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Friday, January 20, 2006

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 21:52:17 GMT

Friday, January 06, 2006

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 21:18:56 GMT

Father

yes beckon

why do some of us feel so much more than others ?

well beckon if you miraculously had a new sports car wouldn't you take it to the limit to see what she would do? i saw what you did in your little red one ripping up the mountainside i had to send extra protection

probably Father

well beckon i have sent some brave souls to Earth face to test the limits on feeling my rainbow of emotion it is a creative force like no other it's passion and i ought to know just look around i wrote the book on creativity

Father you make me laugh

beckon paybacks aren't always hell ho ho ho

i love you Father

like wise beckon

i miss you Father

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 10:27:06 GMT

OH MOTHER!

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Monday, October 17, 2005

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 03:53:32 GMT

+ A CROSS + MOONS TONES

& ECLIPSED DREAMS

i left the sanctity of my altar room lit by candle light to venture outside into the night it was lit by a moon so bright so intense is glowed as silver as the cross around my neck the stones shimmered and glowed with fire i heard moons tones as the two that always accompany me sat iridescent and silently beating on top my breast as two stone hearts i was taken back in time to a sleeping dream i was given one of two on the same subject with the same message

setting: a stone castle a man was lying in bed dying in a large cold damp room covered in thick skins i believe i was kin to him the moon shown in i looked at him and the case was severe he was silent i went down into a court yard to pray took this cross off my neck and put it on a stone ledge outside his window it" lit up" from the reflection of the moon the dream came true in 2002 no castle no skins just a man i was formerly married to the spirit came to tell me he was sick and possibly dying and gave me instruction he had caused me much pain but i "owed him" in some way a debt i needed to pay to clear my slate in these modern days i was to take him to a doctor and confirm a diagnosis of cancer in his lungs and if it was true offer to take care of him until the end i knew it came from spirit holy came into my kitchen so i obeyed him ( tests you get them all the time in obedience) i called the man who i will refer to as M it was as spirit said carcinoma in the lungs he had been told so i told him my offer and what holy said and took him to the doctor on July 3 ( my dead grandmas birthday she probably had something to fo with it she had a bad sense of humor lol ) it was true as far as the doctor knew as well as a radical case of emphysema saggy lung ooh i moved him in and intended to care for him he also had a habit a bad one at one time i made a living will so i could dispose of him properly he would not sign said he wanted to die in the woods i said no i would be arrested for murder he was difficult did i mention that ? tests sometimes they are hard when clearing a soul and indebtedness he tended me for a while when i was sick & saved my life one night when i checked out with no blood (another story) he finally signed the papers i started a business toi keep him busy but his habit came back he always stole my car & LIED and i was at my wits end because i can detect them! but spirit said it's not finished yet keep on tryin' so i did for he was sick and let me be very clear i was JUST friends and that was stretching it well he never died eventho he finally signed those papers he got a healing of sorts despite his difficult behaviors to make a long story short he's still alive & giving some other woman hell up in Northern Va. one of the hardest assignments spirit EVER asked of me it was continually testy see he was angel too with a lot of work to do i parted friends but he hates me lol bless him now why did i mention this ?

the eclipse energy

fell as an overshadowing

causing me to recollect on my dreams

and the accuracy

contained within usually right on

target

they usually have stones

& holy etymologies

i take it as a good omen

compliments of an eclipse energy

& the silver light that shines tonite

a sign

my sleeping dreams of

you & me

will come true if

i but

wait patiently on the

tides of time to turn

to catch up with us

stranger

things have happened

i will pray

put my cross

in the light of the altar

where

it likes to rest

between assignments (that's another story) lol

a page from my life ~ dreams come true / becK_on

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 16:00:21 GMT

One of my old poems has been rolling around in my head....As I spoke about in a previous post,the strangeness of predicting your future and prophesying your soul story years or maybe decades before hand is revealing...I have now come to some understanding on my puzzlement.

