it's only goodbye for now

things that i will never forget

olivia
- holding hands in the rain and snow
- taking 10 leaves over 3 consecutive days
- taking the subway all the way uptown just to do like ONE thing
- smoking in the ville at any available sign out opportunity
- starbucks talks
- queen st.
- all the piercings we got together
- drunk at sushi time
- yorkdale pictures
- 168
- chinatown cigarettes
- pacific mall cha siu
- going to ivan's place and fighting over blanket
- the park

joanne
- bitching
- always seeing each other thru and knowing what eac other are going to say next
- first time i met you screaming becuase we had science together
- hiding in my room on the second floor and holding your nose
- my dietician and bodyguard
- the "ma lai chung" with olivia on the way back to my place
- coming over to my place with olivia and seeing the bald guy
- judging people's scream at wonderland
- getting into shit because of the business project
- out with gary eating subs and gummi bears
- you burning my thigh
- you and your bunnies
- going all the way to scarborough town centre just to eat taco
- pink and orange :)
- taking care of me when i was sick (esp. the time becuase of the candy)
- getting taxi slips for me every single time
- telling me mr. stewart's not hot
- you watching in pain when i got my tattoo

anita
- ezone and will (i'm so so sorry hun)
- viva
- bowling
- our "family" (i will never ever forget "us" i had an amazing time)
- our cheering :) GO MAC!
- going to sing k and not singing
- your earrings and bellyrings
- sleeping over at your house and burning it down
- drinking at your place
- making the weird knots at st. john's
- about to puke at ck with ron (i'm sure you know why we needed to puke)
- at my place in scarborough
- the one and only that smokes REGULAR and not menthol
- you worrying the fuck out of me when you kept fainting
- all your pink clothes for mac
- sushi time on your birthday

heide
- playing in the toilet drawing on the wall with her foundatino
- showering during study and not being able to hear each other
- d2
- making lip stains on the paper
- talking all night in my room
- trying to get sick by not wearing pants and opening the window
- running away to yorkdale and eaton
- crying with me in the courtyard
- not being able to talk on the phone or on icq because we were so used to seeing each other
- bitching about everyone
- the richie concert
- trying to diet and failing after a day
- going to get our nails done all the time
- going skiing and you giving me your snow pants
- always being there for me no matter what
- comparing k and ken
- laughing at every single thing (even if it wasn't the least bit funny)
- cussing the res dons
- the capsule thing that never ended up happening
- eating escargots for the first time in my life
- making grass pillows with joanne
- getting a full box of fries and not being able to finish even half
- lying to the dons saying that you came into my room really early in the morning when in fact you've been in the whole night
- hiding under my table
- drawing the ugly porkchops
- our little black book where we wrote about eevrything including tampons

my "baybee" bacon
- waiting for me outside of school in the freezing cold and snow when it study time
- first time at ezone when i wanted to beat you up
- second time at viva when YOU kissed me first
- saving me from james
- all your text messages
- calling me bacon and "baybee"
- lying to me
- cheering me up when i was sad
- coming right at 330 either at coop or at bss, coming at 9 to see me for an hour, coming during my spare
- late night phone conversations where i'd fall asleep on you
- the story about the little boy and the little girl
- once again our "family"
- at the beach downtown
- the porcupine and the bunny
- white hot chocolate and coffee with milk and 4 sugars
- being on the left side of me
- being on queen st. and at eatons every single day
- playing the porn game at ezone
- never finishing my food and you having to (mcdonalds strawberry mcflurry)
- the "what a coinsidence" conversations at the bus stop
- smoking at NEW METRO
- buying uniform with me and joanne
- hugs and kisses
- singing on the street
- seeing a movie almost every single day until we saw everything playing
- eating cha siu faan at "gum sek"
- seeing my mom
- watching the madonna play with the family
- you making me buy shoes because i was mad at you
- coming to bamburgh
- going to church with aaron
- in the k room with a bunch of strangers
- you and ron hating each other
- holding my hand and showing everyone
- taking the subway together
- meeting hide and whats his face
- smoking 2 packs of cigarettes every single day
- coming to school at 8am on weekends
- seeing mandy and dissing her
- talking on the phone with carmen
- watching pearl harbour in the tv room
- at the front door waiting for your taxi when it was freezing and me with the red towel
- at the korean restaurant
- talking in the park and dreaming about the future
- chilling with joanne and anita
- the cup being half full and not half empty
- health is your first priority, i'm not
- our promises and so so so much more

everytime i leave i think of the song leaving on a jet plane, only part of the lyrics match up what i feel, but this time, every single word of it is what i'm thinking.

all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go
i'm standing ehre outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye
but the dawn is breaking, it's early morn
the taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn
already i'm so lonesome i could cry

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
i'm leaving on a jet plane
i don't know when i'll be back again
oh, baby, i hate to go

there's so many times i've let you down
so many times i've played around
i tell you now, that they don't mean a thing
every place i go, i think of you
every song i sing, i sing for you
when i come back, i'll wear your wedding ring

now the time has come to leave you
one more time oh let me kiss you
then close your eyes, and ill be on my way
dream about the days to come
when i don't have to leave alone
about the times, i won't have to say

i can't wait until i come back and we've both grown up. i hate to leave bss and leave what i have established here. i won't forget what's happened here and everyone's that influenced me and changed me, everyone that i've met has taught me. thank you for hating me and making me stronger, thank you for loving me and teaching me to love, thank you for picking me up when i fell, for opening my eyes when i was blinded, crying and laughing with me. to all my girls, big g, stan (these past few days you've really helped me out), and my baybee porcupine.

muchmuchlove