trial run.

please don't stone me to death

...but i've set up a blogspot.
i understand the treason i've committed; belive me, i'm ashamed. and i don't know why, but blogspot has always appealed to me. while i can never completely leave xanga behind, as it contains almost four years worth of my senseless ramblings, i kinda want to try something new. so, i'll be holding on to my xanga account for a while yet, but i'll be blogging elsewhere.

incase anyone is interested, my blogspot is http://elockwoo.blogspot.com/

farewell xanga.

Currently Listening Andrew Bird & the Mysterious Production of Eggs By Andrew Bird see related

hello xanga, i've missed you.

i'm back.  well, not that i've left, really, but my interest in xanga-ing is back.  since my dedication to xanga has waned, i've noticed a definite increase in jumbled thoughts and feeling like i need to get everything out but no where to do it.  i hate journaling with paper and pencil and i hate myspace.  so, i figure that few enough people bother to log onto xanga, let alone read other people's anymore, so it is safe-ish to start pouring my every wish and whim out again.

i've been thinking about changes i'd like to make in my life.  i figured a new summer, new house and town, and newly recommitted love affair with xanga are things i can use to my advantage.  no one knows me here, i have a fresh, clean slate to build a healed and happy me upon.  i can get my ducks in a row, and have them merrily follow me back to olivet in the fall for my final year as a college kid.

so, goals for the summer:
- make running a daily habit.
- lose twenty-five pounds (i've already lost thirty, so i'm more than half-way there!).
- read daily, even if it's only for fifteen or twenty minutes.
- become involved in the church again.  i miss being apart of something.

wish me luck. 

i've been hit with sudden inspiration.  well, inspiration in the form of pure frustration. 

i've always been one to sleep on the couch.  i love to fall asleep watching t.v., and i like being able to wedge myself into the corner of the couch in a way that is not possible to do in a bed.  it's comfortable.  it's homey.  it's what i prefer.  but i know i share this tiny apartment with two other girls who have very different sleeping/waking patterns, and that i have to be considerate about when i choose to sleep out there.  one of my roommates likes  to sleep on the couch too.  i normally have no problem with it. 

but, it's so frustrating to walk into the apartment at 10:00 p.m. (which, by college standards is quite early) to have her already asleep on the couch.  i still have homework to do.  and i wanted to watch a little t.v. and crochet some more of my blanket.  i can pass on the t.v. and crochetting, but i can't not do my homework.  now i'm stuck in this position of do i play the brat, wake her up, and ask her to move into the bedroom?  or do i continue on with my homework even though i know it's going to keep her awake?  it's not like i can take my computer somewhere else.  i'm pretty much confined to this one place, whereas she could go SLEEP IN HER BED. 

gah.  i love her, don't get me wrong.  i just wish she would sleep in her bed so i would be free to play music while i do homework, or watch the t.v., or just sit on MY couch to crochet a little before bed.  i'm so annoyed.

Currently Listening Rockin' the Suburbs By Ben Folds see related

i thought i'd write,
i thought i'd let you know,
in the years since you've been gone,
i finally let you go.

and i hope you find some time
to drop a note.
but if you won't,
then you won't.

and i will consider you gone.