I love fresh revleations from heavan.. sometimes when God reveals something to your heart it really does feel as tangible and as wonderful as a cool glass of water or a fresh piece of homemade bread.. mmm.. it's so good! God really loves us... he really, really does... These past couple of days I atteneded a conference where I heard Graham Cook (hailarious brit) speak. Here's some good stuff to ponder...

- Intimacy with God is determined by your perception of how much you are loved by God.

- Anxiety and trust cannont inhabit the same space.

- Heavan is desperate to come to earth.

- God measures our growth in him, not our time spent as christians.. the process is much richer than the outcome.

       God's favor towards us is according to his heart for us, which is so much larger than human brains can comprehend. God is so radiant. Sometimes I feel as if I have been brainwashed by church doctrines and church norms that have brought God down to an image or perception that is so much less than what he is. My God is so radiant! It's almost as if the Holy Spirit is gently blowing away the dust that has been covering my view of this radiant gem... so much more to come...

      Tomorrow I'm heading off to Williamsburg, VA to soak in some history and have some fun at Bush Gardens... what a great way to spend this 4th of July weekend!

It's funny, I never write on this anymore... so I don't really know why I am writing on it right now. It is a good way to occupy time, esp. when it is late at night and no one is really around. I might as well unwind the deep ponderings of the day. I got a part-time job today working with a special needs child in the afternoons. God was so faithful to provide me with the exact job and hours I needed. I was so touched meeting the little girl I will be working with. This 5 year old girl has a really rare disease where she cannot talk or really move. It almost seems unfair that some people have to grow up with handicaps like that. I am really excited about working with this girl, I know I am going to learn a lot through this. It's interesting how God is opening doors for me to work with special needs children, it's another world that some people don't really think about.

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           I'm so sorry I have abandoned you these past weeks.. well months. I know you missed me but don't worry I'm coming back to you... lol.. I'm in a silly mood.                  Anyways, moving on... life has been good, busy with details and deadlines, but tolerable. If anything I have been so aware of God's blessings in my life this semester. The very moment I doubt is when God starts to come through. I was having a rough day last weekend and that very day a friend invited me to go to a leadership conference with her @ ORU where God really spoke to me and reassured me. I was starting to worry about finances for my missions trip to Morocco and literally the next day God comes through with last minute funds I had no clue about. Why does God bless me like this in my doubt? That is such mercy that in the midst of my complaining and worrying he blesses me! He did it for the Israelites too.. time and time again. Why do we doubt so much when God is always so faithful?

          Morocco is just around the corner. Our team is leaving March 2nd! It still hasn't fully processed in me that I'm going to a Muslim nation.. I really don't know what to expect. We are flying in to Casablanca and taking a bus up to Rabat. We will be going on prayer walks, helping with a work project, working with abandoned children and the poor and taking a 2-day arabic course. We will be going on a prayer walk at Morocco's holiest muslim site - I'm pumped! Whoever reads this, please keep us in prayer... this will definately be an intense trip. I'm interested to see what it will be like for me over there as a woman. Pray for divine encounters, that muslim eyes would be opened to Jesus! How cool is that going to be?  

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    I'm having a baking frenzy! ... snikerdoodles, sugar cookies w. frosting, banana bread..(I just took it out the oven...I'm not one to really brag but this bread is amazing!) I'm still at it too, I'm going to make some more sugar cookies and oatmeal cookies tonight. I figured I might as well stock up the house for Christmas eve, esp. since cookies disappear at a ridiculous rate in this house. I didn't realize how much I actually love cooking, there really isn't much of it you can do in the dorms.

      I usually work over break, but it looks like this year I will just be at home. I really only have a week to work before I leave for the World Missions Summit in Loiusville, KY and I don't really know anyone that can hire for a week.. unless my temp agency calls me, that would be nice.

     Its been nice catching up with friends. I went down to Baltimore w/ some HS friends I literally haven't seen for 3 1/2 years. It was kind of weird to reunite, but really cool. It made me really glad that I go to a christian school.... most of them aren't christians. It was neat talking about my school and why I don't drink.. I love hanging out with non christians, it really helps you refocus on how you live your life. I'm telling you, they are some of the nicest people that I know, it really made me think about how christians distinguish themselves from the world, its hard to tell the difference sometimes.

    Its been so nice over this break to spend some time just focusing on the Lord. School makes you place so much focus on yourself... homework, your career, spending ever moment studying, working, playing, whatever.. its good to slow down and just spend some time with Jesus. Not just fly-by prayers but hanging out like a good friend over a cup of coffee moments. Christmas is such a busy time but what an awesome time just to meditate on Jesus coming to earth. It is so awesome to think that he came to this earth as vulnerable, little child.... if you actually really take a moment to think about that it def. will boogle your mind. Adore the king of kings, Jesus Christ!