PUZZLES ME

I worked

a jigsaw puzzle

it crashed

onto the floor

tried to

get it back together

it would not fit

quite like before 1981 reflections

Little did I realize at the time deep,deep groaning's and agonies were pouring from me as the water from the mountain close to my home.I had but scratched the surface of my journey here on earth,and that was by accidents, was under the dis disillusionments,I had it figured it out already.Foolish woman child I was.I muse at that now....

it's hard

to explain

these hues

im goin' thru

it's like being

bright,bright yellow

living in dark

blue 1981 reflections

I had but looked upon the surface of myself,and that without much effort on my behalf .I am grateful at many junctures,to the One who looks over me.He has gently and lovingly put BLINDERS on my eyes,as on a horse that pulls a carriage,or plows a field. Enabling me ,for a while, to look only at my present ,not behind,nor side to side,nor at the CHAOS that at times,whirled around me, most certainly not into a sometime apparent BLACK HOLE future. If this had not been so....I would have bucked...continued in hiding,or run away at race horse speed.What was ahead was no walk ,or carriage ride in the park .I plodded along .Amazingly, made it until these times.

There have been ones' who have provided me with some clues to my identity and the mystery of my growth .These are known to me well,for they DROP BOMBS of most outrageous possibility...stuff of fiction surely,or more aptly questionably sanity .I would try and dismiss them.Yet,their words hung in my consciousness as a leaf in a spider web,or an uncomfortable splinter in my former realities,until I would ,in my own time investigate and seek truth within myselves.Messengers...I know now.They usually never linger,seed planters,They cannot be sought out.In some DIVINE way they find you.Face to face,are the most shocking encounters.In these days new openings are in place for DIVINE ones.,Once their seeds are planted they graciously provide proof,,,in many ways.Self discovery is the aim of their arrows..It is in this ,I have found there is no real self...I am connected to all that is,.being blessed to have much help from ones here and afar....It is available to all who seek and knock....you will surely find.... help with missing parts

Do not dismiss your messengers,or declare them daft, crazy,,for these are their calling cards ...more often than not..."seek & ye shall find,and when you find you will be troubled" Jesus...Gospel of Thomas

I can now sense and am grateful for such absurdities...I desire them...as I desire to discover all missing parts of multi-leveled essence. I will be working on this for eternity..Mostly, now,my BLINDERS are not gently affixed.

..I do not fear the past,present or future,at least so much,,and will with surefootedness walk,at times run, these three paths.I truly never knew those blinders were on, until I made it to a SAFER PLACE..

I know, the more we, as an individual pieces of the whole, desire our own personal works in progress to take lighter form...we will finish this Divine Puzzle that is for us all. Harmony on Earth Face..Harmony is light ,,,bright bright yellow...white illume light.......Eternal Flame, tended by many in unison.

I dream of the CREATORS" RAINBOW VISION of unity and interlocking for us all. DO YOU HOLD AN IMPORTANT MISSING PIECE? It may be the one that solves this puzzle...don't be shy about your offerings.We are one....a puzzlement in itself.

Today I wish for you velvet blinders if needed,the strength of a working horse,and a leaf in the cob webs of you conscience,

Pray for those who mourn losses of all manner this day

blessings becK_on

...Angels cannot see around the corners of life either,they just know whatever is waiting .Divine help,guidance and timing (no clocks in their realm) will be there with it.......We all come to points of growth,uncertainties,change and contemplations....We are never alone. Helpers, assigned at birth,seen or unseen accompany us..At at times, we fall to our literal or metaphoric knees ,face change,seek our depths and face the dark nights of our souls.... or the brightness of our futures.WE are never alone

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 04:15:20 GMT

the Doves Heart is a brave heart

& all wings are beautiful even invisible ones

Heart to Heart Who can know the need of a heart that’s covered and protected deep within the quickened flesh what is it seeking and how shall it find rest? Entrapped in a land that is foreign to the sound of its beating and the cry of its silent hopes what is it seeking and how does it cope? Treading the reticent solitude and wrestling memories of past moments and wondering about the map for tomorrow what is it seeking and will it again find sorrow? "The heart can be deceitful and wicked" its been said and how can we know that its true when it was already been broken and nobody knew? Nobody knew the sensitivity that rested quietly in its soul because it was covered to hide it away from the cold It was covered with smiles when it felt like a frown It laughed it off even though it was down The stride of its motion being hasty and sure knowing its strength "this too it shall endure" Who can comprehend the complexity of its yearning and approach its brilliant light when the facets are concealed and tucked away so neatly out of sight? It speaks with kindness by the measure of its hand and mind infusing its confidence to suffering mind Alone but not lonely, silent but not still Who can know a heart. an angel

from last year 8/2004

before the Rapture ( BTR)

i was thinking about my journey to this point and how I am not who I was,or moreso that I am much more than I ever dreamed at one point.Facets...that was the word that came to me.Multi-facted...like the cuts on a stone.This is not just me by any means ,but all who go on the journey to find their true nature and live a life not just have one.

