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Name: B Birthday: 3/21/1991 Gender: Female
Interests: Volleyball, Baseball, Wrestling Summer, Tans, Beaches, Baseball games, Warm Summer nights, Guys, && having fun with my Best Friends. Expertise: everything Occupation: Artist Industry: Art
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7/2/2004
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| they only take a day or two, but eventually you meet someone who changes everything about you and no matter how hard you try.. you just can't seem to say goodbye
 You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It's like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough. And no matter what you do to try & capture their heart again, it doesn't seem to work. & you're suddenly left thinking that you'll never be enough & a sadness takes over your heart never really leaves.

So maybe I was wrong in thinking we were meant to be and that we were made for each other. Maybe we were never supposed to fall in love the way we did. Hell, we probably weren't even supposed to meet when we did or maybe we shouldn't have met at all. But I know this much, if we aren't meant to be I don't know why I can't seem to come to terms of saying
goodbye to you, and if we weren't supposed to fall in love then it was the most beautiful mistake I've ever made, and if I hadn't have met you, I probably wouldn't be the person I am today. I loved you with everything I had in me. 
She's fighting against the war of depression 
Look, I gaurantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if we dont stay together, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me.

we're stuck together- for better or worse cause when it comes to life- my girls are first it's them. those girls. my best friends. we stick with eachother when we're not the trend we yell and scream and laugh and dance try to break us up? pssh no chance. 
i was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, to push people to push myself. i was taught never to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything i had to never give up, to believe in myself, but most of all, fight for myself | | |
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somedays, i look at you and its like wow. i miss him other days, its like how was i that desperate 
pretty soon she'll figure out you can never get him out of your head

so tell me im gorgeous and kiss me like im famous 
know it was my fault we didn't work out, and I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I'm sorry I hurt you badly enough to not give me a second chance to prove that I do love you 
tell me what i gotta do, to prove that i'm the only one in the world for you. 
she's not perfect and neither is he but together they just might be 
if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it 
Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend. Landon: I don't want to just be your friend. Jamie: You don't know what you want. Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you. Jamie: And why would that scare me? Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too. -A Walk to Remember 
"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful." | | |
| Of course she's gonna say she's happy for you & flash that famous smile. But look into those blue eyes baby, you broke her She’s your basic teenage girl, her hair never goes the way she wants it to, her room can't stay clean for more than a day, and there is this one guy she is absolutely crazy about if i could tell you one thing i guess it would be that i love the sound of your voice or your smile just happens to brighten my whole day
Let me be honest, I have never wanted someone so much before Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet. someday someone is going to walk into your life && make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else♥ i love how i read all these love quotes and your the only one i think of
Sometimes, someone comes into your life that changes everything, raises the standards, makes you laugh, and makes you feel like you. There is something about him that you can't put into words and even though you're not with him, you don't want to let him go Je t'aime I want a guy to come up behind me and grab my waist, just to catch me off guard and whisper in my ear [baby, I love you] friends aren't supposed to get jealous when you meet a new guy, they're supposed to ask if he has a brother A northern fairytale starts out, "Once upon a time..." A southern fairytale starts out, "Ya'll ain't gonna believe this shit!" im weak but im nto giving in Sometimes you gotta smile and walk away hold your tears in and pretend your okay want a boy .. who would shove ice cream in my face. Who would wrestle with me. Who shows me off to his friends & family. Who treats me with respect. Who would call me at four in the morning just to tell me that he can't stop thinking about me. Who sings to me, even if he can't. Who could break my heart, but would never even dream of it. <3
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no one understands how hard it is for her to let him go. after all, he was her first love. but all they saw was how he hurt her and let her down. they never saw how much love was between them. 
life's about following your dreams and not letting anyone stand in your way.

it kills me that you never meant anything you said. pushing me and pushing me to get what you wanted because you knew i loved you and would do anything to make you happy.
no matter how hard i try i can't forget how you made me feel. i can't forget everytime you made me smile. you were the one. 
i was telling someone about something you did when we were dating. and she stopped me while i was talking and said, "oh wow, i can tell how much he meant to you." "how?" i wanted to know. she smiled, "you're glowing." 
Ask anyone, when your name comes up in a converstaion my eyes sparkle & my smile shines.

growing old is mandatory, growing up is optional 
even though you think at this very moment he couldn't possibly be thinking of you, he probably is. 
The worst thing a boy can do is
make a girl fall for him with no intention of catching her 
she's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day   
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I wrote this on Monday May 15th
So I found out that my grandma has Small Cell Lung Cancer and she isn't going to take the treatment so I have about 4 to 6 months to say goodbye to someone that I love very dearly.
Its scary to think that she will never see me grow up or even turn 16
Its hard to understand that she will never see me get married.
But I know that God has a plan for her and I must trust that he is doing the right thing.
But I was wrong..
My Grandma died yesterday on July 11, 2006. She was probably one of the most amazing women I have ever known. && I love her dearly. I understand now and am some what glad that she is in a much better place because she was hurting so much; espically if the pain pills couldn't take away or ease her pain.
I guess that doctors can be very wrong because we only had 2 months to say goodbye and I don't feel like I even got to do that. The last time I saw my Grams (that’s what i call her) I was laying in a hospital bed and was unable to get up and give her a huge hug and kiss.. I don't even remember if I told her I loved her or even said goodbye..
Gods plan didn't turn out the way I had planned or hoped but now she is in a MUCH better place and is no longer in pain, even though I am and so is the rest of my family.
Grams.. I love you so much && I will NEVER forget you. Even though I lost one of my number one fans I will never stop hearing your voice when I am out on the volleyball court. Thank you for everything Grams. I love you!! <<3 B
That’s about all I can say now. I don't have a lot of feelings besides pain, and sorrow.
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