Your smile is an invitation for me to go wildThis weekend has been pretty awesome :) On sat i went to the beach with kaily juncai nikki lennard. It cut down from quite a number of people hahah but i still, im glad i went nonetheless. hahah and nikki's and my encounter with the lifeguard was highly embarrassing haha Went to Coastes after to chill. I LOVE THE BEACH. cept, singapore's is kinda gross. Take what you get i guess. The evening was good too :) moviee nighttt <3 Today was a majorrrlyy relaxed day. I woke up at 11.30 despite sleeping at arnd 5. (i dont even know why i got up so early). Went tanning in the killer sun WHICH I KNOWW I WOULD'VE FINALLY GOTTEN A TAN WITH cept it was too strong and my mom told me i was nuts hahah so i came in after 30 minutes with hardly a change in colour. sighh. I had my nails and eyebrows done after. Then i went for a haircut and took a passport photo. Was supposed to go cycling in the night with my mom and kim but they left without me :( fell asleep instead. Nachos. Spider man 3. today was good. anyhoos. hmm. i've been thinkingggg. You know how people are in their prime years (physically) in their teens and early 20's. isnt that the time where you should be feeling your best? after all its the time where youll probably be at your physical best. Its such a waste how so many of us (including myself) are so scared and concerned with what other people think of them, which is sad cuz 20 years down the road youll prolly go like Darnnn it i wish i took full advantage of everything then. Which is now for me. which is...so not gonna happen. ok im ramblinggggg. just a thought. Oooohh and i really am looking forward to the time where i do something and go "i want to be doing this for the rest of my life". Im pretty scared for the future. Most people know what they want to do/be, they have their talents, they have their goals. I have nothing. and when people ask me what i wanna be/do im stumped. I wanna do something in the high fashion line but i have no creativity whatsoever. I want to have a secure job as a lawyer or doctor but im not smart enough. I want to be able to give advise to people but i dont heed my own advise so im not a very good example. Above the pay cheques, above the image, i wanna find something that is me, that i'd be happy with. You know how they always say, If you love your job, you wont work a day in your life. ohhh when will that day come :( IM GOIN TO THE GYM TOMORROW. first time in a looong looong time. I can't imagine how i was so pro-gymming last time and now i think about jogging/gyming im like bleagh. I SHALL go back to being that bev. i prefer that hahah school starts tuesday. CCA troubles are back to haunt me. Im watching Strictly Dr. Drew on Home and Health (channel 70). I think every guy should watch that programme. peaceee :D -BB<3 | 
