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melancholy

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 23:37:23 GMT

where is she?
Bursting into flames. Screaming through pain. drenched in.... blood? Or is this my mistakes?
I'm sick of running from the truth. i'm tired of my long nights and wet pillows of forgotten tears that creep up on me in my sleep. I want to awake to my previous life of bliss.
Not even in my place peace can i find the comfort i need. Sad eyes over whelm my beauty and it gets lost in my emptiness. I miss her....Where is she?
How sad it is that only a few shorts kicks to the ribs. Leaves you breathless. Like a fish with out water. Except some how this fish is drowning and there seems to be no hope for air.
She use to giggle and fall over herself and flow. Now she or this, over thinks her self and doesn't smile as much and isn't as bubbly as she remember.
Tomorrow she will find herself she claims. And tomorrow will be her brighter day. But where is she? And what do i or how do i find her. I find pieces of her joy scattered across the floor and in cracks and in hidden places. And as i scramble to pick them up before they are lost again. I get cut on the broken glass of one of my flaws. And our drips more of realities rude awakenings. Oh how I need her......

Where is she?

Friday, May 30, 2008

Fri, 30 May 2008 22:36:09 GMT

Feel Me!

I long to feel the hands of my love once more...
where has he gone?

My soul aches. Am i drenched again with melancholies and miseries? I need him to find me. So I can love me!

Joy seems as a distant memory... just as his kiss. We were, we are, we use to be... but now the lovers that were entangled in one another, are so much in need to be separate.

Despair in thine eyes. And pain in mine. How is it that now it is such a burden to kiss you. When it wasn't but yesterday that i yearned for the subtle yet vibrant taste of your lips.

All I want is for you to feel me! Kiss me! Hold me! Indulge once more in my beautiful mysteries that use to satisfy thee...and love me. Oh please won't you love me.

Feel Me!

...my sweet

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 01:31:26 GMT

One of those morings.....

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 01:55:40 GMT

     As i arise from my slumber. stretching out across the bed, breathing in the mornings air. My heart feeling heavy and drenched with melancholy. hmmm... suppose its just one of those mornings.
i dress quickly and take u in my arms as i always do. Looking at you, taking in all your beauty and splendor. Simply handsome as always. Giving you a soft kiss and a warm hug. Only in your arms do these mornings and times resemble beauty and comfort. The buzzing upon my ears comes to a low hum and for a moment i am back in our tranquil abyss.
   As our kiss comes to a end, feeling ur soft lips part from mine. I gaze into your eyes. Lying back on the bed with you. Holding hands, whispering "i love u". Feeling the gentleness and firmness of your hand as you grip mine. Leaning over to rest against you. Head rested on your shoulder. Kissing on your neck now. Heart blossoming from sadness to bliss. Cheeks warm and palms sweaty. Hands trembling a little as i still another kiss. moving to lay back by your side, when suddenly you pull me back into your arms settling me on your chest.
   Delivering unto me a passionate kiss that sends chills through my body and delights my spirit. Sinking into the sensual arousal of the love u give ever so willingly as each time we kiss.... mmm so lovely! Heart racing, each thump growing louder in my ears.
   Our kiss more intense now. Your hands smooth over my back. My arms locked around ur shoulders. Burning intimacy coursing through our veins, rippling across our skin... sending vibes of orgasmic exstacy back and forth. Kissing a little deeper. clutching on to your waist....heart pounding, body temperatures ascending.....pulling my lips from yours..... both of us gasping...as i relax back calmly back beside you. On one of those mornings like this the ten second sadness before hand is worth it.......

how i adore our mornings<3

Happy Easter!!!!!!!!

