happy thanksgiving

quick update

monday stayed home from school. went to the gottis house with my girl marisa
tuesday  school then shoppped hung out with  my friends
wed  no school. went to this club in queens called DNA
today  family from brooklyn came over for dinner

tonight: nooo idea what im doing

havent seen mike since saturday ughh =/
i  miss himm

hello gorgeous ;)

wednesday i went to mikes hockey game with a huge sign that said i love mike haha it was cute & he def liked it ..

he actually got really hurt at his game & had 2 go to the hospital, he got a concusion. i went over his house the next day for some cuddle time & to make him feel better =)

last night we went out forr dinner & the moviees. we saw borat it was great lol even tho im half jewish it was pretty funny. After we went to applebee's. got a kiss goodbye, went homee and slept =)

not to sure what im doing today..

lovee yahh

hello everybody

its thursday and its absolutly gorgeous out =)

so i cut last period because i have off tomorrow & could sit thrrew another class


weekend lineup:
friday » no school. 11am i have a college interview at Berkeley (fashion school)
saturday » hopefully hang out with mike
sunday » shopping with my mom

 i got some hate comments from girls saying that im to concited for my looks & to be honest it didnt bother me all that much _ if your going to take the time out of your day to tell me how you think im ugly & cheep looking .. makes me feel all that much better. i feel that i am pretty and if u dont agree with me kill me.

update with mike:
i cant tell i fhe likes me or not. we went bowling and he was flirting with me the hole time. the next night i wanted to show that i was interested so i went to his hockey practice. he was soo cutee he walked in with his guy friends & they were all like is that ur girllfriend & he turned around and winked at me and said not yet .. i melted =)

- im not gunna try and rush it CAUSE I ALWAYS DO.. and girls guys dont like to be scared away trusttt mee .. i dont know how long youve read my xanga but heres the scoop with mike

2 years ago i met mike

i was together with him & this guy brent at the same time .. boo heather

i ended up choosing brent over mike

mike never gavee up on me tho

he sent a dozen roses to my house

always asked me to chill

later i found out he spent a week cryin & not eating over me =/

thenn i met chad

was with him 10 months

the second me and chad broke up for good

mike called .. and we got back together

like " together " lol

then he told me he wasent ready for a relationship

and i  jumped the gun and i was like fine w/e blah blah

since then ive had 2 other short stupid relationships

about 2 months go by

and the other night he called me 2 chill

it was just like old times flirting and stuff =)

and im back in love with him

this has to work !

i cant even explain how i feel around him. i wish i would have chose him over brent 2 years ago .. i deff would still have been going out with him. he makes me so happy. its like puppy love .. all good timess no fighting just like good stufff. i want to be his girlfriendd i dont care how long it takess.

HELLLLLO MY LONG LOST XANGA

iTS bEEN WAY TO LONG SiNCE i LAST UPdATEd & i JUST WANTEd TO SAY THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WENT OUT OF THEiR WAY TO ASK ME TO UPdATE


LETS SUM IT UP

arite soo end of june me and chad were offically over
SUCKS cuz i love the boy
he cheated on me with his ex OKAY w/e guys pricks same shit

i then jumped around from a few guys and then met this kid

» AdRiAN «

turn`s out he had sex with 5 other girL`s while he was with me did cOke everyday lied about his age, he was left back 3 yeaR`s and lied when peOpLe asked if he was my boyfriend .. lucky find lol

then...

i met this sweet guy named

» BRiAN «

turns out hes in AA & is a totaL nut. he got mad cuz i gave him a hard time about invitinq his ex over .. w/e thats over and done with even tho i kinda miss him he was such a sweet kid

as of right noww im kinda into this guy anthony whos a super hottie ..
hes professional trainer and hes sexy be jealous

i still have my jetta & im now a senior THANK GOD

im looking into fashion schools in (manhattten) cuz i wanna be filthy riCh
maybe ill buy xanga one day =)

recent pic

im skinny & i eat more then you
 get over it



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comments please loves<3



this week ;;
monday  stayed home from school
tuesday  halloween - did nothing special
wednesday  no school slept with my hungover friends
thurday  hung out with anthony <3
friday  any takers ?
saturday  hanging out with bryan & mike
sunday  sleeping

update
november 5th_ 6:58pm ;

friday: went to this club called kraze (had a sick time)
saturday: work seminar, then went to this club DNA (gorgeous guys)
sunday: SLEPT ALL DAYY BABYY

UPDATE

- im in love -

oh yeah & i want this necklace for christmas

every1 has it damnit and i want it

the really long one DAMNIT
lol

<3

lata kiddies

& when you think back to all those times,
I hope you remember how i never gave up.
I hope you remember how I always loved you,
and even though you broke my heart
I kept trying.
I hope you remember that i was the one you could have had,
and would have done anything for you.
but mostly i hope you remember
that you were the one who let go.

theres a thousand words that i could say
to make you come back, yeah.
seems so long ago you walked away
& left me alone.
i remember what you said to me.
you were acting so strange.
maybe i was too blind to see,
that you needed a change.
was it something i said to make you turn away?
to make you walk out & leave me cold.
if i could just find a way to make it
so that you were right here, right now.
i've been sitting here,
can't get you off my mind.
i'm trynna my best to bea woman & be strong.
i've drove myself insane
wishin i could touch your face,
but the truth remains,
you're gone.

So I took a walk down memory lane today
I just kept going back and back
looking through old entries
sometimes I would stop reading
smile to myself and remember.
Then that smile would fade away...
sometimes , I would quickly scroll by
cause I couldn`t stand to read the words.
Like , one when i read our convo where
we sent eachother kisses
But God I loved him so much!
I didn`t know until now..but I hate him
I hate him because .. I can`t hate him ..
I wish I could just go back to the beginning of it
& just relive it over & over again..