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Monday, April 10, 2006

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 23:07:34 GMT

WOO! I gave blood today! Go me! Man a lot has happened since I've updated...which was ...when? IDK, and I dont care! Anyway... just wanted to tell y'all that I gave blood, which means I helped save a life, which means I rock, which means my mommy and daddy are proud of me, which means...I'm in a pretty good mood... 'cept the fact I'm missing a pint of blood and my finger hurts so I'm not in the best of moods, lol! Well dinner... bye!

Friday, March 31, 2006

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 01:52:10 GMT

Wow... today at around 7 30 was exactly one full year that I havent lived in my old house. It's kinda sad... One full year without a basement, without having a tiny bathroom, or bunk beds, or not waking up at the ass crack of dawn to make it to the bus, one year that I havent see all my friends... one year...
And in a few more days it'll be one full year I've lived in Grapevine and have gone to GHS. Well I'm going to go finish calling all my old friends, I'll ttyl!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 00:43:30 GMT

    OMFG! I'm going to KILL everyone! I'm soo fucking pissed!! Gah! I hate it here, more then EVER! I'll be surprised if I am still alive by the time the weekend is out! I need OUT of this hell hole! I'm so fucking tired of being every ones fucking shrink! I'm not your shrink! So STOP treating me like one!
    WTF is up with people not talking to me until they need me?! Thats GAY! Ok, and whats up with people thinking whatever someone tells you, its just PEACHY to just run off and tell the whole FUCKING world!? Umm...NO! Hello! God gave you brains, fucking use them! It's not THAT hard! If Bob is talking about Sue then you dont go telling SUE what BOB said about them! ESP. if its TRUE! HELLO?! DUH! Dumb ass! AND you dont go making up shit just to get attention! If fucking Sue is the freaking best problem solver and has answers to stuff from drama, to gossip, to family problems, then you dont go off thinking, "HEY! Sue gets a HELL of a lot of attention b.c. she's great at solving problems! Why dont I start doing that?! ...Oh wait I CANT b.c. I SUCK at solving problems...hmmm...what shall I EVER do?! .... OH! I know! I'll make shit UP! It'll solve MY problems! But only CREATE a HELL of a lot for EVERYONE else around me! B.c. yah'know thats not MY problem and all!" <---WTF?! Fucked up? Yes...I think so!
    ALSO, dont lie! My God! It's not that hard to NOT lie! I promise you that! PLUS, when you DO lie, people hate you! So lets say Billy is smoking weed... and Sue wants to know if its true so her friends ask him, b.c. she KNOWS that Billy wont tell HER the truth! So Billy tells Lucy that, yeah I've done it a few times. And then whenever people bring it ANYTHING to do with pot up infront of Sue while Billy is there, Billy flips some serious shit! And denies it like no other! But if its Billy and Lucy, and Bob, he'll be like, "Hell yeah man! Pot kicks ASS!" Well BILLY, you're stupid, b.c. you thought Sue wouldnt find out... so stop being soo fucking FAKE! And just tell the TRUTH! It's not hard! I promise you!
    OMG! AHH! I hate this place! I hate that I feel soo worthless around EVERYONE ALL the time! I feel like I'm NEVER good enough for my parents! I feel like every time I try and stand up for myself, I get knocked down and put down! I have opinions, believe it or not, and I'm going to state them! Everyone is soo fake around me! EVERYONE!
    Next point of my rant! All that was general about ME and my friends, THIS one is PERSONAL! To all those who think I'm sheltered I'm not. You do not know me. I doubt you ever will, you know of me, and about me, but you do not know me. I have been through a lot more them most of you. Most of which I do not talk about, b.c. it is not stuff that I enjoy remembering. You only say that I am sheltered b.c. my parents are strict. But you know what? I'm glad that they're strict, b.c. it shows that they give two shits about me and what happens to me. And you know what? All of the people who think that I'm sheltered are fucked up. They are druggies who cant figure out what the fuck the want, they are emotionally insecure, and making stuff up so that they get attention. I'm sorry, but that is sad. And I'm sorry that you think I'm "sheltered" but I'm not. I promise you that. I may not be a drug addict, or out getting stoned, or drunk all the time, and thats why you all think I am sheltered. Just because I'm above that, and can see that I dont need that to make myself feel important, or wanted, or thats the only way I have friends, does not mean I am sheltered. Most of you have NO clue what I've been through in my life, my very best friend doesnt even know the half of it. None of you do, and I doubt any of you ever will.
    Another thing, yes I get stressed, and I do bitch -- get use to it! -- and I worry, and I get frustrated, etc. And if I do bitch to you, do NOT ever tell me that you've been through worse, that I have no idea what "stress" is! That what I'm going through is NOTHING! I'm sorry that I havent been through a divorce, and that you have. You're right I dont know how that feels, get over it. I DO however know how to help someone cope with going through a really bad one, ok? So yeah, I do have a small idea. And if I say I'm stressed or pissed or anything dont brush it off as if I'm stupid and I'm just exaggerating things, or tell me how you've been through worse, I dont want to listen to you and your long time ago story! I'm pissed! I'm annoyed! I'm angry! I'm worried! I'm fed up! So the LAST thing I want to do, is LISTEN to YOU! And if you DO make me listen to you and your story, which is basically telling me that I'm stupid, and my worries//frustrations//concernes//annoyences//and stresses are worthless, then you will find yourself with a VERY much more pissed off, stressed, and now bitchy Becca on your hands. And that is the LAST thing you want to deal with!
    And dont EVER act like you know everything! That is soo annoying! You dont always have to have the last word! If you're wrong...you're just wrong, no big deal, dont be an ass over it! Take it graciously, and just say, "Ok". No biggy, unless you start ranting and bitching on about how you ARE right! B.c. I will then most likely bunch you in the face.
    Ok, for the most part I am done ranting//bitching, hope you enjoyed it and learned some life lessons. If you have any questions about the examples I gave and think that they maybe about you, dont hesitate to ask. I'll tell you the truth, if they are or not.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 01:09:59 GMT

