once again i start by saying i havnt updated xanga in a very long time, not because i dont wanna, jus simply bceause im jus that lazy!!  i cant beleive its 2005 already.. (yes i realize its already been 12 days into the new year but eh..) and whats even more overwhelming is that in a couple of hours i'll be turning 19!! im soo frickn old but da good news is i can legally go clubbing AND buy alkie............ for a certain person *ahemJEANahem* hahahaha *winkwink* . Overall ..2004 wasn't bad, jus lyk any other year, there were good and bad times, fortunately the good times always outlasted the bad.  I've learned alot from what happened to me in the past year.  I've learned that looks can be decieving, I've learned to let go of some things and to be more aggressive on others, and I realized that i cant live without my friends especially mi girls (and TBS of course!!)

So im gna talk abt my christmas break a lil.. .tho im kinda late but i feel lyk typing rite now so here i go.  After finals i went bak to HK..again (what else is new).. so i shopped a bit and then on Christmas i flew to taiwan with my whole family including aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents.. etc since it was my grandparents 50th anniversary!! *awwwwwwwww* .. crazy huh?! 50 years..thats a hella long time!! i gota admit..i was kinda bored in taiwan (sorry my bestest love) but i was.. cuz there is literally nothing to do.. or maybe the tour guide didnt bring us to the fun places!! i think the most exciting part was... stayin in the hotel where they shot the series "meteor garden" ..how exciting huh?! haha im jus kidding..it wasnt THAT boring! going on this trip was simply to celebrate my grandparents 50th and my parents 27th anniversary...its not the activity but the company!! hehe *right jean??* hehee!! anyways..i came bak on the 1st and spent most of the time with my bestest pal from UT.. he, as usual, made me laff sooooooooooooo frickn much! he left the next day!! (Im mad at you for that btw!!) so then .. jan 7th came shortly after that and i went on a ski trip with my gurls and met quite alot of people i guess i can say. Im not gna go into detail tellin the trip..cuz that could take me forever and cuz i think everyone did pretty much the same thing as i did: Snowboard + Drink + Laugh + Have Fun. To sum it up in four words: IT WAS HELLA FUNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!

raine + j: you gurls are DA bEsT roommates and FrIeNd!!! This weekend honestly would not have been this memorable if it wasnt for everything that you girls did for me. U guys made my bday weekend soooooo frickn awesome! so i wanna to say: thank you! [we missed you crystal!!!!! *sniffsniff* ]

well thats all for now.. n i guess this pretty much sums up my year and will be my last entry as an 18 year old! looks lyk i had a pretty good year but now that im turning 19.. the fun has jus begun!! *winkwink* love you all sooo much! =]

A lot has happened since graduation.. both good and bad. A new chapter for alot of us has begun (well... grads of 2004 at least), going to post secondary skools, some stayed here..some moved away. The sad part of all this is not being able to see and talk to them everyday lyk i have for the past five years but thru this..i  found out  hoo my true friends are and they are exactly the people that i expected to stay wit me thru both the good and bad times which im so thankful for. Leaving high skool isnt as bad as i thought it would be, tho at first i hated it, but now that i've gotten used to it, n met some new people, its not so bad after all. I jus had two midterms today -- sociology and economics-- i dont know how i did but i'll see next week when i get it back. On a happier note, i got my class 5!! actually i got it last week but eh.. no difference! I finally dont need that stupid N sign on my car.. even tho i never put the N sign up when i had to.. but now i really dont! =)

ps. carly- i miss you soo much!! havent seen u in such a long time! uR such a busy person. but i still luv yah!! we need to hang out sooon cuz im goin craziiii!!! =)

*sniffsniff*.. high school as of today is officially over for me. i cant say if its really a good thing or a bad thing. All i know is that im for sure gonna miss it..These past 5 years has brought me many laughters and tears but the memories that came out of it.. is priceless! of course this wouldnt be possible if it wasnt for all my friends.and here.. i wanna thank all u guys.. especially those hoo have stuck wit me thru the good times and the rough times. i couldnt have overcome watever the problem was without you guys! you guys played a big part of shapin hoo i am today. n i cant thank you guys enuff for giving me soo many precious, memorable awesome memories. i will cherish them forever!!!  Now.. its time to move on..n begin a new journey.. a new adventure.. a new chapter in life! Congratulations to the Grads of 2004!! (fyi..BEST GRAD CLASS EVERRRR!!!) i love you guyssssssssss!!! We made it!! .. ~Goodbye Steveston Secondary~

The time has come to say goodbye
Our turn to leave, how time does fly!
Seeing many things here over the years
Hopes, dreams, laughter and tears

For many friends the end is now here
Although the memories will be so dear
Life out of school is about to begin
Taking the lessons we learnt herein

Although we maybe glad to get away
They’ll be things that remind us of this day
Those special people who made it worthwhile
You know who you are who make us smile

As we look back at the past few years
Remembering the times, we have had here
Ones to remember, ones we’ll want to forget
And on the first day here when we all met

The grades we get will make it all clear
As we enter on into our future career
In your life to come whatever your outlook
Goodbye friends and to everyone good luck!

