21. Quite a number. Is that a number that defines the age of perpetual youth or to mark the end of what we call "adolescence"? Sieze the day, drink to oblivion, care not about school for this is the age that marks the prime of your youth. Everything you've worked so hard for in the 20 years preceding all boils down to the day when alcohol now becomes readily available at your fingertips. Does this day mark the day of infinite health, or just the begining of what our parents refer to as "adulthood"? Is this the age of perpetual youth or is it the begining of a downward spirial of responsibility and stress? I look back it seems that this celebrated day marks the end of childhood where you are finally forced to let go of your parents hand and come into the world as an adult. No longer are things handed to you, no longer will life allow you to "just get by" without serious reprocussions, no longer will you be sheltered under the term "adolesence" where mistakes will fall under the category of inexperienced blunder. No more St. Nick or the Tooth Fairy. No more monsters under your bed or the bully in junior high. The monsters we face is now the harsh truth of reality in the unforgiving real world, and our worst enemy we face now is time. Time to fold up the security blanket of your parents bank account. Time to forfeit procrastination. Time to finally step outside on your own and begin to live your life according to your rules. Time to stop wasting time. Seizing the day no longer means to skip classes and fill my youth with endless tv, pot and alcohol. Now seizing the day means to get my act together so I can grow up to live the life i've always dreamed for myself. It's exciting and unbelieveably scary to not know what the next 4 years of your life may hold.

But what if you're not ready to let go of that youth? How do you find the balance between work and play? How do you even begin to build the foundation that will determine and support the rest of your life? If someone knows the answers to these life questions please do not hesitate to tell me!

blah blah i'm just blabbing.. I just ditched a party to study for a make-up exam in 10 hours and once again i've succumbed to the call of procrastination.

So summer is finally over... and in a few hours i'll be attending the first day of a dreadful school year once again. But I am so fuckin happy this summer is over. Although my summer had its brightsides, I would have to agree with the phrase spoken and toasted to many times, that this was indeed the "summer of no love". From breakups, debts, jobs, school, totaled cars and alot of partying, there's nothing I can show for my summer except for alot of memories and life lessons. I suppose every summer can't be amazing and care free, but this summer was definitly a huge learning experience on life and growing up as an adult, rather than a kick back summer i'm so used to (although I have done my share of kicking back this summer). As we all get older and more responsibilities come our way, life can seem bitterly harsh. And if there's one thing i've learned in the past 3 months... is to just.. do you. Don't be afraid of change, because change can be a blessing sometimes even tho it may not seem like it at first. Just continue to be yourself, don't stop your life because of one bump in the road, and do what you gotta do, cuz life is gonna keep moving whether your ready to accept the changes or not. I wish I learned my lesson's earlier in life but I guess better now than never.

I hope this school year turns out alot better. Good luck with school everybody!

Monday: Work from 8:30-4:30, Class from 6-10, smoke, pass out.
Tuesday: Work from 8:30-4:30, study, smoke, pass out.
Wednesday: Work from 8:30-4:30, Class from 6-10, smoke, pass out.
Thursday: Work from 8:30-4:30, Study, Smoke, pass out.
Friday: Work from 8:30-4:30, relax, smoke then party party party
Saturday: Sleep in and a free day to do whatever the fuck I want (smoking)
Sunday: Relax, smoke, study, pass out by 12...

Then repeat that all over again... gimme a call to chill on the weekends.

5 stupidest things in 2005

dave choe paying off a cop

shaq stealing gas with dave's car

jae bringing pee to probation

me telling the truth on the survey

shaq stealing psp's in conneticut