almost done school =)

FINALLY! i can't wait for this semester to end.. and start a fresh summer time..yes that's right.. miss jaymeeli arzadon is taking SUMMER SEMESTER! (for all of you guys who don't know me that well.. i NEVER take summer semester.. in fact.. i never even THINK about school during the summer) but yes.. i am.. i figured that if i take as much courses as i can asap i can FINALLY graduate and NEVER have to think about school..for a lonngg...loonnnggg time :D

on a happier note: happy almost birthday to RJ bugayong and Heidi Tanoue =) we gon' party this weekend like no other love you both :)

annnddd...

happy almost NINE months babe.  Through thick and thin i know we'll make it love you!

Do you ever feel like you're irritating someone..?

i do...

Let's see.. third week at school and already i'm feeling the urge to just not do anything at all.  It's probably due to the fact that a whole lotta drama surrounds me, yes it's quite the irritating thing to deal with at the tender age of 20.. again and again.. it's such a never ending cycle

anywhoo..

to the point of this entry

Everyone's been irritated by someone, annoyed of someone or just can't stand to see the sight of that other person.. those are probably some of the worst feelings someone could feel... actually.. no.

  For me..its the feeling that i'm being a burden to someone else.. someone i love.. someone thats old yet new in a sense.. someone i'm so afraid to let into my world fo fear that he might double think this whole thing, and it would be that easy too just to leave.  I really don't mean to do the things i do, its just i guess he's the closest thing that i've got to me.. (not counting my friends ofcourse) but the closest thing to a really close best friend that i've got.  I started to let him in and things got worst, now i'm just afraid to let him see the rest of it, or even the end result of it.  Being the good guy that he is he sticks it through, through my bitchiness, my neediness, my complaining etc etc.. but as of late it seems as if its starting to affect him too.

  I know people can't stay in that puppy love stage forever, people gotta fight right? couples have to have the best of both worlds.. unfortunately for me hes so perfect that i thought the relationship wouldn't consist of any fights or whatever.. TOTALLY WRONG! it consists of what every relationship is supposed to have: love, trust, and a whole shit load of drama that you guys gotta go through together to keep being the strong bond that you two are.

I'm willing to go through all that, but is he still? how long till he finally realizes he's too good for me and just up and leaves, even though he constantly tells me that's not going to happen, even though i show that i  believe him..i'm scared shitless! of the fact that he COULD leave.  *sigh i'm so melodramatic, but i can't help it.... i love him..

*sigh.  you're still the one i always wanna turn to..

  you're still the one that i'll run to when i cry

the one person that i turn to after a huge fight between us or with anyone else

the one person i cant stand to be without

the one person that can change any mood i'm in with just a smile or a hug

the one person.. the one person i'm so scared to lose in the end

iloveyou.

out with the old, in with the new =)

damn..

can you guys believe its already january 17th?! of..2007! holy crap..and pretty soon itll be 2010 and our beloved city will be even more crowded with people from all over the place! i'm pretty pumped :) haha

anywhoo... just a little recent update for anyone who still reads this

happy new years =)

:: spent the new years with the same folks i did last new years (except my baby ;)) and it was great..as usual.. then to a house party we went to surrey and that was...eh* dont know how to describe that i guess because we did get there uber late.. decided to leave at around six something in the morning, got to the boyfriend's house around seven something crasshed, then he went to work came home early and we slept the whole day =) all in all a very productive new years eve hehe i had fun :)::

january rolls in =)

::second semester at Kwantlen!.. (yupp guys i go to Kwantlen now) decided to change my program to the BA: major in crim.  And so far its been pretty interesting, quite tiring but pretty interesting::

what else..

went back to the gym

my hair's still black =S surprisingly enough i haven't made an attempt to dye it yet :( hmph

i QUIT RETAIL! drives me nuts! i serve/bartend/sing at java jazz now.

aannnddd

i love my boyfriend (six months and still going) through all that drama and whatever weve passed..  i can honestly say i'm so happy we're still here together =D

so FUCKIN happy. =)

baby, you make the world just a better place to live in.  You showed me the good and the bad of a REAL relationship.  The give and take that i've been missing out on for a long time, and the patience and perserverance that started to fade before.

  You truly are my "one of a kind" those words haven't had so much meaning, even though i'm just typing it out on xanga.  I want the world to see, i want the world to know that i am YOUR girl, no one elses.

I can't even begin to describe what it feels like to be with you, be near you, be far away from you and everything in between it all comes up to three little words: i love you.  Never forget that, never doubt, never worry.  You've captured this heart in so many ways, i thought i couldn't love again, i thought i couldn't go through all that bullshit again but YOU.. YOU changed it all..in one single instant and all those little moments you've changed me into a better person, a person i never thought i could be or ever be again.

I hope you read this, i hope you know the points i'm getting at with you..and trying to express to you.. see when i think about you everything just seems to flow..it's like i'm not even typing the words are just kinda comin' out (as corny as that sounds)

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME LAUGH/SMILE/CRY/ANGRY/MAD/INSECURE/AND INSANELY JEALOUS CUZ YOUR SO DAMN SEXY ;) heh..

aahhh so much more to explain but..*sigh i know you already know all of this...soooo for the MILLIONTH TRILLIONTH TIME i love youuuu kritoffer alviar =)