Friends are like television. Some are like PBS && always asking for $$money$$, others are like the ~~news~~ with sad tales to tell every day, some are like that one station with the foreign language, you don't understand a word of it, but you watch & listen anyway; & then there are the ones like commercials: always ~~changing~~, ever so annoying & only seem to be there when you're bored, but every once in a while you meet someone who's like a really good movie of the week or a tv show you hardly ever get to see anymore because you're so ~~busy~~. My point is: hold on to the friends that you care about & since we don't have a remote control to mute someone or just change the channel, pick your friends carefully.

****************On a SECOND note...****************
<--- I can SOOO relate to that!! Since I'm the FREAKING local SHRINK! Dear LORD!

<--- And this just made me laugh my ass off!!

Haha, have a g'night y'all! OH! And BTW, V for Vendetta, FREAKING kicks ASS! SOO good!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 00:53:59 GMT

So how were everyone's breaks? Haha...like anyone is going to tell me how theirs went! Lol. Well a quick recap... So Friday and Saturday by friend Jared decided to play a nice little "prank" on me, not going to explain if you want to know details IM me! Then Sunday my BFF, Kimi, came over and spent the night, and Jared came over and I hit him multiple times, lol. We rented Scary Movie 2...waist of my life... anyway then Monday Kimi went home, then got a call from Kohl's to go in for an interview, and got the job, as you've read in my last entry. Then Tuesday watched some movies, Donnie Darko, Edward Scissorhands (sp?) and then my mom was like, you've been in this bad mood lately you need to be happy, and she made me watch a muppet movie, I had a large tempation to through the movie out the window, haha... I was in a bad mood. Then Wednesday didnt do much, sat at home and chilled on the comp, then on Thursday I went out with my mommy and sister to get my hair cut, then hung out with Kristen! We made muffins! And made really odd tasting Mochas...they were odd... haha. Then Friday chatted with some old friends in Chi-town, and got to FINALLY tell people that my sister is pregnant! Hehe!! I'm going to be aunt! Sweet! So y'all like which one...???

Aunty? Aunty Becca? Aunt Becca? Aunt B? Or something... IDK I have like 6 months to figure it out. Lol!

Then Saturday had Oriantation, then chilled out with Kimi, we went and returned the movie we rented the Sunday before and got chocolate at Tom Thumb! Haha! Then Sunday had work, then my mom picked me up b.c. she didnt want me driving in the really bad weather, it was like CRAZY rain! So then we went to Market Street, and this really cute guy hit on me! WOO! Lol! Well that was my break, so it was about average! Lol! xoxo! ~Becca~*

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 23:32:23 GMT

    Ok, so guess what!? Ok.. well before I tell you guys what the "guess what" is, I need to do some real quick back story!
    Ok, been searching for a job for like EVER! And went into an interview today for Kohl's thinking, "SHIT! I'm going to screw myself over! AHHH!" Ok, end backstory!

    So we left Kohl's ((me and my mom that is)) and headed for Wal*Mart, were about to go into Wal*Mart when my mom's cell starts ringing, so my mom picks up and it's my dad, my dad tells my mom that Kohl's just called my house and I need to call them back. I instantly got ÜBER excited, then thought no... they're just going to tell me that I forgot something... JOY! So we wait to go into Wal*Mart while I call them on my cell, and I'm told that I need to go and have drug test...which means........................................................I got the JOB! AHHH! I'm soo excited! YES! I got it! I got it! GO ME! Ok, well have to go eat dinner... WOOT! Go me!