In 1992 I was just me,an arttisr,designer,wife of Mark,daughter of Gail & Evelyn so on and so on...I not a clue I had so many "cuts" that could absorb,refract and at times shimmer and send light.I was still in the mine of my soul and it was dark down there.It took a pathway of pain and struggles ,illnesses,broken heart and broken dreams to give me the desire to see what some of the facets of myself were.It was almost a do or die proposition.

Though my heart had been cracked before,never broken I had to allow that,as to let a newer,more tender heart begin to grow.I let my heart break.I was led to seek at a higher level understanding not my own and to trust this power to lead me in the right paths.I did.I had to learn to let go for each time I turned around someone I loved dearly was leaving to go home.I let them go.I had to learn about boundries and saying no when I had always been a "yes" kinda gal.I set them.I had to learn even though I wanted to be first in my life, that could not always be for others had greater needs than I did at certain points.I surrendered to others' needs.

Then,I was alone...but there was more of me than before.I found my native self,my spirituial self,my loving self,my generous self and am beginning to unearth my universal self.It all was hiding within me.Buried deep in me from before I came here and like a rough diamond unearthed and brought to the sun was haggard and quite blimished ,but contained beautiful possibilities with some fine tuning and the hand and chisel of a Master cutter.It is so with us all.

Of course I am still on the jewelers table,yet I do not mind so much a tap here and there if I could just only get to the finished product I will have to practice the the art of patience,which has been my one constant and unrelenting teacher.

I speak of this for it is as we have talked about many times about the waking up process. we are meant to go through on earth.In this time as never before we are afforded new methods,links,support and insights into others' journeys ,so as we will not feel so alone in this process.We are all multifacted gems in various states of perfection.

As of this writing I am Beckon Call....child of the universe,a Cherokee woman of the Bird Clan,an Alchemist a lover of all that is alive a mother, a teacher,an eternal student in this University of Life,a tender of the altar of the eternal flame of the Holy ones, a care giver a hopeful and compassionate one who dares to dream of the peaceable kingdom.Who would have ever thought.

If I had not faced mountainous obstacles,set backs,heartbreaks and all of the other "stuff" set in my way I would still be Beck wife of Mark daughter of Evelyn and Gail.I would still be driving in my car back and forth not knowing all that exsisted outside or inside.So it is with you also.We make our plan before we arrive,we forget....we remember.

When we make our transition,if we choose,our loved ones can have our dirt bodies turned back into it's original form, a diamond.Depending on our size we are about 1/4 to 1/2 a carat of pure diamond.We are mostly Spirit.

I am at a place now where it is neccessary to shed a hard crusty shell of protective layers that served me well for many years.I could open and close it at will.Like turtle or armadillo,but the ones who teach me tell me now,if I am not vulnerable ...I am not truly alive.Today I wish for you a moment of brilliance,a soft stroke of the jewelers tool and a crystal ball to see yourself more clearly,

This was just the beginning lol there always seems to be more facets & the jeweler is always ready to do some polishing

God bless

becK_on

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 15:00:29 GMT

fly free fly easy fly on

fearlessly

where do i begin with this

i felt a good place was back about a year ago

when i was innocently reviewing my life

on another blog

during a summer of meditation and contemplation

inow look back at my writings and wonder

where did the innocence and peace come from

it is a rare day in times like this i am feeling as calm and peaceful

the reason i posted this is that being an

*"angelic" or high energy carrier /a messenger of energy

events in your life may be

well

a bit more unusual that iin others' lives

because of the frequency of energy you carry and your willingness to communicate

with God and the higher powers

people things and situations are drawn to you

as you are to them

there are really very few coincidences

and you probably hit 90-95 percentile

on intuitional hits

here is an entry from a year ago

as i was recalling one such event

one of hundreds

The Angel Lady

Monday, July 12, 2004

Greetings this Chalcedony blue day,

I am outside under a cloud cover.The forecasters are calling for rain today,but there is a dim light behind the canopy of cloud .I call this color Chalcedony blue.I wear always a ring and a pendant on my left wrist of this stone .I will tell this dream,story., At this point of my journey I have little to loose by telling my truths.It was very significant, a heralding so to speak.At the time I tried to dismiss it.I could not.

