Hey everyone, I dont think ill be back on this anytime soon....I dont think that many will care that much...

Im leaving sept 16th to El Salvador, I bought a one way ticket and plan to volunteer and learn Spanish.

I made this xanga a year ago, and I never would have thought that I would be where I am now. So much can happen in a year. I still might update once I get there...I just dont know....

Bye! 

Ana’s Last night

Lying here hungry…

My whole body in pain…

Probably should eat something…

But I’m too ashamed…

Starting to shiver now…

Beginning to shake…

God how I love this…

How my body just aches…

Got up for some cold water…

And a cold shower…

Remind myself that soon…

I’ll be a delicate flower…

Did 3 hours of exercise…

But I must do more…

Still got one pound to loose…

Like the one I lost before…

Whoa, got a dizzy head rush…

Colors dancing all around me…

Like little fairies dancing around me…

Wanting to set me free…

Oh wow, I’m floating with them…

Going up high in the sky…

I finally made it!

The thinness that is I…

Hey everyone! I donno what what my current weight is, I havent found the scale since we moved here ...I think its a good thing, cause im not as obsessed...Ive mostly been even neg cals.

 Click Here for my pro-ana website, and heres a few more:

Angelicas Ana          The Used Ana Luv          Livin with Ana          Lost Identity          Blue Dragonfly          Hidden Butterfly

The pro-ana website Cerulean Butterfly was in Time magazine, and the girl is receiving lots of hate mail...please take the time to give her support. Anas should stick together!

Theres more links on my website, these are just a few I found tonight! They reallyyyyy help me stay focused when I need it!

I wont stop until I look like them...

Hey! Sup...I dont think ill shut it down, but I donno...its gonna be hard once I move. I did well yesterday, except last night I ate a hugeeee burger, right before I went to bed, and my stomach was huge this morning! I felt soo fat...today I only ate neg cals, lots of bluberries...

Here are some Pics I took yesteray...Im 137lbs right now

Me about 3-4 years ago (I think I was 15)...before ana, when I though I was too skinny!

I look different, no?

Hey, honestly this xanga is getting on my nerves. I honestly think Im going to shut it down when I leave to volunteer in El Salvador. I meet maybe 2 good people on this site that actually give a shit, and ive been on this thing for a year now! I donno...

Heres some eye candy...JUDE LAW...I dont care if he cheated, hes just too pretty, I forgive him!

I would sooo do him...omg...

Yay! Its my b-day....omg 18....

Whatever, b-days suck ass. I never had a b-day party as a kid and I dont think anyone will ever throw one for me. Im going out clubbin saturday with a few girlfriends, so thats about it!

I already fought with 2 ppl on the phone this morning. My mom is mad because I want to spend the day with my dad, and this ex-guy-friend (who I dont talk to anymore since he tried to do it with me) called me and hung up on me because I dont believe that he was just "goofing around" with me that night. Hes also mad that I told 2 of my friends what happened, becaus enow everybody knows about it. I needed some support! That night was traumatizing!

I mean, if a guy pretty much jumps on top of you & tries to kiss you, how can that be goofing around?

Arent b-days fun??? They get more and more unbelieveble every year. Ohhh wait until my ex calls....ahhhhh!