Well, long time no update.  BEEN SOOOOOO BUSY!!!

Riddle me this: Can you handle a job, school, (still trying to hold straight A's), and have a sport that takes tons of time and commitment, and trying to keep a great social life with your friends and people?

Well, thats what i have been dealing with.  Anyways, lots of cool stuff has happened.  I have done a lot, from tons of preseason conditioning, ( its a killer) to working and all that jazz. 

BORDER WARS IS THIS SUNDAY!!!  I didnt go to it last year cuz i had some family shit that we wound up not going to.  Well, this year, its time for derek to beast on some boyz.  Oh, if im wearing a shirt about border wars on Monday, then I won that shit...lol.  Im so glad that maybe Mike and Nicole MIGHT be able to make it out there to see me wrestle, and my buddy derek will be there too.  I wish ryan would go...

...anyways, i think katie and cynthia might be there too. 

Bad news real quick, my grades are sucking, but oh well, im working on trying to bring those bitches up, so, im working on it. 

I'm finally making some decent chop...( money)...now and im paying for shit on regular again.  YEAH me!...lol. 

Man, this year is going by so fast, and im trying to hold onto it little by little, but every moment is awesome, and im enjoying it.

I'm so confused about my life.  I wish i could start clean.  No, for whoever is going to take that wrong, i just want to make it simple and be able to just set things straight, thats what i mean.  Sorry, i just want to cover things upfront and clearly.   I am pulled one way, but i wnat to go the other, and yet when i go the other way, i want to go back the other way, and i just want to get shit straight.  I don't know, im not going to bore ya'lls with this shit, cuz it is pretty stupid, and im just being a fucking baby about it, and just trying to get my priorities in order before i do anything that i will regret, not saying that i will, just, i don't want to break a heart, or hurt someones feelings, and not fulfill a promise.  Well, thats the end of that.

Runescape is tight!...lol  <----random

Shit, here i go again, badck to the love life thing.  i just don't know what to do.  Sorry if this is blunt or whatever, but i really don't know, really about anything.  Im sorta in a weird spot, and im just trying to get the most important stuff taken care of first, like school, and my grades, and my sublife, wrestling.  Also, trying to make sure i have job to pay for shit and help me mutter out. ( yes, its mutter, the german word for mother)  So, if you have a ?, just know you might not get a definite answer, and i might even give you one you wont want to hear.  Not, saying that its going to be that way, it just depends on the ?, and the time at which i am in the process of working on it.

Anyways, enough of that.  I got some predictions for my sub life...wrestling......lol.

I see our team going to at least team semi-state, and having, c.p., t-grizz, j-beezy, knudders, and i going to state this year and doing pretty well.  Actually, ill even throw g to the abby gabby in there too.  I cant wait till the preseason is over so i can start wrestling and do what actually is clear and makes sense to me in my life right now.  It is something that can make everything go away, and i can concetrate all my anger on that person, and beat their ass....lol.

Well, i got homework to do, so im outro and cookin'.  Hit me up with LOTS of comments if you read this shit.

Love ya'lls, you all mean the world to me.

Love,

DeReK, a.k.a. D-Beall, a.k.a. D-Beezy, a.k.a. D-Bizz

Smooches and hugs to you all, love you and good night.

All i have to say is that my true soldiers stay eternal.  Yes, its part of a Tupac line.

UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA>>>>>>>>> GOTCHA!!!!!!!

LMMFAOMF!

DeReK

Well, whats been going on ya'll, im just chillin.  Its been a good school year so far.  Some drama here and there, and some great times all in between.  I wish one day I can truly smile on the inside, like i have once had. 

Yes, some new news, Chelsea and are of no more.  Im not happy about it, but hey, things happen, and thats how certain people feel.  I still love her, but it wont be the same.  She will have the same love now, that all my ex's have, (not to say that i have had tons...lol).  I have had a crazy past week and a half.  And it has all been good for me.  I owe it all to cynthia.  For that one crazy sunday night, and stopping something that could be life altering for close to half of BD. and more.  I wish, that it wouldn't have happened that way, that it never came that close, but then again, it draws us closer to our "brothers", and "sisters".  I love you cynthia, your the best, and you know you are.  You are probably saying, "hell yeh I am", s your reading this.... 

