Xanga is getting kinda old and i dont kno if i wanna stay here much longer, but i was inspired to write about my summer. anyway, the beginning of my summer was kinda slow. i was incredibly lazy and just watched movies all day. due to that ive developed enormous crushes on jake gyllenhaal and hayden christensen. i wanna just say that indie films rock! yes, especially donnie darko and life as a house. hahaha. oh and the virgin suicides. though that's not an indie. it was awesome. loved it. oh and i finally watched a walk to remember! i didnt get all the fuss about it until i finally watched it. if a guy ever did all that stuff for me i would just melt into his arms.

i finally started taking regular dance classes last week. i realized that i missed it a lot. i felt very empty and enormously out of shape when i wasnt taking classes regularly. i guess i became sort of depressed without it. but yea im feeling very happy these days.

my mom got two days off so we decided to go on a road trip to arizona. awesome awesome awesome. i invited jess and of course i woulda invited eman but she was off on a road trip of her own to san jose. oh and my little tinker came along as well. we surprised my grandma on july 4th and went out to lunch. my uncle and aunt didnt kno we were their either. we just wanted to surprise them and be spontaneous like we always are. so we were just getting out of our car to eat at the "Desert Rose", when my uncle's car pulls up to the same restaurant! Talk about coinscidence! so we all ended having lunch together. it was great except that tinker really hated being outside so he kept yelping and crying into the heat. we experienced a sort of "drama" with him. we were just finishing our lunch when someone said our dog had escaped. this lady ran and caught him for us. it was kind of amusing. anyway, so afterwards we send my grandma back and my aunt linda tells us to come over.

coming back to their ranch was like i had never left it. their home is so neat and clean that i have been inspired to clean up my own home. hahaha. looking at their window and seeing the beautiful view and their mountain, this peaceful place was the perfect getaway from my city life. i really love it in arizona. it's like my home away from home. it's where my father grew up and i feel a great connection with it.

after much reluctance, my mom, jess, and i agreed to stay at the ranch with my aunt and uncle. it's not that we didnt want to stay there, it's just that we didn't want to bother them and be an extra load. but my aunt, being as sweet as she is, insisted that we stayed, and so we did just that. later that night uncle phil took us out to watch fireworks up close at wilcox high. id never experienced being that close to fireworks and i enjoyed every second of it. afterwards, uncle phil stopped at dairy queen to get ice cream cuz it's tradition to eat ice cream every 4th of July(im so gonna start that tradition! hahahaha) we got back and jess and i decided to take a walk with tinker. while walking, i told her that there were coyotes and rattle snakes out and she totally freaked. we still stayed out for about another 10 mins. i walked by a bush and actually heard a rattling noise from a snake. my mom was calling us in because she was scared about the snakes as well.

i wake up at 6 the next morning. it's a great feeling waking up there. everything is so relaxing and simple. my grandma invited us out for breakfast and we picked her up at 8. i had pancakes. mmmmm. hadnt had that in awhile. ive become grateful for the little things in life. i appreciate more and more everyday. i cant believe my grandma's gonna be 90 next year. although she needs oxygen 24/7 she is in great shape, and is definitely a strong woman. i love her to death. she gave me a picture of herself when she was younger, and pictures of my dad when he was a boy. it's the greatest present ive ever gotten. i treasure them immensly.

after saying goodbye to grandma, we left for my cousin brooke's ranch where he lives with his wife and their 3 children. gwyn, brooke's wife, is definitely an inspiration. not only does she have the burden of 3 children, but her middle son jason has down syndrome. he's actually doing very well. he's grown so much since i last saw him! and hailey, the youngest, is now running around and talking! oh and kodie the eldest has followed in my footsteps and is taking dance lessons. im soo very proud of all of them. they brought us out to see their 3 horses. i dont kno what it is about horses, but just petting them calms me right down.

it was finally time to leave and aunt linda drove us back to her ranch. we had lunch and off we went back to cali. when i make money im definitely gonna buy a ranch with horses and go out to live in arizona every summer.

it's a weird feeling...im a senior. shit that was fast. anyway, i cant believe the year is almost over. im freakin gonna miss the seniors! just one more week and im done. my gosh this is freakin scary. colleges and all that. i dont even wanna think.

well looking on the brighter side...IT'S SUMMER! WOO HOO! im going to new york again on friday. auditioning for the fellowship. freakin hard but im crossing my fingers and praying anyway. i want this soooooo bad. oh and im goin all by myself this time. hahaha. geez im so independent now. LOL. 

SHIT! i dont wanna start on my spanish project. i gotta turn it in by tomorrow since im goin to New York friday. ahhh im especially dreading the translating part. that's a freakin pain in the ass. anyway, oh yea i performed at the beverly hills hotel on saturday. it was awesome. freakin richest ppl ever. all those porsches. im so jealous cuz they live so extravagantly. oh well...MONEY DOESN'T BUY HAPPINESS PETER! jess and i are gonna go slap his ass silly for goin out on a date w/ another woman!  oh yea and i discovered that there is indeed a night life on sunset blvd. i wanna go to the sky bar one day. so very exclusive. k im digressing way too much! hahaha love all of ya! muah* for u if you read my xanga!