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Friday, January 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 01:27:57 GMT

1.
cory: it's an interesting feeling...
shawn: what.. to know that it's over?
cory: no, to be the only one in the world that knows it's not..
--boy meets world.

2.
It's one of those feelings.
The ones where you get the good kind of goose bumps in 90 degree weather.
You sit there and think about him & you can't help but smile whenever you see him.
He takes your breath away.
You'd rather spend the rest of your life,
sitting there with him than winning the lottery or becoming famous,
because, when you're with him,
you have everything.

3.
Keep on loving him even if you see no point.
Maybe the point just hasn't made it's way into your story yet

4.
she's getting to you.
you're slowly realizing that you don't like
being without her. you're feeling exactly how she did.

5.
she's beautiful, but she'll
never admit it. music makes
her world go round, literally.
friends are her everything.
she's afraid of being alone.
when she smiles her whole
face lights up. & her heart
has been broken by a guy
who doesn't like her anymore
and you know what?
she's still brave.

6.
You can't pretend you
never think about us.
We had our problems,
but we had good times too.
Like that slow dance that seemed to last forever
& not long enough at the same time.
And the summer where everything started.
Remember those nights when we pretended
it would never end? Maybe you can,
but I can't forget everything so easily.
Our racing hearts and your laughter
still sometimes reach my ears. Don't you want
those days back? Please tell me you do.
Because I don't think
I can hear you say you regret us.
I don't think I can hear you say
you regret me.

7.
Falling for him once: temptation.
Falling for him twice: destiny.
Getting your heart broken: a mistake.
Letting it happen again: unstoppable.

8.
When he holds me close, and I can hear his heartbeat,
and kiss his lips, I realize,
this is where I want to be,
and this is how I want to feel.

9.
Lets start over... Let's forget all of our problems...
let's put the past behind us, and never bring it up again...
It's like they say: "You can't live or love in the past."
Lets throw all our problems away. I'll give you my trust, if you give me yours...
lets fall in love again... the right way

10.
hes gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement
more like you're startled everytime you see him
and you stare in amazment
just wondering how anyone could make
your stomach produce butterflies
in such a small amount of time

11.
Seeing him was like hearing an
old song come on the radio; bringing
up so many old feelings & memories
that you can't tune them out.

12.
When you`re still smiling about something that
happened five months ago,
you know there`s gotta be more.

13.
what is hard to bear is sweet to remember."
-portuguese proverb

Monday, December 31, 2007

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 04:04:39 GMT

I bet you didn't know that I am terrified of the dark,
and every time I think of you, I smile. I bet you don't
know that I hate thunderstorms but love dancing in the
rain. or how much I laugh with my friends & how much I
truly enjoy being happy. I bet you don't know how many
tears I've cried just for you, or how much I doubt myself
every day. I bet you don't know how ticklish I am or how I
can't make decisions. & how it drives me crazy when you look
into my eyes. I bet you didn't know that I would do anything to be
with you. But mostly I bet you didn't know how much I love you

She won't tell you
about her problems
because she's too scared
to face them herself.

Just because I finally got over you,
doesn't mean there aren't days
when it all comes rushing back.

She looked into the night sky, and said so this
is what it feels like, letting go of everything

This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in.

So take your empty words
Your broken promises
And all the time you stole
Cause I am done with this

"I loved you. And here's a news flash.
You protected me from nothing. I spent
a long time missing you, wondering what
the hell I did wrong to make you do that
to me. I thought everything was my fault.
And even when I got over that, I still knew
what I'd lost.You.. You were the one who
made me laugh when I had a crappy day.
You were the one I vented to when I was
mad, the one I shared all the good stuff
with. You always knew when I was full of
crap, and you always called me on it. You
were smart, you were funny, you were
good-looking. You were mine. And then,
suddenly, you weren't. I knew every day
exactly what I'd lost, and I missed you
every day and I believed in you every day,
and my heart broke every day. That's the
big favor you did for me. Thanks so much.
Here's the kicker. You weren't even
protecting me. You were protecting yourself.
If you'd given half a thought to me,
you wouldn't have said good-bye."
++the comeback kiss

don't be flattered that he misses you.
he should miss you.
you're deeply missable.
however, he's still the same person who
broke your heart.
remember, the only reason
he can miss you is because
he's choosing,
everday, not to be with you.