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 02:43:00 GMT

     Ok, I'm going to be bitching... just so you know, so if you dont want to listen to me then dont read it ok? I dont want to hear ANYONE telling me to "get over it" or some shit like that!
     Ok, so I'm pretty annoyed...which is bad, b.c. I'd SOO rather be pissed then EVER be annoyed! Annoyed for me is just, BAD!! I'm stressed out over soo many things, and thats NOT cool because then I dont eat right which means out of no where I drop weight like CRAZY, which I'm sure many of you reading this are thinking, "Shit, girl! I'd love to be you!" Umm...no not so much, not when your boobs are only a 34 B...there now EVEYONE knows my boob size! Heaven forbid! I'm about to go crazy! It's freaking spring break and I dont want it to be! GRR! I needed just ONE more week... just one more... and then I would be happy! Because then I could go to Chicago, and have things with certain PEOPLE going the way I want them too! Ok, I know MANY of you know who I'm talking about...
     Ok...so the reason why I'm annoyed... ok so I invited my friend, "Bob" over and he was like mmk cool! So he dropped me off then my friend, had to do some things and then was going to come back. Sounds good right? Yeah, I thought so too... 'Til 5 30 rolls 'round and STILL NO call from "Bob", so I'm like mmk let me call him. So I call, and leave a message. Ok, so what time is it now?! Umm... like 10?! Yeah... NEVER called me back! WTF?! Ok, so this is really why I'm pissed:: Ok, invited "Bob" for dinner...actually my mom did, but still, he LOVES my food... something about it I guess. Anyway so we wait for him to call 'til like 7 45 to see if he ever calls...ummm no. So finally we're all like SCREW it! We're starving! Lets EAT! So we do... and what makes me soo mad is that I could have gone out and done other things with other friends, but NO! I sat around and waited for him to call. And by the time I realised he wasnt going to be calling me any time soon it was far too late to go out and do those other things I got invited to. So yeah I'm pretty annoyed.
     Damn, I have patience! NO one I know would wait for me THAT long! I'm soo annoyed! B.c. ok this is what also annoys me... I KNOW he likes me, and YET he wont do a DAMN thing to make ANYTHING happen! Gah! I mean c'mon! WTF?! If I make my flirting any more obvious (sp? actually I dont care!) I'll turn into a real life Slut-Whore! Not cool.
     Man, I can already tell my break is going to SUCK! And you know what sucks the most?! We go back on an A day! EVERYONE in school HATES A days! They SUCK! B days are what EVERYONE loves! WTF?! I love B days! A days...not so much. Why? B.c. I have study hall...BORING! Then world history...AHH busy work... BLAH! Then dance... annoyed with dancing... And then... BUM BUM BUM!!!! CHEMISTRY! AHHHHHH! EWWW!! That right there is some MAJOR suckage! I hate chem... *gags* Even though... SOMEhow I'm getting a 93%...wtf?! Hell I'm not complaining... just confused about HOW I got that! Well whatever... I feel better ranting... even though I know that next to NO one will read this WHOLE thing... but I really dont care... so yeah g'bye...

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 01:22:06 GMT

Well today was a Monday...llyeck! I hate Modays! My waterbottle ended up like opening inside my purse and like spilled all in my bag and leaked onto my jeans so I had this BIG wet spot on the side of my jeans! WOO! Haha, so yeah that was fun. PLUS! I was super late and had to get a tardy pass...joy... Well the rest of my day was pretty ok. Nothing all too special... hmmm anything else happen lately...no not so much. Lol, OH! Kimi and I went to go get ice cream the other night, she ended up chilling at my house 'til like 11. We talked... and talked... and talked! I love you Kimi! Lol! Well hey going to go! Ttyl! xoxo! ~Becca~*

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 23:48:22 GMT

     Ok, went shopping with Kimi on Monday and Tuesday! WOO! Took crazy insane pics with her on Monday! Filled out like 5000 job applications! I thought I'd DIE! After which I turned them in, and Gap says you have to be 18! WTF?! So then did one for Old Navy, had and interview for it yesterday and today! I know...double interview! That better mean I get the job! If I dont, I'll cry... but I still have Stide Rite and Starbucks...which IDK how I feel about...
     Anyway, can anyone say DRAMA?! My goodness...dont even get me started! I counted yesterday that in TEXAS alone I have 11 DIFFERENT groups of drama to deal with! Not just groups of friends because I have a lot, but just with drama...damn!
     Well, dinner time! Ttyl! xoxo! ~Becca~*

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 02:03:36 GMT

    Well I filtered out a LOT of drama in the last few days...things have slowly but surely died down...thank goodness! Went shopping yesterday, and got a blazer thing, a skirt, some of those gaucho (sp?) pants, and shoes! WOO!
    I woke up late today...nothing new so I kinda looked like crap but thats ok...I'm so tired of caring! Like seriously! But today was actually a GOOD day! WOO! I fell asleep in math, and talked with Hollie, then Cody got me fudge! It was soooo GOOD! OMG! Haha, office aid wasnt all too special...but thats ok. It was nice to just relax...kinda. Then in US history, Potter and I are cool again, which is nice. Then we just did fun crosswords and shit. It was spiffilious! Yeah...I said it! Lol!
    And what REALLY made my day was that, my parents TOTALLY dont trust me with the car and my mom was like yeah, I need you to drive the car home. And I did it! I was soo good! I'm proud! Go me! Haha...I'm such a dork loser! Well I'm going to go! Ttyl! xoxo! ~Becca~*