my life...has no meaning and i want to express it in a way that doesn't scare her. i wanna make her happy but i keep pushing her back without any explaintion....she's afraid of wht i might do to her now...but she's helpingme..even thoug she's scare...that's the glory of it.

i don't really know wht to do but watch other people beat themselves to death...yuki is enjoying the glory of it. She is all hyper and acting like kitty. she scrath me on the arm and started to bite my arm. meowing like an idiot...help me plz...kind of like a sister but no...we went outside and she fell down yet again...this time...it hurt her harder and she laughed evilly...and ran to me to help her. i had to aid her wound.
     She's sometimes...easy to deal with if your nice to her. diemmy knows...she hits her. ON the head....girls are sooo weird..especially if they like to wath YAOI and have gay pix of them...

Sometimes...i wanna end my life....but something is holding me bak....it's not that i'm scare...someone...some person....stopping me from killing myself...
with the life of toture...only one person that is stopping me...

today is doing fine for me....Yuki's being dumb again and isn't helping out. She wants me to go watch some Yaoi with her. I wanna listen to some music and she just...nevermind..she's gonna come after me soon. The other day..or was it yesterday..Yuki made Popcorn and she trip...having the ver HOT popcorn come at me. Good thing it was in a bag! It fell on my lap. the butter was ok. Then Yuki got hurt. Fell on glass. but she's happy about it. NA d now she wants me to go find some YAOI pix with her at some stores and online..and i don't really care about Yaoi cuz' she's into it and i can't stop her. I don't mind if she watch gay anime cuz' she like's cross-dresser..ONLY in JAPAN! that's it...she's a weird one...anywayz..i gotta go now...she's gonna do something i don't her to regret...