You can't pretend you never think about us.
We had our problems, but we had good
times too. Like that slow dance that seemed
to last forever and not long enough
at the same time. And the summer where everything started. Remember those nights when we pretended it would never end? Maybe you can, but I can't forget everything so easily.
Our racing hearts and your laughter still sometimes reach my ears. Don't you want those days back? Please tell me you do. Because I can hear you say you regret us. I don't think I can hear you say you
regret me.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 22:52:34 GMT

What if we already met the right
person, but weren't ready to fall in love?

.)"you don't need to say a ~~word~~. i need
to tell you something.this here, may make
or break me. i still care about you, i never
~~stopped~~.so please, don't leave me here."

and sometimes it's better
the second time around.

i was blind and foolish,but i
was just a girl.so kiss me with
your lies,& promise me the world.

please don't let this turn into
something it's not.i can only give you
everything i've got.i can't be as sorry
as you think i should,but i still love
you more than anyone else could.

There's someone in her past that
she hasn't ~~gotten over~~ yet. Each day
is like the last & she misses what she
can't ~~forget.~~ It's just an empty space
where something used to be.Now she
guards the gate, but she's lost the key.
So no one ~~enters~~, but no one leaves.

When someone's gone from your
life for a really long time, you start to
forget stuff about them. Like, you forget
what their voice sounded like, & how they
loved you so much, & how everything you
did was completely okay with them.
++Party of Five

Like all of a sudden I didn't fit
in anywhere. Not at school, not at
home & every time I turned around,
another person I`d known forever
felt like a stranger to me. Even
I felt like a stranger to me.
++Wendelin Van Drannen

It's like i dont know you anymore.
I don't miss you at all.
I miss who you used to be,
and who i thought you were all along.

She is the type of girl that wishes on stars, even though she knows nothing will happen. She still wants some hope, that her life will be better. She wishes to be prettier, a stronger person. But most of all, with tears running down her face, she wishes for him.

She's thinking of him.
You can hear the smile in her voice.

Remember when we first met? and I was scared to open myself and my heart up to you? I was scared of getting hurt, scared of being rejected, scared to be myself. then we talked and I thought we connected && that I finally found someone with a shoulder to cry on and a loving heart. well, all I can say is I was wrong; and its the guys like you that detour me from finding the nice guy

Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person who can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, & no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know its a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. The one person you know your better off with out but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside you wouldn't know what to do with out them. The one person that you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to over look it. Because you love him.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 20:13:29 GMT

1. there's always gonna be that one thing you wish for but never get, that one mistake you can never take back & most of all the one memory you would do anything just to have it again

2.So tonight I'm thrown back into those memories,
face to face with my past, hoping for some sort of closure,
that will let me leave all this behind.

3. i can`t look you in the eye anymore, becuase I no longer know whos looking back

4. Okay, here it is, your choice..
it's simple, her or me,
and I'm sure she is really great.
But i love you in a
"pretend to like your taste in music,
let you eat the last piece of cheesecake,
hold a radio over my head outside your window"
unfortunate way

5. i've learned that it takes years to build up trust
and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

6. What do you mean you don't know how to love? Do you think any of us know how to love? Do you think anybody would ever do anything if they waited until they knew how to love? Do you think people would even get out of bed in the morning if they knew how to love?

7. And it takes more time than I've ever had. Drains the life from me, makes me want to forget. As young as I was, I felt older back then. More disciplined, stronger, and certain. I was ~~scared to death~~ of eternity. I was saved by grace but destroyed by ativity. I ~~lied to myself~~ and said it was for the best.

8. I saw you today and realized how far apart
we've grown. I know I should talk to you and
ask you how you've been doing, and I really
wish I could..but it's just occurred to me that
we're strangers now. You don't know me
anymore, much less want to. It's okay that
you've moved on. I know that everything is
different now..

9. This past year,
I've learned that goodbyes will always hurt,
Pictures never replace being there,
and memories, good or bad will
bring tears to your eyes,
and words will never be able
to replace the feelings.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 16:46:26 GMT

* Friendship Quotes *

sometimes. your friends can hurt you worse than
any of your enemies could .

"Friendship, for example, is a real gift. It's given with no expectations and no gratitude is needed, not between real friends." - Mr. Feeney

It's sad to know that there are some people that you will have to say goodbye to in your lifetime.
it's sad how they can just slowly fade away and you just have to sit there, and watch it happen.

Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation.
One more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever?
If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days.
And none will outweight the one you wish you had back.

& even if we never talk again, always remember that I’m forever
changed by who you are & what you meant to me.

