| okaayyy much overdue update(according to some people i need to update da damn thing!).......but what do i say???...i can't recap the entire year,its feelings,events,losses,victories,failures,surprises,discoveries,loves,lessons or people. so what do i say?? i don't think i'll sit here and whine about things off the past b/c i can't change it. so what exactly do i say?? i say that I no longer reside as the old ghettofied bitch that once graced 2004's freshmen class, know for cutting classes, getting bad grades and not giving a F bout anyone or anything. my transformation has been a learning experience for me. i realize that under this general transformation there have been many details in my life that have changed...from failure to studious(depends on who u ask)...downright spazzing out bitch to anger management...from a cutter(3 days a week) to actually having a consience when i cut 1 class...from chilling on 88th and getting bent with strwbry to a new chick on 116th....from niggerette,blueiceprincess,spriggy D, blocktoppa(donned) to plain only me....from having it all on the outside to waiting for him to finish time on the inside...from g'ing niggaz stupid to not really caring....from c-walk to rubyred...from bk to qns...from failing classes to arguing about grades...
i could go on and on about my changes but it would make no sense...see this is who i am now and will be for sometime....memories from yesteryears will fill my brain with memories but not my eyes with tears...my heart with regrets but not with burden...i look forward to next year and challenges that are to come and an accomplishment of graduating but i will look back to these past 2 years which have been bitter-sweet and have caused me to grow up and learn that life isn't what it is it's what u make it...i look back at the snowfights, walking home and dancing in the snow,making someone take the train all the way from qns to manhattan to bk with me,getting down for the crown on 88th w/ massives,crying in the morning cuz i hated skool,sleeping on the sidewalk, hating spanish class,loving cutting pretending i broke my leg but showing up to skool by 6th prd after getting a call at my house saying i would fail 1st semester, running away to my house and me cursing your uncle,staying till 6 in da evening with ms mougis making me make up labs,losing friends and making new ones,yelling jersey's here in bk,freaking out during the blackout and thinking it was a terrorist attack,seeing nells getting arrested and being nosy going outside asking wha happen?........
it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday......memories leave me never...all the good times we had.. it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday...
IT'S SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
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