After a very long,years,illness and healing process,I was taking my first vacation.My sister and I took a condo on a beach I frequently went to when I lived in Flordia.It was not commercial and the beach was nice.That was years ago,The town now was grown a bit,but not all that much in relation to growth and commercialization in general.We had a great quite ocean side condo.

I drove down from my home in the mountains of VA..I had a sporty car I had not yet put to the road test and was ready to ride .I mapped out my trip .I made it much further the first day than I had planned.The car was a pleasure on the road.I stayed all night in Brunswick GA.only three hours from my destination.I got up and drove the three hours easily and was waiting for my sister by noon.

We had a great time .A quite kinda time.We walked the beaches and looked for objects to make prayer sticks.Ate,laid in the sun and did a bit of shopping.I always liked the ocean more than she does.She lives by the ocean and never goes,but I picked this destination.Wile shopping one day we found this little "jewelry" store...in this little artsy type town we wre staying in.The name of it was JOY BY THE SEA.It was a husband and wife who made beautiful handcrafted high quality jewelry.Award winning. Unique.

The last thing I needed was another piece of jewelry.For years I had been buying stone jewelry.All kinds and kinda,sorta by accident learning about each stone.I was admiring the display case when my eyes STOPPED at this moody blue ring,not quite a moonstone,not like anything I had seen.I could not get it off my mind.It was not fancy nor flashy .Silver with 3 dots of gold on either side.My sister saw a ring she wanted ,a blue topaz.We both talked each other into purchasing our much desired rings.

The stone carries light in a long band and somehow turns pink at times.Like the sky.It is opaque and nothing fancy,once I put it on it has stayed on my left hand except for cleansing.I have many,many rings,but it is my ...I do not have a word....maybe,simply Divine will do.

On my way back from a wonderful week I was planning to drive through to North Carolina and have about a three hour trip on into VA,I left the beach and when I got about three hours up the road to Brunswick Georgia I could not hold my eyes open.I had plenty of rest,but I could not drive so I stayed at the same hotel I was at going down .I dipped in the pool ,took a sauna,got into the hot tub,but nothing woke me up so I took a nap.I was planning to go to dinner around 6:00.

I feel immediately into a deep groggy sleep and during this sleep I woke half way up and over mw was what I have now called for yearsTHE CHALCEDONY WOMAN...She was floating in the air above me.Her form was light and in three parts.She was putting something in my nose or so I intuited.I raised up to my elbows and proped myself up.She most gently put her hand on my forehead and eased my head back down and said"Go back to sleep child,all is well"I did I slept until 9;00 to late for dinner as I had planned and What a crazy dream! .I went back to sleep and woke up very rested the next morning and made my way home.

Everytime the sky is this color I remember that incident.In the book of the REVELATIONS Chapter 21,,beginning with verse 18.John describes heaven.Layers of stones.Chalcedondy being the third stone.I often think of this,and how it was after the dream, stones I would acquire grew pictures and provide rainbow lights.It is still a mystery to me,but a good one.

Some say heaven is far away,some say the whole universe is only as far as the tip of your fingers with your arms outstretched.I say The Kingdom is at Hand.

Today I wish for you an emerald green tree to shelter you,a pearl of wisdom to enlighten you and the very gates of heaven to open up before so you may take a look around.

Blessings and peace be with you,

study study study one can never process too much just space it out ~

block cut from Alchemical Studies

god bless becK-on

Friday, July 08, 2005

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 21:58:41 GMT

Angels Mystics

Feathers & Wings

2005

This will be a work in progress

Thank You,

if you can understand the heart

and spirit of a dove ~ you understand

true love ~

life on earth is a series of personal evolutions sometimes they are not always for our own benefit although we do benefit from every change we go thru the pains in life and in our bodies & souls come when we do not go through yet try to avoid or go around obstacle and change ~ there is no real avoiding it only prolonging the agony of not being all you were Divinely made to be ~ afterall that is why we made the journey to the earths' face blessings and safe & pleasant journey to you becK_on

ps you may never believe what could be in under ur skins it is a divine surprise at times !

keep on movin' on ~ it's a good day ~ in the neighborhood ~ and the flyin' weather is good too ~

becK_on