i
moved out of my moms house very early, i always had roomates. ive never
lived completely on my own. watch out world.
im going home to texas in two weeks to see my family/friends for a
week. im so very excited. so many things to do and people to see.
ive been hanging out at the house a lot more than id like. my small
group has fallen apart. my friends at church dont get together anymore.
i have a few close friends i see but i miss hanging out a couple times
a week with groups of friends. i know its not an excuse but im so much
more diligent about reading/studying my bible when others are doing it
with me. so lately i havent been letting God talk to me and im
beginning to feel so disconnected. even my prayer life has suffered. so
this is my confession. i need a serious heart jump-start. please pray
for me.
you can see my current obsession at:
http://ashnessmonster.yafro.com
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