Everything, I'm trying to beI know that I don't say this enough. I know most of this that is going to, most of you don't hear this enough. From me, at least. I know that there is no real way for me to express this. There is no real way for you to know exactly what I'm saying, exactly what I mean, or exactly how I'm trying to say it. But maybe I can describe what I'm feeling right now.
After a trip to Fremont, hanging out with Thomas, Kiri, Anthony, Ethan, Lyndsey, Nicole, and a ton of other people, I have had this feeling. Still have this feeling. I don't really know how to explain it. Imagine an anvil (shrank in size obviously) just above your diaphragm. That's similair to what it feels like. Not bad. But there. It's a very good feeling. A feeling of love that no one can truly understand whatout having felt it themselves. A feeling of love that knows no distance, only friends. Knows no drama, only memories.
I guess basically what I'm trying to say to everyone is... I'm sorry. I'm sorry to so many people about how I have not kept in close contact. I'm so sorry to people about how they don't know how I feel about people. I'm so sorry that I don't know how to make you really know.
I'm sure everyone can guess who I'm thinking about when I write this. I don't care.
If you are or were a good friend of mine at one point or another, and we just lost contact, know that I still love you. Know I still think of you. I'm sure that there are going to be people who read this that I'm very much not talking about. I'm sure that there are going to be peopel who read this that I am talking about, and don't entirely understand it. Either way is fine. If you are reading this, then you probably know who you are.
There are going to people that I am going to single out here. For different reasons. I'll probably update later with the specific reasons.
Anthony Kiri Thomas
And those are going to be the main three. Russ is not in there because right now, I'm just talking about friends. But I still feel the same thing for him. |