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| when no one's around, i get lonely.
<3ai jia
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| I feel like the stupidest person ever.
Just something that happened at SaveMart..
that I could've avoided.
I wanted to pay for my stuff with what was left in my debit but I only had like $5.85
and the stuff cost like $5.93.
So i got a quarter and it should have worked.
But because I was at the self-checkout, I did all by myself.
And before you check out ur stuff, they ask you to choose a language.
English or Spanish.
I was fooling around and had to choose Spanish.
So I didn't know what the heck the machine was saying when I was trying to pay with cash and credit at the same time.
The instructions made no sense PORQUE YO NO HABLO ESPANOL!
My 4+ years of Spanish sorta helped..but not enough to get me out of that embarrassment. My life is lame. I was suppose to go to office hours, but I went to 2 of my professor's classrooms and she was NO WHERE TO BE FOUND.
Not only did I come out of that ordeal sweaty and stinky....
I didn't get my paper corrected!!
Now I have to stay after class tomorrow which I hate. <3 jia ni men zuo shen me? | | |
| When I was in elementary school, I couldn't wait to get older.
To be able to drive a car and hang out with friends.
To be on my own.
It seemed like it would take forever.
Why couldn't time fast forward?
Now that I reached that age (being 19), I felt like time passed by so fast.
Now I want time to slow down.
In 11 more years, I'll be 30.
Making my dad 60 and my mom 64.
Such big numbers.
In just another 10 more years, I'll be 40.
Making my dad 70 and my mom 74.
Even bigger numbers.
As I get older, why does time seem like it speeds up?
Why can't I stop it?
If only I could. I would.
Make every moment worth it.
I feel like I wasted 15 years of my life (subtracting the years of when I was too young to really remember anything).
I should have studied more, I should have been more doting to my parents, my grandparents, I should have spent more time with my sister, I should have been a better person,
I should have done this, I should have done that.
So much things to do, with so little time.
When I think of time and the future, I cringe, become depressed, and my brain gets strained from all the thinking, from all the wondering.
Why did I waste my time doing nothing,
Why am I still wasting my time doing nothing?
What is wrong with me?
Life is so complicating...
Why didn't I see this before?
Why did life seem so simple..?
Well, it doesn't feel so simple anymore.
I wish it did though :\
<3jia
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| So recently, I've been very emo.
Wasn't a nice time.
It was like starting Wednesday and only started to die down today..which is Thursday!
I was effing emo for over a week!
My boyfriend noticed it because I showed it.
Haha. He's such a good boyfriend to put up with my crap and outbursts. School's been ehhh..crap.
Not like there's much to expect.
I'm taking bio, ochem, uwp, and phy.
Need to get a high gpa to make my parents proud.
Hopefully I will. Man, I miss my family so much.
Good thing I'm going home this Saturday.
But I think I'm leaving on Saturday too. :(
Because my cousin's driving me home.
He probably doesn't want to stay home for long since he doesn't have a bed to sleep on. haha. Oh shit.
I just remembered I have lab and I'm going to be late now. bye. | | |
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