jus wanna update mi entry on mi actual birthday before it hits 12 haha!! here it iz..mi first entry as an 18 year old..aka an adult. i can VOTE!! *yawn* haha! but other than that..its nothin really..jus feels lyk another day but jus a day when ppl give u a lot more attention den usual! which isnt a bad thing of course! well lemme start by tlkn abt da morning.. went to skewl as usual.. mi locker was of course decorated n carly wouldnt let me get mi books from mi locker n i realized why..cuz she wasnt ready to show me smthn she did for me! she bought me a piece of tiramisu cake wit a candle in it..sooo swt! *thank you soo much carly!* so after i went to math.. nothin special..haha. reminded a good frd of mine hoo had da same bday as me..yup dat would be orlando bloom!!neways..next blk english.. n bram made da whole class sing happy birthday to me..kinda embarrassing haha. n den in bio.. queenie also made da whole class sing happy birthday to me! actually i enjoyed it! haha. it was quite awesome knowin dat soo much ppl cared!! *sniffsniff* den at lunch.. angel nick n billy decided to continue da tradition of last year of instead of buyin a normal cake.. they bought me wat they gave me last year.. called "wife cookie" haha..well dats not really da real name of it..but i dont noe wat da english name for it iz. haha! alot of u may not get why they would give me dat..dats cuz its an inside joke/celebration kinda thing! quite special to me tho! so thank you guys! (if u guys do read this..haha) den hm..wat else..after skewl went to drink bbt tea wit carly joanne raine albert ryan and lai..a lil summer skewl reunion thing..but lyk previous times we were missing at least one member..cuz some had to leave early n some came late..so yah..but still better den..nothin rite guys?!..but wanna take this time to thank you guys for takn time outa ur busy schedule to come out to celebrate wit me.. i noe wit exams or midterms comn up..its hard. but really appreciate it!!

18 years..daym im old hahaha but still young at heart i noe dray!! but seriously when i look bak to the past 16 years or wen i could remember..i am very grateful for alot of things! i noe i may sound childish or very immature wen i say this..but honestly wat im most grateful n thankful for is meeting and knowin each and every one of you amazing people hoo has made or jus started or is still makn a difference in mi lyph! regardless of all the ups and downs u guys made me a stronger, wiser and better person...you guys played a big part in shaping hoo i am today and i wanna thank all of u! wit out u guys i wouldnt know wat i would do or where i would be today or hoo i wud turn out to be..u guys mean da world to me..n i jus wanna say once again Thank You For Giving Me 18 Years full of Happiness ..18 years full of precious Memories! =)

*Im Overwhelmed With Gratitude Cuz Im So Thankful I Found You*

well i guess its abt time i shud update mi xanga..after soo much has happened since da new year! first n foremost.HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR to everyone! haha! so neways on da 3rd i celebrated mi birthday early wit mi church frds n a few skewl ppl.. n so around 5:00pm ..everyone was at mi house so den we headed off to elephant and castle where we had a decent meal..of course i paid!! hahhaha! *thank u carmen* haha good times! den after dinner..we all went to continental to take pics..it was quite funny especially wen ppl didnt noe where to look! haha! hm..after pics we went to rogers to pick out a movie to watch n we ended up renting Bruce Almighty..den we went bak to mi house n we cut da cake etc..i unwrapped da presents while ppl were watchn da movie!! hahhaha! i dunno if i was suppose to but hey i couldnt help it..the presents were lyk calln mi name!! hahaha! neways..after da movie dix kim n aland hung around till lyk 2:30am tlkn..good times! den da next day..i jus couldnt wake up for church! hahaha! id lyk say thanks to: charlios dray kim dickson aland po tinky-winky dipsy jacky pugsly randy n andrew!!

on da 9th..at around 5pm i went to jeans house cuz since she couldnt make it to da party last week, she asked me to come over to make up for it.. so i did..n wen i walked into da kitchen jay dray n charlene jumped outa nowhere n shouted "surprise" ..scared da hell outa me! hahaha..n after da SURPRISE we jus chilled n watched tv..(apparently da tv hates jay!! hahaha) took some pictures..n den i found out dat jean bought mi me favorite chips, rented uptown gurl for me..da movie i was dyin to watch wen it was out AND she bought me my favorite cake! addition to dat ...jay bought me mi favorite drink.. pudding bubble tea!! sweetest moment EVER! omg! i was n still am SOOO in shock dat smthn lyk dat happened to me! n so after we went to dinner..n they paid for me too! n den we went to fellow!.seriously i dont noe wat to say..im speechless!! i cant thank you guys enuff for doin wat u guys did! charlios n dray..thank u 4 comn again! haha! n special thx to jean n jay for comn up wit dis surprise party for me..i really really really appreciate it!

on da 10th...which was yesterday! haha. i had mi 3rd party wit skewl ppl!(not only from steveston) da party started off wit dinner at da keg at 6:45pm...which i was ..of course fashionably late for!! haha ..it was sooo dark haha i could barely read da menu! i had to use da lights on mi cell fone! haha but yeah i ended up ordering grilled chicken fajita? smthn lyk dat! it was...alrite..haha..but i wasnt really hungry so i didnt finish it!but before da meal i went around da table n took a pic wit everyone..n i realized dat mi digi cam's flash is amazingly bright.. my eye hurt soo much after takn soo many pics haha..i couldnt see properly for lyk 15 mins..haha. but its all good now! so we all had our meal..n den wen our server was collecting our plates, he saw mine..n kinda threatened me to pack it up! haha..of course he was joking! haha. i was soo scared tho haha.i was lyk "uh..sure...i'll pack it up..wat do u want me to do?" haha. i guess u jus had to be der..haha. neways. after dat..we jus tlked n n took more pics den it was cake time hehe etc n took more pics..ate cake.. den went to continental to take a pics..den.. went bak to mi house chilled..n drank..n watched internal affairs2 since someone *ahemQahem* suggested to but she got bored in lyk 10 mins..but it was still a pretty awesome nite especially seeing some OLD faces again..(but not as old as me..yes i noe!!) but still old!! so yeah! of course wanna thank: carly thomas reneta tim raine grace q angel emme sharon karen lai albert kobe n ryan for comn out! good times good times..

*once again..THANK YOU TO YALL HOO CAME OUT N CELEBRATED MI BIRTHDAY WIT ME..I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOOO MUCH!* I'LL NEVER FORGET THIS!*