im so fuckken happy!!

I just got back from Chai's house and..wow!! It all started when everyone came over to his house to hang out and stuff. Since there were a lot of people i guess you can say we had an unexpecting party heehee. No one paid attention to us so we held eachother in th corner of the room. All of a sudden Chai asked me if i ever had sex before. The last thing i wanted to do cause i love him so much was to lie to him so i said yes but one was by accident. he kissed me on the cheek and asked me if i wanted to have sex with him. we went into his room and got undressed. we started making out then before i knew it....it kinda happened. yes everyone i had sex to the boy im in love with. a dream come true...i got to kiss him everwhere like how i had always imagined. i felt him inside of me and felt his hand all over me. we ended up falling asleep but when i woke up my sister came to pick me up. i havent told her about it and i dont want her to find out so shush if you know my family well enough. well imma sleep now and dream about Chai.

I love you Chai!!

Warning: Very Eplict!! <---cant spell?

today was the best day of my LIFE!! im officially taken!

well today me, Kristine, Jared, Monica, and this really really REALLY gorgeous guy named Chai went to Borders. it was hella fun! we went into the section where all the sex books welooked at all the pictures. when we started to look at all gurls Kristine and Monica went away case they got scared. the Jared....was being Jared and he wandered off somewhere. when it was just me and Chai i was hella nervous!! especially when we were looking at sexing position books.

then we went to Jareds house and i went into his room to change cause i was spending the night. when i went in Chai was changing too. we started talking then he mentioned him being bisexual and i said i was too. then he told me he though i was cute and then i dotn really know what happened but then out of the blue we started to make out on Jareds bed. than before i knew it we were both naked and...yea. it was like a dream. i really really REALLY love him now.

i know this relationship will last forever. i love Chai and i know he loves me back.

hehe no new drawings this time but i want u all to check this out!! this is something my friend Jessica did. i dont know how she did it but she did it and its awesome!! im so proud *cries*!! (i hope she doesnt pass/beat me)JKJKJKJKJK!! dont hurt me!!

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeello! im just hella bored right now. this is my LAST WEEK of school! i have so many plans for this summer, except for going to Japan as i usually do...i let you kno was soon as i think of them.

i might die my hair black again but people say that it looks better brown. i dont know....i just cant decide! .....this i swhy my friends say im a girl more than a guy...

i was a little upset today about stuff that happened a few days ago so Jessie and Andy came over yesterday. i feel really bad now cause of what happened. we decided to watch T.V. and Jessica got up cause she had to go check on food. but as that was happening i leaned on Andy to play around but then i didnt know what came over me. i kissed Andy and we started to make out on my couch then Jessie saw us! she fell over so i went to see if she was okay but she kept pushing me away and she started to cry so......i kissed her and im really really REALLY sorry Jess! but today when we all went over to Jareds house the three of us(minus Jared cause he had no say in this) slept on the couch together.! i still feel kinda bad though.....oh and if any of you guys who dont know this already um...im bi, hehe!

no i am NOT a hentai!!

it suked