| since noone really uses xanga anymore, i might as well just type out my thoughts. this summer i expected it to be like amazingly fun, with the boyfriend and all. but it wasn't entirely. many unnecessary ridiculous problems starts popping up which prevents me from enjoying this summer. sometimes i try to believe that things are not going bad and they will forever be good. i think i expect too much which makes me very selfish. i really don't like myself sometimes. i don't like how i get annoyed at the smallest things. which leads to getting mad. so much for maturing! i thought i'd be mature by now, but i'm not. i'm still the same back then. it's really hard to change. it's easy to say, but hard to do.
i have many goals this summer! but i'm getting lazy again. sigh! i keep saying that i will jog everyday, but i end up not doing so. i really want to lose my stomache fat! if only i had some motivation. yes, i know. i should be depending on myself and noone else. but that's hard to do too. i also want to weigh 115 llbs! lmao. i just have to lose 5 llbs and i'm goood. i have to work hard to earn what i want. i know that, but it's hard. on the otherhand, i have to stop saying that everything is hard. hahahhhhh.
~Ganbatte!
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