Times were tough, but memories remain.
Situations were rough but we overcame.
Side by side, together we grew.
When all is said & done I'll look back on friends like you

there's those occasional nights when you break down
and cry because you know that things will never be the same
well, i guess tonight's one of them.

i won't even pretend that i still know you
maybe you're the one that's lost
but you're not looking for a way back
can't you see our friendship was the cost

great to see you're smiling again
but it's a shame
we can't stay friends

it's sad to see that two people
who use to be so close don`t
even recognize each other any-
more.. not because they grew up
but, because they grew apart

Twenty years from now I'm gonna look back & remember that
you were that one person who could turn every frown into a
smile in a few simple words. That person who lifted my head
when I was losing faith in myself. That one person who carried
tears on her shoulders after every fight, every break up,
every death. That one person who always knew what I was feeling
by the look in my eyes. That one person who accepted who I was
when everyone else laughed in my face. That one person that
accepted every decision I made, believing that I'd make the
right decisions. That one person who knew who I really was.
That one person that made the biggest difference in my life.
My best friend. ♥

the friends who grew up with you
deserve a special respect.
the ones who stuck by you shoulder to shoulder,
in a time where nothing was certain,
all life lay ahead, and every road led home.
-the wonder years

Its okay to want someone you can't have. It's okay to
keep friendships when you don't want them, or want
something more. Its okay to cry when you're hurt and
its okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe
it or not, its always gonna be okay. Thats just how it works.
Sometimes, things don't always work out the way you want
them to, and a lot of times, it seems like they never will,
but its okay. Thats how life's supposed to go. Its all about
learning how to deal with the bumpy parts in the road and
waiting til they're smooth again. Its all about forgiving and
forgetting. Its all about waiting and wishing.
Thats just how life is.

the worst thing in life is to lose a friend.
a friend that means the world to you -
a friend that you put all your trust and faith in
a friend that you believed in from the start
a friend that took the center of your heart
a friend that you'd die for
a friend that you wanted to cherish for a lifetime
a friend, a good friend, a best friend.

It's not up to me anymore.
if you want me in your life,
you're just going to have to figure out a way
to get me there.

a real best friend never gets sick of you,
they always want to hang out with each
other, they have all the insiders in the world,
no matter what happens or who comes
along.. nothing gets in the way of their friendship.

i look at all the pictures from the past, thinking
of how the years went by so fast. the dances,
the parties, the jokes, the laughs, the shoulders
to cry on, & cute photos, the people ive known
since way back when, the new kids came every
now & then. the friendships you make come &
go, but theres always those few youll always
know. now as we go our separate ways, i know
ill remember those days.

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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 02:35:27 GMT

A year later she showed him two pictures of herself. In the first one she was gorgeous. Her smile was perfect && her eyes glittered. She was honestly happy. In the second something was different. Her eyes were dull && her smile was fake. She looked into his eyes && he knew what the difference was. “You see this picture?” she said, pointing to the first one. “That’s happiness. That’s when we were together. That’s the difference. We were together when that one was taken.” He looked down && tried to avoid her eyes && said, “I know. I can tell.”

You know me too well.

When I said I didn`t love you,
you looked at me & said,

"Bullshit, you`re just running away."

I didn`t know that I liked you
until that one night, I was staring
at the ceiling and all I could
do was think about was you.

Because a quote is the closest thing
to letting him know how you really
feel about him.

I didn't even think I liked you.
Until I thought I lost you.
--The OC

He said, " I never meant to hurt you"
she said, " That doesnt really matter,
because in the end it still hurts the same"

she glances in the mirror and throws her hair up,
ripped jeans, an old hoodie -- they're all she needs.
she runs out the door, five minutes before class starts
and arrives just as the bell rings, cheeks flushed
she doesn't try that hard at school and she plays sports
because she likes to run. her rooms a mess
and her cell phone's always dead, but she just smiles ;
she knows the world is hers. she has her enemies, she's made mistakes
and she knows it. but she doesn't care. she's happy
with who she is and who she has-- because that's all she needs.

