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You're Not Alone, There Is More To This I Know

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 05:26:03 GMT

Hello who ever this may concern
I am happy to be here today to let you know things are splended.
However, myself being, well myself, cannot get off the edge that keeps me so stressed.
Im as happy as can be, but knowing that it all could go away in a moment, keeps me on edge.
I look at myself an I am proud. Proud of what i have done, and what i havent done.
Proud of who ive become.
But I am still weak.
It would take one moment of one evening for me to change all I have accomplished.
To some it may look as if i have not accomplished much....
but to whos standards are those?
Mine? Psh not to my knowledege no.
There are still so many things I need and want to do.
But sometimes I need help in doing so.
I'm so happy.

I hope you are too.

With love,
Erin

How ya like the drawing.....eh? eh!?

Fight or Flight

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 07:50:27 GMT

Went to see Brandtson and Tokyo Rose, the above are all Brandtson, the Tokyo Rose ones will not load.
If you click on them i believe you can see them bigger.
No layout i know, it looks bad, but i felt like a change and don't have time to make or find a cool one.
Alot is different in my life.

Erin

Monday, September 04, 2006

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 04:16:15 GMT

Life lately has been hectic. I still have not found a balance of work and play. Its either too much work, or too much play.
I start school Tuesday through Smoky Valley Virtual Charter School, but I have not finished my homeschooling. I guess I'll see how it all works out eh?
I've been hanging out with two new friends, Zach and Dustin. Because of this i am sortof taken i guess you could say now. It feels nice. He makes me uber happy.
It's only been a few weeks since i stopped going to Wichita weekly, and i really already miss it. I am scheming a way to get there on tuesday evening, because tokyo rose is playing. I also wanted to get there monday evening for Drop Dead, Gorgeous, but i weighed out the two shows, and i think i would enjoy tokyo rose more. So ill see if i get my bum there.

Speaking of Tokyo Rose, theres a song called spectacle by them, that i really like the lyrics too. I can apply them to a feeling i have. It goes tword anyone i have had drama with, i recently just kinda let all of it go. I no longer have angry feelings tword anyone in my heart. And i want to let them all know that, but just cant. So heres that song, just read it through its nice.

i slowly started chipping away at this block of stone
in an attempt to fashion a way to regain your attention.
why won't you hear me out?
i started out with some paper and pen and my apologies.
but every time i try to write to you,
i just can never find the words to explain.

so i'll build a monument to honor you,
out of the ruins of the love i knew.
i'll turn your favorite memories into a sight for all to see,
because i know when you see it, you'll come back to me.

picked me up the phone and i started to dial your line from memory.
too proud to ever let you pickup.
close to the point where i should give up.
you'll never call me back.
so now i'm doing something tangible - i'm working with my hands.
because i can never seem to manage to say i'm sorry in a language you can comprehend.

so i'll build a monument to honor you,
out of the ruins of the love i knew.
i'll turn your favorite memories into a sight for all to see,
because i know when you see it, you'll come back to me.

i'll put it right outside your window
so it's impossible to ignore.
will that be good enough for you? (for you)
and even if you pulled your shades down,
and burn the statue to the ground,
it'll be enough to bring your warmth back to me.

a monument to honor you,
out of the ruins of the love i knew.
i'll turn your favorite memories into a sight for all to see,
because i know when you see it, you'll come back to me.

building a monument to honor you,
out of the ruins of the love i knew.
i'll turn your favorite memories into a sight for all to see,
because i know when you see it, you'll come back to me.
come back to me.

I hope you can see a little bit of the insight i got from this. And on that note ill leave you with a picture or two
http://i67.photobucket.com/albums/h308/erinxcoolxcore/GaiasShows/Picture652.jpg

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 05:26:29 GMT

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 06:20:03 GMT

i am going to be in colorado for the next 5 days

ive spent 3 days a week for the past three weeks in wichita

life is pretty damn good.
Spent my 4th with Brocko and his family

Fountains are the best.

Love

erin

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 03:52:29 GMT

I love Wichita

Point made

erin

Monday, June 12, 2006

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 20:56:27 GMT

This is what happens when i try and get a picture of jimi doing a toe touch
Oh wow,

but notice its in the dark, and you can see him, beat that old crappy yet cool looking camera..............

erin

when he's all alone, the lovesong writer sings "oooh-ooooh can anyone hear me now?"

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 17:33:15 GMT

but no one hear him now
so he stumbles through syllables
cut from their sentences
lost letters call to him
deep in the alphabet,
"please give us meaning"

I love thursday........probably too much for my own good
I've only got one book report left, a religon work book and literature
wow i thought that was very little untill i just typed it out
shit
things arent going so well
im trying to get on top of it though

I bought a new camera
sony cyber-shot DSC-H2
12X Optical Zoom
6.1 Megapixle
Every option you could ever want....ever
You don't need to know how much i spent on it
its worth it
i hope

We lay we lay together, just not too close, too close (how close is too close)

Mon, 29 May 2006 18:51:33 GMT

Recital went through just fine, despite some technical difficulties. Ahem

This evening i leave for a road trip with Jamie Jess and Bethany, pictured two entries below.
We're gonna tear up Kc. And worlds of fun.

Nationals are comming up way to fast. way way to fast.
I have alot to deal with right now, in my head and heart.

I cause alot of my families problems.

erin

Friday, May 26, 2006

Fri, 26 May 2006 05:44:07 GMT

so its been nearly a month...
wow
Heres a little update
Public school is out, the school of emo is back in full swing, if you know me that will make sense to you
I work entirely too much, but the pay checks make up for it. oh it feels good.
My dance recital is this saturday, if you wish to come view it, ask for details
Monday evening i leave for a road trip with jamie jess and bethany, our reward for an eliet top first at regionals
Thursday or friday hopefully ill be running to wichita to pick some one up
Saturday im having my party woot

Guitar capos are the greatest thing ever

Jimi and i talked mucho on the front porch tonight, it was swell. really swell.

I love a boy like more than i can explain
And i love and care about another boy and i could explain but i wont
And i love another boy like woooooooooo (in a very loud volume)

you know who you are you three.

erin