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| movies i must watch:
-Amelie
-No Country for old men
-Step Up 2
-Enchanted
-27 Dresses
-Atonement
-My Blueberry Night
-The Bucket List
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| haha woah hi xanga longass time no blog. this shit got confusing and all tech'd out. haha.. maybe i'll start this up again someday (maybe?) idk. im supposed to be studying for my last final tmrw but course im laggginggg as usual.. anyway, expect me sometime soon, hopefully.
its so funny looking at all my old blogs.. to think that i only basically talked about one thing haha wow. so much has changed you have no idea. i have grown so much.
xo.
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| something i put up on facebook a while ago..
It's officially the last day of the year 2007 in both Cali and Hong
Kong, as well as almost the end of winter break as I know it (aka being
back home for the first time in about half a year) and I definitely
have things to say about.. well, everything that has happened. For the
sake of reflecting..lets step back in time.
This year has been hectic. I mean, seriously in one word.. it has been
fucking hectic. It has been emotional (significantly moreso than other
years), different, crazy, sad, happy, angry, challenging, you name it,
it happened for me in 2007. This year for me ended life as I knew it
and marked a beginning of a subchapter, or maybe even a brand new
chapter in my book. But I have grown SO much - more than you could ever
know or I could ever express in words. I owe so many people for being
there for me this year and guiding me through one of the roughest times
in my life. I think you know who you are [hint: you were tagged] .. I
hope that you also know that I am forever indebted to you and that I
also hope one day I will be able to return that kind of impact you have
made on my life.
Moving to Hong Kong was and still is (on some days) unbelievable. Like
a dream. Surreal. Am I actually living that life? Is that life and that
place becoming my PLACE? I mean there's location, and then there's the
people, events, memories etc. that go with it. And those things are so
different. Some days I feel like it was so long ago I moved, yet other
days I still feel so raw- remembering clearly my first rough days in
HK. But I am not ungrateful because I know for a fact that I have been
fortunate enough to meet and be a part of an AMAZING group of girls.
And to you five I owe a huge majority of my genuine days or moments of
happiness to. Through this bumpy journey of figuring out who I want to
be in HK, I have discovered so much about other people, other cultures,
other parts of the world, but more than anything much about myself. And
caus of that - I know when I look back on this move I will not regret
it.
Coming home two weeks ago having only the memories of people 5 months
ago, a nervous anxious excited wreck, I have come to realize a lot
about where I am in this whole CA/HK situation that I have come to
know. It feels amazing to be back 'home', to see people who I am
ridiculously comfortable with.. to talk, laugh, eat, shop, or party
with them. In a sense I have figured out who my real friends are, and
who I care to really stay in touch with. It feels great to be able to
feel like I never left, and after a bit of sharing stories and catching
up, picking up right where we left off and continuing to make new
memories. It all feels so routine again.. like "this is comfortable.
this is familiar." But there is a difference - Cali is me.. but it
isn't the full ME anymore. I do miss my friends in HK and I have
changed in thoughts/ideas compared to some of those back home. All in
all though, coming back has helped me realize so much- I still have a
place here.. and I always will. There are people here for me no matter
what. Thank you to those who took the time to help me realize that this
break- whether it be a phone call, a hang out, a brunch/lunch/dinner, a
movie, a ride, etc. You have moved me tremendously and I love every one
of you with all of my heart. I truly cannot ever repay you.
In a final collaboration of those two different yet similar lives.. I
do not regret anything that has happened this year. Sure it's been
fucking crazy and exhausting - but everything has just made me so much
stronger. I hope to continue to learn in all ways possible - to open my
eyes to new things and do things that fulfill my heart. In the most
honest, genuine way possible... the year two thousand and seven has
been one of the most (or even most) memorable and important year in my
life.
I only cheer to another incredible year full of challenges, happiness, growth, maturity, wisdom, and most of all - love.
Here's to walking forward with a full heart, smile, and with my chin up.
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