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Name: Sarah
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Oceanside
Birthday: 10/22/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Gosh. I'm interested in anything that has to do with jell-o, music, asians hahaha, cool things like marshmallows and lucky charms... If you start a conversation with me starting off with thte words LUCKY CHARMS, I will LOVE LOVE LOVE you=]
Expertise: Checkin' you out..
Occupation: Professional leaf make
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  SARAHxISxHERRE
Member Since:
5/27/2004
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I'm writing in this.. wow! It's been almost 2 years.. that is hilarious.
But I really think xanga's blogs are great... reading at some of the things i've said and felt brought tears to my eyes and I remember who I once was. I wonder if I was happier then or if i am happier now.. I've understood the world more and Ive become much more mature.. but I miss the extra spunk and unique abilities of my past. But, of course, i am much more unusual than any person now.. Imagine me 2 years ago!!! My mind was bouncing off the walls.
Anyways.. I wish I could fix some things and re-do some events. However, I have grown to love so many new people that i don't know if I could change anything.
1. If this sounds crazy and unusual to you... just suck it up. I've become a student of theater. No one would have ever guessed that in a million years! It was always "Sarah the doctor" or something brainy. But, this is how my life has turned out. If I don't become a wealthy entreprenuer actress, at least I'll be happy.. right.
2. Events have changed the way I see people.. close people. My brother has morphed into an insecure boy who has t berate everything in his path. He is not the same person he once was. He is still blind nd innocence in the sense that he doesn't understand the world.. and my motherhas becme weak, she has succumbed to the pressures of my father. Then, there is my father... whack.
3. I have once again lost touch with some of my best friends... all of them actually. Does it depress and confuse me? Yes. I have grown up with them.. they are what i had when things were very weird and I learned everything from their kind attitudes. However, I don't know what I am supposed to do. My efforts are not helping. I've called, made plans, and tried to execute them.. only to have face face crushed into the dirt. My mind stomped on like a piece of trash.I don't know if i could take the shock another time. My best friend, gone. I've tried to mend it but her quiet personality avoids me. Maybe she suddenly doesn't like me anymore. Maybe she forgot about our friendship.
I'm not sure if what I'm saying makes any sense but, I'm okay and that's what matters.
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| new blogokok.. so schools chill. im friends with my friends again. i love em so much<3 school is hard. APbio is KILLER. its hardb because the quizzes and tests hit u sooo hard. BAH. | | |
| Let's begin with a simple re-cap of my week. It was alright..I guess.
I went to Drivers' Ed for like 8 whole hours..ergerg.. then I went to the "Movie Night". That was cool.. we watched American Pie..ah. Got home.sleep=]
Sunday was the hottest day I have experienced in Oceanside. HOT. But, I was home doing homework..
I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT PUERTO RICO GOT MISS UNIVERSE!!! SHE LOOKED LIKE SHE HAD WAYYY TOOOO MUCH PLASTIC SURGERY DONE TO HER FACE. I REALLY THINK THAT: JAPAN SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN MISS UNIVERSE... BECAUSE SHE WAS GORGEOUS AND HAD A GREAT STAGE PRESENSE..IF NOT JAPAN, AT LEAST MISS USA..
dang. I was angry. ewww Miss Puerto Rico.
Dont get me wrong.. I didint favor Japan because she was asian.. because its a really strange day when a Korean is for a Japanese..but, this year, Puerto Rico really wasnt the best. | | |
| LalaHey.
I started to learn yesterday at Psychology that our personalities develop straight from most of our childhood experiences. I'm seriously going to keep that in mind. My Children will definetly grow up happily=]
I think people take things for granted. They take their food for granted. They take their friends for granted.. but, the mostly take their self-esteem for granted. We ruin our self-esteems by putting ourselves down..."I'm fat.", "No one likes me", "Everything sucks", "Why can't I be like her/him".
I think people should use steps to build their self-esteem levels... don't make things complicated. Find your strengths and weaknesses. I understand that some people don't like to admit they have weaknesses, because surely I don't. But, we need to. There is so much we can do to make ourselves feel better. Don't let others set your goals. Give other people good comments. Don't take what other people with low self-esteem say to you seriously. =]
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| Hey people=]
I've forgotten the beauty of Xanga. It's great because not many people use it anymore. I would just like to write about all the shit I've been having to suffer through...
1) I don't have any best friends anymore. They are no more my friends. It sucks a bit but I guess I have to live without a group of best friends. It's sad.. Just thinking about ti makes me feel reall wrong.. idk how to put it.. People change. They tell you they love you and then they smack you all of a sudden. I don't even remember what happened. Even though I don't like them anymore.. I don't regret anything I've done with them.. They've helped shape the bitch and nice-girl I am now.
2) I've gone through this incident that ended up with me being grounded for a whole month.. wow. being grounded during the summer is horrid. I've also been punished with me quitting me piano and voice lessons for a while. It's horrible. I was stupid for making such a horrible mistake.. and I've never been grounded my whole life.
3) School is hitting hard.. Next year is my junior year and I have to do my best.. But, my self-esteem is at an all-time low right now. I don't have anyone.no one. who I can lean to. I can;t lean to anyone. Its like no one cares. I bet out there there's someone who will want to talk and I can really trust. but, that person hasnt shown up just yet.. Summer school is killer. I just took a test.. and it was tough.ahhh.
4) My family is a bunch of shit. I'm not explaining.. it's just all shit. Why can't my family just shut up for one day. People think that I have a great family because: my mother is a quiet asian lady who cooks and cleans. My father is a great person who has a 4th degree black belt and a good job. My brother is a happy kid who is ranking TOP in his age's golf associations and has school asking him to join their teams. NO NO NO NO NO I hate them all. When I'm 18, I truly will take my mom and leave the house.
5) I just want freedom.
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