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 19:53:38 GMT

Hope everyone is enjoying there day. mwah mwah mwah wuv u all.<3<3<3<3<3

A Photograph

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 03:04:11 GMT

    Staring at a photograph of you. Studying your eyes, lips and nose.... oh how there is so much beauty in your eyes.
   Looking deep.... into those gorgeous blue eyes. I feel content, leveled, and at peace. As tears begin to slip down my cheeks. The sweetest memoirs of our past and present flash before my eyes.
    How it is to hold you. Feeling your broad arms wrap around me. Your tender lips kiss me; always sweet and lush upon mine.
The masculine and gentle aroma of your cologne left upon the sheets and inhaled deeply with savoring delight.
Your embrace and touch.
   Our nights and sunrises sublime and treasured. For your hands fit mine just right and your arms wrap around me so tight.
   To be into to deep. Is an understatement! For i dive in for your love each night=). With each kiss and each fight. Our hearts will soar. Our spirits will fly. And we will be together from now and till the end of time.
   For you are my sublime blessing. As i am yours.....

Bringing the picture in my hands to my lips. Sealing of promise or amorous passion. I close my eyes again then search over your picture once more. Settling it down on the counter. Slipping into bed and dreaming of sweet reveries of you and me.

How i love thee...

good night.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 23:23:13 GMT

    Early Morning

    I dip into my bed. Huddling quickly under the covers. Wrapping up in the silky blue sheets and soft cozy blankets. Sighing and breathing in the sweetness of the morning air. Oh how i love sleeping in and having my moments of quiet. Its absolutely tranquil and utterly calming how it feels to slip into a deep slumber. Dreaming of desires and hidden fantasies. All the while completely comfortable and peaceful in every way.

Still Moments

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 23:38:20 GMT

Standing by your side as we admire the serene beauty of the mountains. Wrapping my arms around your waist from behind. Kissing the back of your neck. Whispering in your ear... "Je t'amie, mon amour". Staring out into the distance. Holding on to you tight. Thinking how beautiful it is.... us and life its all so peaceful up here. My prince moving me in front of him and wrapping his arms around me. Feeling his warmth and love surround me. Turning to kiss his luscious lips. Snuggling more into him; breathing in deep. These are the still moments of time. When every thing clears from ones mind and all there is is you and your I. Both blessed to be in one another's presence. No worries, no problems, and no melancholy. Just you and me. How I love it here and being with you. Breathing in the serenity and mellowness flowing around us in the breeze. Visioning our life and agape growing as strong and as tall as the mountains that stretch out before us. Turning around in your arms to see your eyes. As beautiful as ever. and pressing close against you and clutching you tight. These are the still moments to remember.... ours.=)

Moon Light

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 23:00:21 GMT

Resting in ur arms in the moon light. Feeling the outlines of your fingers and the warmth of your lips on the back of my neck. So soft and gentle are your hands along my waist. Holding on to you tight. Drifting away from the world as the the trees sway in the cool breeze. And the stars dance across the sky. Laying on the grass with you. Gazing into the unknown and staring at love stories written in the sky of other lovers of the night. Looking into your eyes blue and passion and imagining ours. Admiring your cheeks and nose and smile. Over whelmed by handsome prince i kiss the ever so sweetly. Lips pressing together in intimacy. Arms locking around each other. Nuzzling into you and breathing in the cologne. mmm smells so sweet.=) In the moon light is when are love blooms and takes hold of us. In the moon light i am awakened to how much i love you.
only in the moon light....

smiling...

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:42:31 GMT

petals flowing down a river of dreams and desires. i reach down to feel the cool water trickle over my fingers. catching between them a petal of a red rose. its velvety and silky feel reminds me of his touch. i rub the petal gently against my cheek. closing my eyes and breathing in deep. flashing back to that november evening when our eyes met. and my heart leaped with joy when i discoverd the beauty embeded in your smile. for awhile i just gazed into your eyes and then you spoke and to my surprise your words were as beautiful as the outlines of ur lips. and together they flowed with such appeal that i knew this new found love was real when you said your name.

i open my eyes and in that instant the petal slips away soaring into the wind. away to complete its destiny. i can see my prince a far resting under a tree. i neel down to feel the water once more. stretch back up to find my love holding the same petal in his hand. he kisses it. then touches it to my lips. clasps my hand and lets it soar again. smiling deep inside filled with serenity. i realize what the petals destiny was. to bring him to me...

smiling inside by and by