It's not okay because he made me laugh. Because
I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than
who I am when I was with him. Because I don't
believe that stuff about finding your other half,
but because I do believe that what you look for is
someone who makes you a better person when
you're with them, who changes you for the better,
who makes you the best person you can possibly be,
and because I thought I had found that in him.

if we could decide who to love,
life would be a lot simpler,
but alot less magical.

i`m over you. i still shake when you walk by
&& i still save all of our online conversations
i still feel a smile slip on my face at the sound
of your name & i still think about you most of
the time. you`re still the first person i look *
for when I enter a room &&' i still fall asleep
to the memory of your voice. you`'re breath-

taking && i`ve never seen such a gorgeous
smile; but like i said, i'm over you

Missing someone isn't about how long
it's been since you've seen them last,
or the amount of time since you've talked.
It's about that very moment
when you're doing something,
and you wish, you wish that they
were right there with you.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 02:00:24 GMT

If a girl doesn’t trust you,
you have to understand
that girls get it unfairly -
they are always played, they
almost never get out of
a relationship without a
problem & even if they
never we’re hurt before
they don’t want to go through it

Girl: I know he's a good guy.
Best Friend: How can
you know that for sure?
Girl: Because I had a
half-hour conversation
with him leaning over his
desk, and his eyes
never left mine

Friends with benefits?
Don't sample the goodies
unless you're willing to
risk addiction and withdrawal

Teenage love is like a light
bulb. It turns on and off.
Sometimes it just decides not
to work. At the beginning
of the relationship it’s
bright, but at some point
of time, the light bulb is
going to die. And
you end up replacing it

One day, you will miss me like hell. '
& you'll wish you never fucked it up.
& one day you'll come running back
to what could've been yours... -should've
been yours. & you'll see that this time
around i'm the one not giving a
damn & fucking ignoring you.

One night the moon
whispered to her,
"If he makes you cry why
don't you just leave him?"
She looked up and asked,
"Moon, would you
ever leave your sky?"

It was time to go home,
to go home without eachother.
I said, "I love you"
& he said the same.
I said, "Call me when you miss me"
He smiled and kissed me.
I walked towards my car,
and my phone rang

remember when we first met?
we laughed and smiled together.
it was a perfect moment..
we didn't even know each other.

I want to be the girl that
changed everything. The girl
that made a difference. The
girl that gave you a story to tell

Sometimes a girl doesn't
need anything more than
your hand in hers, & your
thumb gently tracing circles
on the back of her hand

What do you do if the boy
who's got your hand, isn't
the one who has your heart?

She didn't giggle or blush
wildly when she saw him. She
didn't write his name all
over pieces of paper. She
simply lived with his
face in her heart all the time.
A kind of sweet hurtful ache

You know me too well. When I said I didn`t love you,
you looked at me & said, "Bullshit, you`re just running away."

Love doesn`t walk away, people do.

Passion is knowing what you want
& never stopping until you have it.

He`s the boy that will grab your hand
& pull you into the middle of the road to dance.
No people. No cars. No music.
He just wanted an excuse to hold you close

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 03:03:09 GMT

it's like all of the bad stuff that you
went through, that you hated along
the way; the people who disappointed
you, the things that didn't go the way
you wanted; suddenly you feel grateful
for them, because those are the things
that got you here, to this. -- The Perfect Man

true strength:
being able to hold
it all together.
when no one would blame you
for falling apart.

Be with who makes you happy,
even if it means you're always running back.

All we can do is hope for the best,
& prove them all wrong.

The worst thing you can do is let your
head ~~second guess~~ your heart.

theres nothing more dangerous than a bad boy with charm.

Do you ever just put your arms
out and just spin and spin?
Well, that's what love is like.
-- Practical Magic

cory: it`s an interesting feeling, you know?
shawn: what, knowing it`s over?
cory: no, being the only person in the world knowing it isn`t.
--Boy Meets World

I didn`t mean to fall in love but
i did
and i know you didn`t mean to love me back
but you did
*Plain White Ts*

At seventeen years old,
she is so much more mature than she should be.
Her childhood was a blur,
and adolescence is soon to follow.
She is not afraid to die,
but growing old scares the hell out of her.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 04:43:51 GMT

And i know that we dont talk much
& sometimes we even walk right
by each other in the hall without
saying a word, or looking at each other,but then theres
those times when our eyes meet
& i know that deep down, you
still miss me.

Some things are just never meant to be,
no matter how much we wish they were.

if you and i are a story
that never gets told
if what you are is a daydream
i'll never get to hold, at least you'll know
you're beautiful, every little piece love.

we fall like shooting stars & autumn leaves,
stay up later than the street lights
promising what could never be
i could never be anything without you.

Oh, when I look back now,
That summer seemed to last forever
& if I had the choice,
Yeah, I'd always want to be there.
Those were the best days of my life

When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story.
Everyone has gone through something that has changed them.

