| Well since it has been 6 month since I have even been on here I will add something about what is going on...
Well my life has been ok I think I have found an AMAZING guy... his name is Brandon and he means alot to me. He has been really hurt in the past so he wont let himself get close to me... Well after almost 3 months... On the 11th it will be 3 months... well in my opinnion he still really does not have any feelings for me.. He is 26 and pretty much set in what he does in life and what HE wants to do on the weekend.. I mean at first i saw him about 3 times a week... and then now I am LUCKY to see him once in 2 weeks,, kinda like right now I have not seen him since Christmas Eve and i only got to see him for about 2 hours... WOW... And on top of that I may not get to see him till the 19th and I better get to see him on my birthday... But I doubt I will.. he is going to have " Basketball Practice" ... I mean I really care about him and want to be with him BUT i would aslo like to see him some too...
Well that is the LIFE of Amanda... LATER |
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| Good-bye till college I guess... Call if you wantok How do I put this.... My mom is REALLY moody about ALOT and becaue played Yahoo Pool in College and ONCE at the house and she saied 3 YEARS AGO not to and my BROTHER did today and she saw him... She got mad and is Disconnecting the internet... i know its stupid.... if she did not want him or US on it she could have blocked it ... RIGHT.... Guess not.. this is dumb.. this was the ONLY way I could really talk to my Friends so if you have a cell phone call me and tell me what is going on in your life cuz till school starts I cant get on here... My Cell Number is (432-268-3145)... Maybe she will come around... Well because My BROTHER did this I cant get online... I wish this was not happening and to top it all off I was going to get wireless internet and she told me that I could not get it... But last time I checked it was MY money and I could spend it the way I wanted.... Guess not I LIVE IN HER HOUSE SO I AM APARENTLY NOT AND ADULT ANYMORE.... I think she is jsut scared that I am actually GROWING UP... wow shocking right.... I mean I am 19 and should be able to do what I want... I mean i still have to ask to hang out with friends... someone call me today before I go insane... But I guess i better put this on my other 2 sites... ♥ AMANDA...(the 19 year old treated like a 5 year old) |
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| Beautiful Disaster
She loves her mama's lemonade
And hates the sound that goodbye's make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears that there's no difference
Between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her
And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees make her cry
Chorus:
She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She's given boys what they want
And tries to act nonchalant
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection
She's not a drama queen
She doesn't want to feel this way
Only 17 but tired
She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She's just the way she is but no one's told her that's okay
She would change everything, for happy ever after
Caught in the in-bewteen a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home Jon McLaughlin :heart: The first time I heard this song i had to look up the lyrics. This is so much like me and how i have looked at my life lately... |
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|  Ok .......I have begun to give up since I really have NO friends.. I mean yeah I have friends that I talk to in class and online but that is not the same. I have not talked to ANYONE from SA except Ken.. Well I have kinda talked to Devin.... I mean things were GREAT for a while but I really hate the fact that right when things start going good then you wake up the next day then everything has gone wrong. Well things with Jeff have gotten really weird. He was talking lastnight about how he could die and how the doctors dont know what is wrong with him. He has been sick for a while. Also lately he has not been able to tell me that he loves me anymore. I am really worried about our relationship. Pluse the fact that I am starting to like a guy that I liked a few years ago but I also know that he will never ever date me. I mean we talk alot but we will never be more then friends. I mean I guess if he knew that I liked him then maybe he would tell me how he felt. I wish I could have seen him last weekend. Now he probaly knows who he is. Sorry that I can not tell you. I cant because last time I did you said that you didn't like me like that. I also know that I have hurt you ALOT. But you out of all people know that I have really changed. Well I better go.
♥ Amanda F |
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| OK well do I start? I dont know either... It has been a LONG time since I have posted anything. My life has been CRAZY... There are guys that wont leave me alone. I also have been TRYING to talk to some OLD friends and see what is going on with them. Also I am really busy with School and Work. I love my job and I really think that it is really where I want to stay. I love working with Kids. School is HARDER this semester then last semester was. Hope life is good for yall and I MISS ALL OF YALL.
♥ Amanda F |
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