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Sunday, April 08, 2007

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 03:20:07 GMT

I miss you less, with each day youre gone.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:39:25 GMT

just thinkin...

whatever happened to him.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 22:14:03 GMT

music:// CEMETARY DRiVE- MY CHEMiCAL RoMANCE

Soo yeah this is pretty bad... IM HOME. Eww gross, most definetely hate this cause no one wants to drive me in this unbearable rain. Damnn rain, I swear. But tomorrow there is no school and it is also my moms birthday and Lilys happy birthdayy guysss=). I made it

into NYYS chamber my piano audititon I am sooo freaken stoked man, next sunday is orientation or what not can'ttt wait. This weekend,I saw one of my friends who I went to brown university with over the summer, it was great we went to the mall and shopped. I reallllyyy needed to shop, yeah surprising guy who shops, who wouldve thought. Idk I kinda have a thing for him, but I don't really want to, confusing haha.

I visited my old neighbor who got into the car accident, it made me so sad I cried, I had never seen him like this so badly hurt. He was always a tough guy for anything, but it pains me to see him like this, I pray he gets better and I want him to so much.=/

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
-The Wonder Years

And I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you. Some decisions you don't make; I guess it's just like breathing.

Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when

You'll dream of a love that made you feel more alive

Six billion people in the world. That's twelve billion hands to hold and twelve billion eyes to gaze into. Twelve billion lips to whisper the only words I ever need to hear. It's funny how I don't have to meet a single one of those people to know that you are the one who was meant for me.

We're like the places you just never see,
You read about them, you know you'd love them,
That's how you fell in love with me.

IF yOu WeRe MiNE ©©

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 15:46:54 GMT

Music//: Colors- Crossfade

"forever your eyes will hold the memory
i saw your heart as it overtook me
we tried so hard to understand and reason
but in that one moment i gave my heart away
that perfect breath where my mind lay beside me
and all i knew is what had overtaken me
with no reason i am comforted by inability to understand
when i wake from this dream will you still be here?
will your smile still open my heart and leave me transparent"

Havent updated in the longest time probably caue myspace is life, sweet deal. Lately things arent so good one of my friends who used to be my neighbor got into a car accident and is in a really bad condition, I feel so helpless like theres nothing I can do. Hopefully Ill get to see him if he wakes up=/. On a lighter note I had a piano audition last weekend I really hope I became part of the chamber group I felt like I practiced 3987434987344984 times a day, I'm soo anxious haha. Anddd best of all homecoming is the 22nd Im thinking about going with someone or not but personally I like going stag its fun. hmm oh well, leave me lots of comments suckerrr.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 17:10:36 GMT

Music//: Say Goodnight- Th click five

"Your voice is heaven but it hurts. Your words are memories and they burn"

So I still have it pretty bad for someone.I thought it was so easy to get over but its not,I dont know its just something about him. I know I should let go cause hes obviously much happier, he's who he belongs with. I just hate how he makes me think that he felt the same way times before and than he does the total opposite. Like me, leave me but, dont lead me on. It sucks how you can still want someone and have them be wrong for you.

My summer has been amazing though chilling with friends,partying,shopping and all that good shyt. My best friend left for camp I miss her alot, shes like my other half. I think Im going to mail her like a survival packet with like food,magazines and stuff. She sent me swedish fish before to lure the swedish kid I was after( he had never had them) hahah.Yeah I'm lame like that ptchh w/e.

I went to the cityy and I saw some of my friends from camp the other day, it was amazing I missed them soo much. I love the city I swear I would move there. Oh yes and I have discovered I am laserrr tag champp sucka so dont tempt me , k? haha

"There's and emptiness inside her and she do anything to fill it in. But all the colors mix together-to grey and it breaks her heart"

EDIT//New song: I caught fire in your eyes - its for my new crushhh=P

So kiss me like you did. My heart stopped beating. Such a softer sin <3

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 17:41:08 GMT

Music:// of all the gin joints in the world- FOB

''I used to waste my time of dreaming of being alive but now I only waste it on dreaming about y o u "

Havent updated this site in forever thats cause myspace rules aww yeah. Check it -->. I came back from Brown univeristy this week, I had so muchh fun and I met some of the most amazing people ever. Leaving was just like my escape from everything.

