dear xanga:

ive been cheating on you with myspace.

is it still me that makes you sweat, am i who you think about in bed, when the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as youre sliding off your dress, and think of what you did and how i hope to god he was worth it, when the the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin, ive got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck, then any boy youll ever meet, sweety you had me, girl i was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of, exchanging body heat in the passenger seat. you know it will always be me.

first off  i must say merry christmas and happy new year to all.
second i must say im sorry if you texted me, called me, or sent a pigeon to tell me these words and i did not respond with a merry back
today was the first day i wore make up or even put on real people clothes in two weeks
getting your tonsils and adnoids out at 17 is not fun, i do not recommend it to any one.
im just now getting better, so please pardon me for not being around or calling to say lovely things.
i hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and got lovely things. i'll make up my leave of absence some how.
i dont really have much more to say.
oh special sorry to friends especially brittany about the rocket summer concert on the 30th, i was still not feeling yummy and did not get the tickets before i got my surgery. i hope i can make that up some how. please forgive.

chin up darlin.

so i guess this is life.
one minute it is like a grand piano,
the next a tamborine.
my brain is overloaded and my heart...
well a little heavy.
like a i said sometimes like a grand piano
sometimes a tamborine.
i really dont make sense.
i just need to think less.

ps. im sorry to those who fight. i hate that chaos is between the two of you and i hate that i feel it the most.

im tired of saying goodbye. it hurts too much.
but im strong. or we will see.

what an amazing day yeseterday was.

roller coaster day, but....

I GOT ACCEPTED TO HENDRIX!!

im going to college. im getting out of texas. im not a fuck up!

will write more. very excited. very tired.

i love you scott.