ive always loved this song..][ this is love- kelly rowland ][...these words are so powerful...when i first heard it i just loved the passion in each phrase. when i met chris i could really relate to this song because i could feel every emotion with each verse. it perfectly describes the way i feel about him..... how deep i am in love with him and he has such a hold on me and my heart that people around me can tell.... how even when we're apart and separated...im still thinking about him...

sounds so ridiculously corny

we had our issues...and problems...all couples do. but we work through each one of them...and i dont doubt that we cant overcome anything that will come our way. so different..but so similar...we even each other out in a way that reminds me of a yin yang....shining our light on each other's darknesses we find a balance that draws us to each other continuously. i trust him...i feel so safe with him...i feel like nothing bad will ever happen to me with him there because he wont allow it to. such a broken person i was and slowly he pieces me back together...and although the process is a painstaking long tedious thing to put up with...he goes through all of my emotions and depressive modes with patience and love...and every time bringing me up out of the deep dark empty hole where i spent most of my life feeling so alone.

anything he wanted from me...or needed...whatever it was whenever...doesnt matter. i would give it up in a heartbeat. any material possession i have and anything he asked of me i would gladly give to him if he just asked. i love him...so much...he has this hold on my heart that makes me think of this phrase, "Where the heart goes...everything will folllow." kind of scary..i would drop everything for him. but thats the thing...he would never do or ask anything of me that would cause any harm or danger or negativity in my life.

there are things in my life ive been working on changing...things that needed to be fixed and worked on earlier that became habits that create a lot of danger to myself. hez helped me realize a lot without ever telling me what to do. he would never tell me what to do...or prevent me from doing what i wanted. we have a respect of privacy for each other which i really like and appreciate in our relationship...and also a sense of independency...because we have our own lives and somehow...we meet in the middle somewhere. but neway...when you love someone you change for them. not because they want you to change...but because you're changing based on the fact that you can love and respect them enough to know that they're looking out for your benefit. if chris was trying to change me for his benefit...thats one thing. and thats usually the case. you know...guys/girls get jealous and tell their boyfriends/girlfriends to stop doing this or that or start checking in and asking permission for shit etc...to me..thats not right. theres stupid shit in my life...that if it bothers him or what not... he wouldnt stop me from doing...but because i love him i change. because i want to...and i know hez just..looking out for me and whats going to be good for me in my life..not because he tells me to.

neways...im gonna stop rambling but...im in love..im so in love that i just wanted to write this all out because i feel like i cant contain it...such strong emotions just overwhelm me. i could keep going and going....but....ill save it for another night. ill end with this....

i found you when i wasnt even looking for you....and it turned out to be the best thing that could have ever happened to me...i love you...i will always love you...even if for some reason in the future we dont work out...it'll take a lifetime to forget you...because you've already made your mark deep within my heart....you are the one for me..my love

rAcH