| the men's restroomso in between sections of my practice test today, i was totally brain dead and i walked to lower level 1 of the nyu libe. there are 2 staircases on either side leading down. so i mindlessly walked to the door where the bathroom usually is, and obviously not processing any of the signs.. i basically follow a GUY in.. and its not until i'm halfway through the door that hes somewhat holding open after him that he looks back at me with this "what are you doing?" look, that i wake up and realize i'm walking into the men's restroom!! so i usually study on lower level 2 where the women's restroom is on the right and the men's on the left, but on LL1, its reversed!! what genius thought of that?! omg i was soo embarassed. but it was pretty funny haha. |
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| a lot longer than i planned..seems like everyones been posting sad entries lately. maybe its the weather dropping back down to subzero after it was so gorgeous this weekend..yuckk. but anyways, heres my pessimistic entry/update on urban.
so urban is awesome and seriously the best thing i've done at cornell. its a really good break from ithaca and prelims and everything and its also great exposure to medicine and getting a feel of what its really like. i've always been pretty much 100% sure that i wanted to go into medicine, but now that i'm somewhat in the real world environment - heres the downside of it - all i hear is negative things. ever since i stepped into the hospital it seems like they're trying to drill into my head that i shouldn't go into medicine and they're all telling me to go into business. most of them are half joking about it (except for one who told me that he only went to med school to avoid the korean army and that i just want to go into medicine because i'm naive) but theres definitely some truth to every joke. and if they are joking, why does every single doctor i encounter say the same thing? this is not to say that everyone in this field hates their profession, but compared to about the 15 or so who have told me not to do it, only 3 have given me positive feedback and told me that if i really like it, i should do it (including a resident in his 8th year .. omg)
why they seem to hate it:
> 4 years of undergrad, work hard just to get into a good med school - maybe accumulate debt from cornell?
> 4 years of med school, work hard just to get into a good residency - around 200 grand more in debt
> 3-9 years of residency depending on specialty, work hard just to get into a good fellowship (if you choose so? not sure) - making 50 grand a year
> about 3 yrs of fellowship
> finally somewhat done. you start making money (maybe not even equivalent to ibankers first or second year out of college depending on your specialty), you're like a million years old, you look like crap from 10 years w/o sleep (in my opinion), you will have maybe wasted the best years of your life studying, you have no money, maybe no time for a family, etc. etc...
so i guess the main complaints are money, lifestyle and not being worth all the time you put into it? yea it would be nice to be making a million dollars a year out of college, but i haven't taken a single business class at cornell.. which shows my extreme lack of interest in it. and even if i did go into business i prob wouldn't even be able to become an ibanker or one of those 6figure paying jobs. lol.
i think i semi know the realities of medicine. i know its definitely not as glamorous as it is on tv. and i don't expect it to be, but i still think i really want to do it. but if i go down this path, i'm scared i'll be making the biggest mistake of my life. what if it really isn't what its all cracked up to be and i end up miserable, 10 years older, full of regret, and back where i started. then again its not like i can't call it quits somewhere down the road. i'd just rather not wait that long.
anyways, thats just me being drama. lol. maybe i'm just having second thoughts b/c i'm studying for mcats and i'm not gonna get into med school and this is my self defense mechanism for when i fail the mcats and get rejected from everywhere.
i'll mention some positive things about urban too haha since its been so great except for all of the above. lol.i got to see some really cool surgeries - including a heart bypass, fixing a brain aneurism, removing a brain tumor, and a hugee skin graft on this guy who got caught in an apt fire and 70% of his body had burns =[ also, on our site visits, we went to a taping of showtime at the apollo! with whoppi goldberg as the host! i think its on in 2 weeks so if you're watching, look in the audience for a bunch of white and asian kids. lol. someone thought that they purposely spread us out into 4 groups so we didn't stick out as much. haha. anyways being in nyc is awesome, i get to go home and i finally don't have to do my own laundry again. yay! but i miss cornell ppls! come visit meee :D this semester is making me dread going back to ithaca even more and more.. i don't even wanna take a trip up there to visit haha.. |
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| what an exhausting break.. i think i need a break from this break.. lol.
i'm talking to tiff on the phone right now and i just realized that the 4 of us haven't all gotten together since last christmas! p.posse def needs a hardcore reunion <33
and i thought it was finally time for a diff profile picture after 2 years :D
yea, pointless entry.. haha
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| a little procrastination.. since i am going crazy here. i need a break. i've been in olin since 11am, and haven't left my seat for more than half an hour.. haha i dunno why it seems like i'm so hardcore studying for a supposedly easy class.. i think i studied more than i did for biochem.. AH. anyways my last final is tomorrow night! so exciteddd - because i won't be coming back next semester!! yess i'll be in nyc for urban semester - interning at the cornell med school hospital :D thank goodness.. i SO need a break from cornell.
btw i am also lovin the new fob single - this ain't a scene, its an arms race. go listen :D
perhaps i shall also take this chance to upload the pics from my last entry that got deleted but i was too lazy to rewrite.. !
haha congrats to the pimpin' pi's and juuddyy
my paddle! it has the nyc skyline!! :D heheh thanks little!
we have no good pics.. ugh rob.. lol jk
xi's n mommie (minus ann paying the bill and delia in hk)
hehe :D
since we didn't get a good picture at our formals.. lol
thanks jeffy!
pretty christmas tree :D
okay that was enough of a waste of time.
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