Hm yes and I've decided moving on is the best thing to do, there is no point of waiting around for something that wont happen. It's senseless its not worth crying over anymore, I dont see it.

picturesss from Brownn yeahh suckaaa

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 11:17:21 GMT

I didnt mean to fall in love with you but baby there's a word for what you put me through.It isn't love it's robbery.Im sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 17:27:31 GMT

music:// ThaT's hOw I know: B4-4

'' When I'm miles away
And I still feel your touch
When I make mistakes
And no one gives up
When you're in my arms
Baby you're still not close enough
That's how I know it's love

Now I now what forever's for
Each day I want you more"

Sooo I know I haven't updated this in forever but I didnt forget about it.. Hmm lotss goes on. And oh yes btw France was fucking awesome! I swear couldnt get enough it was sooo damn beautiful hah. I went to the Louvre( where the Da vinci code) took place, I was soo happy haha yeah pathetic. And the eiffel towerr ,gorgeous!

School is almost fucking over all I gotta say is hells yeah. Finals and regents are comen though so I'm totally stressen. Hopefully I'll do well. Summer is almost here though too soo excited its gunna be crazyy.

"theres nothing I can do to concentrate, its so
distracting,always thinking of you. so i expose
and explain and i meant everything i said. & its
moments like this that repeat&replay in my head."

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 15:47:07 GMT

music:// Nothings gonna stOp us now- TSL

''I want so much to give you this love in my heart that im feeling for you
Let them say we're crazy.
I don't care about that.
Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Maybe we can make it if we're heart to heart.

Oh, all that I need is you.
All that I ever need."

Blehh its raining and so ugly out, thank god the track competition was cancelled! woot woot. hah. I was suppose to go to the mall with some of my friends to look for dresses for the black and white dance next week, but Im stuck home currently ehhh:(.Theres still tonight to go out though haha.

Lately Ive been thinking, reading through old things I wrote, thought,said etc.. and it made me realize how much I really liked this guy. I dont think I ever have liked or felt anything for anyone now as much as I do him. Idk it just changes my mind. Maybe theres a reason my feelings wont change, but its not like Im going to feel the same way forever, you cant promise someone that.And you cant make someone want you if they dont so w/e.

On a lighter note Im going to France soon! Im so excited its going to be crazzy. Oh mann Im going to probably shop like crazy, and hopefully go out alot. :]

RIP Pope John Paul. God bless.

The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we`ve lived a thousand lives before this one .. and in each of them we`ve found each other. - Nicholas Sparks "The Notebook" <3

©©be Mine

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 18:35:27 GMT

music:// Moving on -TOya

''Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life''

new pic the Nauughtty shirt.. naughty nadya pshhh hah

Havent updated in a while.. this weeks been pretty good.. eh progress reports came in I did badly.. idk i feel like I cant concentrate on anything anymore. Damn math hah.

I found out I got into brown university for the summer for piano.. hells yeahhh! I cant believe I got in. Ill be gone for a while though :[

Hm I have off and idk what to do haha this week has been pretty fun :D. Monday and tuesday I had track afterschool as of everyday now. NO RUNNING though,I'm doing discus and shotput psh I'm lazy. Discus is very hard though . On wednesday I went to Jamies house , had a good time. time.Its trueee and ummm water? hahaha shutup cousin! . And tomorrow Im going to meet up with Michelle. ( Michelle hope everything goes well for you tonight :]). I feel badly I didnt go to church tonight for lent ehhh.

Everything was simple,everything was fine, I knew i couldn't have you and I knew why.I tried to move on,I dated other guys but then we'd hang out
and I knew, to myself i lied.You noticed me drifting ,you said "please explain"but, i didn't want to lose you. So, i tried to deal with the pain. It's hard to be with you, it gets harder each day.When I look in your eyes,I dont know what I feel,i miss the way it used to be.You don't feel the change,you don't know i really like you,i'm sure to you, its just a game.As i close my eyes tonight,i'll wish,i'll wish that you realize that .I like you, but i can't have you