Interests:worshipping God, jammin', kissing under the stars, shopping, the beach, late nite phone calls, hand-written letters, pictures, heart-to-heart talks, fellowshipping with bros + sis, hugz + kissez, simplicity, quiet moments ~ all the little things... Occupation:Student Industry:Social Work
It's funny... I've always knew of this group. But it's when I was at placement today when my supervisor showed me a music video that I have become aquinted with their songs. I almost cried when I first listened to the song... it's called "Mirror"... and then I search them up... and I'm in love with their music... it's... empowering... I like it... This song speaks of my situation right now... so true...
Surrender - Barlow Girls
My hands hold safly to my dreams Clutching tightly not one has fallen So many years I've shaped each one Reflecting my heart showing who I am Now you're asking me to show What I'm holding oh so tightly Can't open my hands can't let go Does it matter? Should I show you? Can't you let me go?
Surrender, surrender you whisper gently You say I will be free I know but can't you see? My dreams are me. My dreams are me
You say you have a plan for me And that you want the best for my life Told me the world had yet to see What you can do with one That's committed to Your calling I know of course what I should do That I can't hold these dreams forever If I give them now to You Will You take them away forever? Or can I dream again?
I'm sick and tired of this crap. I am drained from the daily battles. I can't grasp how a mother can be so calculating, so unloving, so bitter towards her own child. I hate her. It's done.
Luke 6:42 - "How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
These words hits me like rushing waters... the promise of letting go... of forgiveness... of reconciliation... taking the plank out of my eye...
Luke 6:42-45 - "No good tree bears bad fruit, nor does a bad tree bear good fruit. Each tree is recognized by its own fruit. People do not pick figs from thornbushes, or grapes from briers. The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks."
overflow... may you be the overflow of my life... i wonder what actually comes out of my mouth... is it editfying? is it of You? is it pleasing to You?
I long to be at Your feet... these words is my prayer, my desire... overwhelm me, Father...
This song's been on my heart ever since the first time I've heard it... it's played by an unlikely person... by someone i admire... someone i once loved... someone who've hurt me... someone who i've blamed for all the hurt that i carried for all these years... yet someone that taught me a lot... taught me that God transforms people... that God is God...
And I can't stand you Must everything you do make me wanna smile? And then I like you for a while No...
But you won't let me You upset me girl and then you kiss my lips All of a sudden I forget that I was upset Can't remember what you did
But I hate it You know exactly what to do so that I can't stay mad at you for too long That's wrong but I hate it
You know exactly how to touch So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more Said I despise that I adore you
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah) I can't stand how much I need you (I need you) And I hate how much I love you boy (ohh) But I just can't let you go And I hate that I love you so (ooh)
And you completely know the power that you have The only one that makes me laugh Sad and it's not fair How you take advantage of the fact that I... Love you beyond a reason why (whyyy) And it just ain't right
And I hate how much I love you girl I can't stand how much I need you (yeah yeah) And I hate how much I love you girl But I just can't let you go And I hate that I love you so
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me And your kiss will make me weak But no one in this world Knows me the way you know me So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
yeahhhhh ohhhh ohhh oh yeah
It's how much I love you It's how nuch I need you It's how much I love you (ohh) It's how much I need you And I hate that I love you Sooooo And I hate how much I love you boy I can't stand how much I need you And I hate how much I love you boy But I just can't let you go And I hate that I love you soo And I hate that I love you soo sooo
more and more i find that i like to keep things to myself... blogging is difficult... apparently talking becomes difficult... don't wanna talk anymore... what changed? ... because there's nothing to talk about...
