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Name: Bryan
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

"And she told me about a youth who had fallen in love with a planet. He stood by the sea, stretched out his arms and prayed to the planet, dreamed of it, and directed all his thoughts to it. But he knew, or felt he knew, that a star cannot be embraced by a human being. He considered it to be his fate to love a heavenly body without any hope of fulfillment and out of this insight he constructed an entire philosophy of renunciation and silent, faithful suffering that would improve and purify him. Yet all his dreams reached the planet. Once he stood again on the high cliff at night by the sea and gazed at the planet and burned with love for it. And at the height of his longing he leaped into the emptiness toward the planet, but at the instant of leaping "it's impossible" flashed once more through his mind. There he lay on the shore, shattered. He had not understood how to love. If at the instant of leaping he had had the strength of faith in the fulfillment of his love he would have soared into the heights and been united with the star."


Tuesday, November 21, 2006

hello xanga.

haven't talked to you in a while...

perhaps we should rekindle an old flame.



Friday, March 03, 2006


so i found an apartment that happens to be in the same complex as my older brother. i finally talked my parents into cosigning and for those of you who don't know what that is, it's a signiature saying that if i don't pay rent, they will. this of course, won't ever be the case. i officially move in next friday but i'm moving into my brother's extra room on monday so as of sunday night, i will be officially moved out.

on wednesday, i drove to illinois to get a resonator put in place of my stock catalytic converter. the "2-hr drive" turned into a 3.5 hr journey (both ways, i add) of self-exploration and deep internal revelation. no actually it was just a road trip. so anyways. when i got there they looked at my stock exhaust system and laughed. they told me that buying a cat-back system would be my best bet. i told them that no manufacture made a cat-back system for my car so they offered to build me an entire new exhaust system for cheaper than a cat-back system. its loud.

on monday, i went to the doctors for a sinus infection and they told me i have extremely high blood pressure. that pretty much fucked my week. i couldnt drink or anything all week because on thursday i had to get it checked again and if it was still high, i would need medication. well, good news. its almost perfect... 117/78. (120/80) is perfect.

Food for Thought:

      so moving out of the nest is a big deal, right? my parents seem split between emotions when seeing their prized, middle child forage out into the realm of reality. my mom, the glue holding together our family tower made poorly out of paper-mache, is sad to see her son go because he brought so many years of light into her life and will miss his smart-ass comments about everything. my father, on the other hand, is sad to see me go because he thinks hes gonna have to pay a lot of money when i don't. if you were a parent, and maybe you are , how would you feel seeing your child leave and hopefully finding independence?

p.s. - im sweet as hell ^^

Currently Reading
The Pursuit of Oblivion: A Global History of Narcotics
By Richard Davenport-Hines
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006


u want me outta ur fucking house?

 

 

 

 

sign the fucking paper
fuck u

 

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Breaking Open the Head : A Psychedelic Journey into the Heart of Contemporary Shamanism
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

I Cry

i cry because i feel alone
  because i hurt and my experiences do NOT
  percipitate change
    what the fuck is wrong with me?
  can anyone possibly feel my pain?
  in the end, its just me
i cry because i am me

not THE me, just the me
oh God the reality
   ...it just kills me
tears me fucking open

i am alone
not in the sense of the word meaning companionship
lost?
yea lost and alone

seriously tho, dont get urself involved in something you dont kno
i hate too
peacefully perhaps
    but its there just the same

dont fuck ME over
just me

ill show everyone what it is

everyone

 

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