Whenever I go to belly dance class, it is usually a good thing. I love belly dancing. It's the only way I will exercise (that's a clue, people...if you hate exercise, find something that doesn't seem like exercise that you like and become obsessed with it).
Well, I'm in the Advanced performance class. But I'm going to be starting massage school soon, and it will cut one day from my belly dancing schedule. I won't be able to go to the Thursday class. In order to be in shows, you have to make it to every, single rehersal. Only work or sickness gets you out of classes. This means I cannot be in shows until after massage school finishes.
That kind of sucks. But, I knew it was coming, and my teacher is okay with it. She suggested that I go to the Intermediate classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays until massage school starts. Then...I may have to quit for awhile, because there is no sense in me driving all the way to belly dance just to watch them rehearse.
So I went to the Intermediate class yesterday. It was a large class that day, with about 6 people (that's large for this studio). We started a new combination, and it was kind of a weird one. And then she changed something after we had already learned it one way. So I was having a little trouble remembering it completely. The music was easy to get lost in. I'll admit, I had a tough time with it. Sometimes that just happens...your brain just won't let you learn a combination, or your body just flat doesn't move that way.
And then my teacher wanted me to do the combination...alone...in front of everyone. By then, some of the Advanced students had come in...so about 10 people were watching me do a combination that I barely knew and kept screwing up.
I bombed it...bad. And kept bombing it bad. I could tell the teacher was mad, but I just wasn't up for it. I was mortified. Then she just abruptly ended class.
For a brief moment, I was ready to give it up and never show my face there again. But everyone was really complimentary afterwards, saying that it was a hard combination.
I guess I just felt stupid because I'm in the *performance* class, and I've performed in front of a rather large crowd before. I guess this just wasn't my night, and with the performances, I can do the dances in my sleep. This one...not so much. It ruined my night, because I felt so embarrassed about it.
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