| well well well..havent wrote in here in a little bit...everything at home is better..today is thanksgiving n i went over to nicoles house which was quite awkward but whatever...im talkin to josh again..i thought he hated me but he doesnt which makes me happy =] and yea...idk i havent really been up to much besides workin n stuff im finally learnin how to drive which is good i still got alot to learn tho but im gettin there slowly..thats basically it tho. p3@ce tt |
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| Onto A New Chapter In Life.well...idk..once again me and my aunt had it out...this time it was all her fault..i didnt get smart or anything. it all happened cuz i told her i didnt really need her to help me clean out my dresser drawers...and she got mad saying "if you didnt need my help you woulda done it earlier" and just goin on and on so i got mad cuz she kept cuttin me off and tellin me to shut up..so i went downstairs to cool off but she wouldnt let me so she told me to come back upstairs and i did we ended up arguing a lil bit and i was basically jus tellin her that i was tired of all this [meaning everything we go thro] and she was basically like if you dont like my rules you can get out my house...you can pack your stuff and get out...so i jus sat on the bed and called my uncle he basically told me to just stick it out and wait...and the whole time i was tryin to talk to him she was tellin him that shes tired of my disrespectfulness and all this other stuff and then i tried to call my aunt yvette but she didnt answer...and so nana leaves and is basically yelling up the stairs for me to get my shit and get out and whatever so at this time i go next door and call my bff Suzie and ask if its ok for me to stay with her until things get figured out..and of course they said yes..[thank god for real friends] so as im waiting for suzie i go back next door and i see nana pull up and her daughter is with her nicole and she grabs me and starts choking me and im like nicole get off me i end up on the ground...she ripped out some of my hair and my name-chain got snapped..mind you her daughter who is supposed to be my cuzin is 29 years old and went thro the same problems i am but still wants to kick my ass and whatever so jus as all this is over suzie pulls up i go to the car and we drive off and i've been cryin ever since...i dont understand what it is that i did to deserve this..i jus kno i dont wanna go back to the house... Where's my out where do i go when i wanna scream and shout you tell me grow up but you must not be serious if you stay on my case like im a little child..you yell at your husband and tell him to shut the fuck up..you jus want control and im not gonna let you have it..so im onto a new chapter im turning the page im not lookin back on my past and im movin on..im ready to be happy and im ready to smile again. where ever i may go i will never forget the people that were there for me and loved me you guys are my rock and my support system iloveyouall! [you kno who you are] |
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| Here we go AGAIN..*sighs* so i think i found myself begining to develop feelings for this boy [from previous entries] and i mean its cool but i doubt he feels the same but then again if he does then it'll make me happy but at the same time wonder y???...like he jus got out a relationship with a REALLY pretty girl like beautiful skin pretty face and idk i jus feel like he'd be tooo good for me but hey...and i dont think he's feelin me like that like that...so yea..it kinda suxx i jus wanna find someone that will make my feel like im floating and i jus wanna be in that stage when you're gettin to know each other and then takin it from there..it would be nice if i actually could chill w/ him and get to kno him but idk how that will happen when there's not SHIT to do in this town n yea...idk...i jus wish that mayb jus mayb things could work out in MY favor for once... ...I hope im not askin for much, but i want you and only you i only wish you wanted me too.. Peas!..lol Tt |
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| FUCK THAT SHIT. [last entry]well...here i am again talkin about Josh and yea...idk really what to say im so back and forth with it but this time i think im for sure that im basically jus gonna be done with it like officially..im jus gonna wait until the right guy comes along insted of jus givin it up to some random boy i hardly kno...but whatever im bout to go to bed jus thought i'd update NIGHTY NIGHT! Tt |
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| Time for me to do my own thing...my own way fuck what everyone else says...i gotta learn somehow.so i've decided that im gonna stop tryin to front like that boy [from previous entries; Was I Seriouly about to fall for this bullshit and So its safe to say i was gonna be used] means nothin to me and that i dont want his *gasp*  as bad as he wants my *gasp*..lol..so yes im gonna keep talkin to him, get to know him, make my own judgements on him, and do what i want with him so yea...thanx everyone who tried to help me but i gotta go out here and do this on my own and see for myself and if i get hurt then i'll know for tha next time...yeaa i kno that sounds kinda not-smart but hey oh well i gotta learn someway and the only way i learn is from experience and i gotta experience this kid in as many ways as i feel like i wanna and it quite possibly may be this weekend  i'll update and let you kno if anything goes down. && yeaaa...thats about it for tonight. ~1~ Tt |
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