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I'm writing in this.. wow! It's been almost 2 years.. that is hilarious.
But I really think xanga's blogs are great... reading at some of the things i've said and felt brought tears to my eyes and I remember who I once was. I wonder if I was happier then or if i am happier now.. I've understood the world more and Ive become much more mature.. but I miss the extra spunk and unique abilities of my past. But, of course, i am much more unusual than any person now.. Imagine me 2 years ago!!! My mind was bouncing off the walls.
Anyways.. I wish I could fix some things and re-do some events. However, I have grown to love so many new people that i don't know if I could change anything.
1. If this sounds crazy and unusual to you... just suck it up. I've become a student of theater. No one would have ever guessed that in a million years! It was always "Sarah the doctor" or something brainy. But, this is how my life has turned out. If I don't become a wealthy entreprenuer actress, at least I'll be happy.. right.
2. Events have changed the way I see people.. close people. My brother has morphed into an insecure boy who has t berate everything in his path. He is not the same person he once was. He is still blind nd innocence in the sense that he doesn't understand the world.. and my motherhas becme weak, she has succumbed to the pressures of my father. Then, there is my father... whack.
3. I have once again lost touch with some of my best friends... all of them actually. Does it depress and confuse me? Yes. I have grown up with them.. they are what i had when things were very weird and I learned everything from their kind attitudes. However, I don't know what I am supposed to do. My efforts are not helping. I've called, made plans, and tried to execute them.. only to have face face crushed into the dirt. My mind stomped on like a piece of trash.I don't know if i could take the shock another time. My best friend, gone. I've tried to mend it but her quiet personality avoids me. Maybe she suddenly doesn't like me anymore. Maybe she forgot about our friendship.
I'm not sure if what I'm saying makes any sense but, I'm okay and that's what matters.
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| | Posted 1/14/2008 7:34 PM - 3 views - 0 comments
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