i'm breathing you in.

i'm feeling your warmth.

i'm giving you this chance

and you should be forewarned

that i love too much

i try too hard

and i'm never the first

to let down my guard...

but i'm worth it.

i'm so worth it, you'll soon learn.

i'm fragile, i'm pushy, i'm girly, i'm obnoxious.

i can't make a decision without second guessing myself.

in fact, you're the first thing i've been sure about in so long.....

i'm sure, i'm certain

it's you.

i am me, and you are you. 

and that's why it's you.

so let me breathe you in.

let me feel your warmth.

pursue me.

i'm worth it, you'll see.

i don't even know what's going on half the time.

but seriously, i'm excited for graduation...

i finished both environmental projects! yay!  so i'm taking a break this week before i crack down on scholarships for next week...

babysitting friday night. 

nick's coming home, but i have my last lifeguarding class sunday afternoon, so i don't know how much time i'll get to spend w/ him...

prom...meh. don't even ask...

love,

emily

today:

-eating a late breakfast with mi mama

-getting a job at salt fork (i hope!!!)

-going to the track meet to hang with the lovely carole

-baseball game???

-relaxing/doing my various environmental projects that must be done by next friday!

i love saturdays :)

emily

i feel really blah right now.

i had ice cream today. then i felt bad, so i ate more junk food. i'm so retarded that way.

so i feel very sick b/c of it.

but i'm going to work on my spanish project and my environmental project then hit up the bed...

love,

emily

i will write...

i will write a story,

and you will be the star.

i will send you everywhere, 

places near and far.

i will write you a family

whose love's depth is not known

with sisters, brothers, even neices and nephews

when your sisters and brothers are grown.

i will write your dreams

i will make them just like mine

and when your dreams come true,

i will write your eyes to shine.

i will write you a smile

unfading, and always sincere

always there to brighten a day

and remind others of hope that is near

i will write you secrets

kept in the deepest part of your heart

your dreams and your secrets will be best friends

for it's true, these two never part.

i will write you a love

unselfish, romantic, and true

a beautiful bond between a boy and a girl

whose passion will never be through

i will write you an ending

and i promise that i'll make it good

and although all journeys must come to an end,

i would make yours live on if i could

i will write you a hope

of knowing there is more to come

i will write you an ending

but your story will never be done.