Homecoming was cool.  i had fun at the game with hmmmm, nick, mike, nicole, mary, bri, jd, will, hardy, james, the whole purple rain crew, zach, michalin, my BD Football players who stomped  T.H.S asses, (37-0), and of course the bro, and all the BD mothertruckers.  Yes, mothertruckers.  OOOOO, last, but not least, cynthia and katie, who spent 45 minutes painting my face before the game.  O, cynthia, i give you and A+ in make up...lol.  And so does the whole purple rain crew...lol.. 

Well, im doing alright in school.  Grades are ok, well, for the first couple weeks, i got hella time to bring up the loose ends.  O, in adv PE, my boy CC, (Chris Clendenen), is getting crunk and buff.  Me too, hittin the 195 on sets 0f 6 on bench, and 160 in cleans, and last, 275 on squats...lol.  Ok, so no one cares what im lifting, znd what not, but yeh, its a personal pride thing.  O, my favorite class has to be IED, (Intro to Engineering and Design).  Mr. Moss rocks it out, and my homies nick, josh, megan, matt, cody, and the whole 4th mod mothertruckers in there keepin' it pimpin.  But, physics has to be a close second with adv.pe.  But physics, i got tyler p., andrew, thomas, steve, ryan, matt, jacky, jessica, of course Mr. Kamo, and danielle,oooooo, and the cutie with a bootie...lol, jk, but the cutie, lindsey.

Well, wrestling season is less thana week away with preseason starting monday.  YEAH!!!!!, running 3-4 miles on a long distance run, and then a mile on the bleachers...YEAH!!!!!!....NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...lol.  I can't wait till the season.  im going to state this year, mark my words.  im so effing determined to get there this year.  Its my goal. 

Work is finally done bullshitting me, and I'M MAKING THAT CHOP NIGGA!!!!

YEAH!!!!!!, tomorrow evening im getting my new car, hopefully.  I get rid of my piece of shit car.  Also, i get off my 90 days....YEH BITCHS!...lol...jk.  Hey lindsey, its all gravy baby, you'll get it here soon enough...lol.

Hey, i'm thinking up all this stuff to write as a short poem to my lil sis cynthia, so, here it is:

Thanks,

so much,

for being there,

when i felt so lost and out of touch,

Thanks,

for caring,

and loving me,

even though i stumbled or faltered along the way,

Thanks,

for not judging,

when i went on the wrong course,

and keepingme straight and focused,

Thanks,

for being the one and only,

shining star,

that guided my way through some of my worst problems,

Thanks,

so much,

for being my friend,

and being there till the very end

Thanks,

so much,

i love you cynthia,

I dont think i would be here if it weren't for you

Thanks,

to you,

for helping me be me,

and for you being you.

There cynthia.  In light of the recent events, and just all the time you and I have known each other.  This is my thanks that i didn't always say to you.  You have been and inspiration, and a shoulder to lean on.  I love you lil sis.  i'll always be there for you, even if i have to drag another friend out at 1 oclock in the morning to drive you and another friend to that friends house...lol...jk, i love doing it, and i owed you that. 

Ok, well, this is probably pretty long, like i always do it.  But hey, thats me. 

O, i have to say hey to my new good friend Lindsey.  What up Girl???...lol.

*Physics is an awesome class*...those who know, know...lol.

Ok, i love you, and write me up some stuff, like COMMENTS...lol.

Love you all,

Derek

p.s.  i still love you, and I always will, but it seems like you want to move on, so i will too.  I will still talk to you, and keep you and cherish you as a friend.  Love you still perfect. 

Hey, shit is going crazy now, and its sorta hitting the fan.  But i want to think all of you that are there for me... 

...thanks so much.  Crazy parties are awesome, thanks grizz for the most outlandish party...lol.  You had to be there. 

WELL....I love you all and im stayin to it, and im TRUCKIN AWAY...lol, thanks jake and no prob.  

Love you all so much,

Love, Derek