I remembered the deep-rooted fear that I had hidden away for so long that I had forgotten about it entirely...I  never had to worry about it, so I stopped worrying.
Then we happened.
And I'm scared.

I shouldn't be, right?
It's the fucked up ideal of trust and how I stopped believing in it.
I don't trust anybody anymore. Not. One. Single. Person.
But I wish that I did. I wish I trusted my friends, myself, and
I definitely wish I trusted you. Maybe it will come in time.

You excite me. I'm excited.