Canal Street stop, and then this dude right across the way was staring at me.  So, of course I get weirded out b/c he was staring straight at me.  He gets up and stands up on the seats, and starts yelling like a banchee.  No joke.  He picks me out of the crowd of numerous people on the subway, and starts lecturing me.  He babbles on and on, and then quickly starts yelling and slapping his hands at me.  Telling me that I went from looking like a 14 year old to a 30 year old b/c I supposedly drink yogurt drinks with aspirin and LSD.  This guy freakin went off on me, like I was on drugs, when in turn I believe he was on drugs.  He started blaming me and “my” people b/c he lives in a poor class neighborhood.  BTW did I tell you that this guy was Asian? He just went on and on about how “us” Chinks and Japs ruined his life.  Meanwhile, in my head, I’m like “WTF is this guy’s problem? Does he know that I’m not Chinese, Japanese… and that I’m Filipino? I'm Asian just like him, and he single handedly picks me out and yells at someone who's of the same race as him. And blames me for his misfortunes.” People like him make me wanna puke.  Who is he to go off on me, and lecture me.  Ugggh* Maybe it’s my luck being the only Asian person on this side of the subway car, and I just happen to be the small Asian girl who probably is passive and won’t say anything at all.  Of course, I didn’t say anything at all cuz he scared the living shit out of me.  But as we got to the Broadway-Nassau stop, thank God that a police officer yelled at him for practically yelling at me.  That police officer was my savior.  You never know what to expect these days.  So that’s my scary story of the day…  Lemme tell you, he preached to me about every freakin single stereotype there is in this world about Asians... ugggh* and of course, I'm the one who has to be the one he points out in the crowd...

·          Lesson of the day:  Avoid any and ALL weirdos on any subway in New York City… don’t look at them, don’t make eye contact with them, don’t talk to them… I learned the hard way today… *eh*

·          My fortune cookie told me 2day: that I will have an unusual romantic encounter [soon] … hahahaha!  I laugh at that one…

·         currently reading: the wealthy barber – david chilton                                                 

·         currently feenin: sour watermelon belts       

·         currently listening2: sweet slow jams esp. 'day by day' by as one & 'make me whole' by amel larrieux

·         lookin fwd2: my fun filled wknd [hopefully]

·         annoyed@: whoever's mowing their lawn or trimming the hedges in their front yard at almost 10:30 pm?! [wtf?!]                                                     

·         missin: ikaw.. . yes you my dear!~

so if you know who i am, you're probably wondering why i've gone back to this. after all the ish that came with it before, why is she back? i've come back for another reason.

my purpose for this xanga site is solely to express my opinions on various topics, to let out all the feelings that are stored inside of me, and most of all, let everyone know that i'm alive. lol*

my fortune: 'forgiveness is a powerful health remedy' --> let's reflect on that...

we all know that drama, hate, anger, and pain is not healthy at all. sure everyone has had their fair share of each and every single one of the things mentioned above. but is it healthy to continually go through it day after day? honestly, i don't think it's healthy. yet through it all, i seem to not follow what my head tells me to. i listen to my heart because i trust that my heart will lead me to the good things in life. with time, patience, and trust, those 4 things will be erased.. . and then i won't have to worry as much anymore.

so being able to forgive and possibly forget is something that we should all think about. work past your problems, your anger and pain.. and most of all the drama.. . and then things should get better day by day.. .

i look forward to those sunny days, filled with smiles and laughter.. . the times when all i could feel is anxiety and butterflies in my stomach.. . *sigh*

toodles* [ps. one word - TANGENT ... i'm the queen of tangents!]