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room -
I'm afraid to move.

Ive got another confession
I fell to temptation
And there is no question
There was some connection

another poem, another line,
another girl pretending she's fine.
another hour, another day,
she wishes she could get away,
another heartbreak, another tear,
another excuse she doesn't want to hear.
another paper, another pen,
she writes she wants to be strong again.
another story, another lie,
another day passes when she wishes she'd die.
another scream, another doubt,
"kick me while I'm down", she wants to shout
another shattered dream, another broken heart,
just another girl wishing life would restart.

you've got three choices in life.
give up, give in, or give it your all.

oh, you still mean everything to her.
that hasn't changed. but you just aren't
worth the fight, anymore. </3

for a kiss to be really good,
you want it to mean something
you want it to be with someone
you can't get out of your head,
so that when your lips finally touch,
you feel it everywhere.
a kiss so hot and deep you never want
to come up for air.
you can't cheat your first kiss.
trust me, you don't want to.
because when you find that right person
for a first kiss, it's everything.
-- Grey's Anatomy

heaven's not a place
that you go when you die.
it's that moment in life
when you actually feel alive
so live for the moment
and take this advice,
live by every word
love is just a hoax
so forget anything that you have heard.
-- The Spill Canvas

of course she's gonna say
she's happy for you.
and flash that famous smile.
but look into those blue eyes.
baby, you broke her.

it wasn't puppy love or infatuation
or love at first sight or anything that people
always talk about and laugh.
maybe you don't know just what i mean.
i can't really explain it, it's so hard to put into words,
but, well, it was just something i'd never felt before.
something i'd never even known.
people can't just tell you about things like that,
you have to find them out for yourself.
that's why it is so important.
it was something i'll always remember
because i just couldn't forget.
-- Seventeenth Summer

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 02:56:49 GMT

Be with who makes you happy,
even if it means you're always running back.

The worst thing you can do is let your
head ~~second guess~~ your heart.

theres nothing more dangerous than a bad boy with charm.

Do you ever just put your arms
out and just spin and spin?
Well, that's what love is like.

she's always second best, so she
never thought she'd be the first he picked.
she never thought he'd want her so bad.

As we were sitting there, I turned to him and asked, "How do you know you're in love?" He just looked at me and answered, "You know it's love when the things that seem insignificant to most people seem incredible and magnificent to you. Kind of like the way the corners of your eyes crinkle when you're thinking... and that littlest thing is enough to take my breath away. That's love."

Most people don't know who they are.
That's why they lie. They're afraid someone
else will figure it out before they do.
- One Tree Hill

don't miss out on what's happening right
now, just because you're waiting for something
better to come along. you can't live in the future

I love nice boys
who hold your hands
and hug you from behind just because.
Boys who don't say I love you every second
because he wouldn't have to,
I'd already know

You don't know about real loss because
it only occurs when you've loved
something more than you love yourself,
& I doubt you've ever dared to
love anybody that much.

and in the end
we're all just a bunch of kids
dying to know what
love feels like.

Remember all of the good times & all of the special people
that were with you during them. Let go of the past, but don`t
forget it cause there are a great many things that can be
learned from what you have been through. & most importantly:
follow your heart, stand up for what you believe in, & take
your own path, always do what YOU want to do.

Because sometimes you have to step
outside the person you've been and
remember the person you were meant to be.
The person you wanted to be.
The person you are."
-One Tree Hill

One of the hardest things in life :)
is having words in your heart
that you can't even explain.

have you ever seen her with her friends?
That's who she really is on the inside,
not the underconfident, self-conscious
quiet girl everyone pictures her to be.

Whisper in my ear "I love you"
while I'm fast asleep <3

love is when you do things
you swore you'd never do.
- Paul Walker

He liked sports, she liked dance.
he liked beer, she liked diet coke.
He wore wal-mart, she wore
designer labels. His friends
said 'not a chance,' Her
friends said 'no way'.
When the rest of the world
turned their backs on
them, they turned to each other

If you're going to go through hell,
I suggest you come back learning something.
- Drew Barrymore

And as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will

ever be a day when I get over your smile, when I will let go

of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day

when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you

meant to me, or forget how much I love you. But no matter

what you did to me, or whatever happens to us, I know I

could never get over, let go, or forget you.

It's time to move on with my life.
I've got to stop reading the same page
and continue turning the pages.
The memories are still locked in my mind,
but they're what's stopping me from living my life.