| yah im in photo..again..no surprise.
im starting to like tucson..i still miss home alot..but the ppl here arent SO horrible
i want to visit gurnee ALOT but im having fun here & i like someone.so i look forward to going to school because i get to see him.& i like my fitness class because it is helping me lose weight.
i wanted to cut the other night but i didnt. i resisted & i am proud of myself.i havent cut in exactly 3 months & that might be the longest ive ever gone.i plan to make it MUCH longer..like my WHOLE life!i dont like people seeing me sad.because i am the person that people go to if they want to cheer up or if they are having a bad day.i dont want them to see me when i am down. i dont like being sad.and i am glad that i went on anti-depressants because they help me so much. i am so much happier now.i want to be in gurnee because i am so much more social this year & i would have had so much fun making more friends in gurnee.i would have met courtney's & jenny's friends & that would have been alot of fun because they are all crazy!
me & blake are singing to Hawthorne Heights right now & head banging & going crazy!
haha me + shawn got kicked out of geometry yesterday.for laughing too much..obviously mr chokel is a party pooper
g2g write more l8r.xox
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| im in photo right now .. as usual . this is like the only time i write in my xanga cuz im always bored during photo & the teacher isnt here today so the sub basically let us do anything we wanted . so me & blake went outside & got started on our movie
but yah
im extremely bored & im ready to go home . im want to go HOME HOME so bad ! whenever i talk with my friends from IL i get all happy & i laugh alot & i cant stop smiling . i miss them so much ! they are what made me happy & got me through the days alot of the time ! i hope i can save enough $ to go visit them ! & to go visit my mom,brother & sister in Nebraska . i miss them so much too !
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| school sucks ..
i hate most of the people here
they dont respect anyone
& they are all jerks
people talk sh** about me & they dont even know me
they judge me based on what i look like
YAH IM FAT >> GET THE FUCK OVER IT ! !
learn to deal with it ..
im the one who's fat >> NOT YOU ! !
so shut the fuck up and mind your own damn business !
the girls here are complete BITCHES except for the girls that i am friends with >> but even some of the girls that i am friends with talk shit about people & i fuckin hate it !
everybody here has drama with eachother & they cant get over it & they all mind eachother's business !
i hate all the drama & bullsh** here !
i miss home so much >> more than i can even explain !
i want to see chelsea & courtney & stephanie & gigi & all my friends .. i miss joking & laughing & hanging out & being stupid with them
i miss my classes & my school
this school sucks ! i hate it here ! im going to try to graduate a year early because this school is a piece of shit & i hate it & the people here !
i feel really mean telling people how much i HATE this town & this school .. but maybe then they will realize how rude they are & how stereotypical & mean they are to everyone that they dont know or understand .
they think that anything different is BAD >> people need to learn to accept people's differences & find the good in people !
i know that that is easier said than done .. but change can be good .. but moving to this town was not a good idea
it's town my family apart even more .. my sister argues with my dad even more .. im getting depressed again .. i miss my friends .. the people here are rude & intolerant of anything different ..i just want to be back home in IL with everyone who cares about me & loves me .. everyone back home knows me for who i really am because they grew up with me & they respect my opinions & my beliefs .. people here are rude & they dont care how much they hurt your feelings ..
i just want my family to be back in IL .. we were all so much happier there .. and i miss my mommy .. she's all the way in Nebraska .. and i miss my sister & brother who live there with her .. i miss them all so much & i feel empty when my whole family isnt together .. and we probably wont get to see eachother for Christmas or birthdays .. and it just sucks .. i miss the "together-ness" of IL .. everyone was together when we were there & it was so much better that way ..
i miss IL more than i even know how to say .. all i can do is cry to show my pain .. because i promise myself that i WILL NOT CUT .. i've learned from my past .. and "what does not kill you only makes you stronger" and that is completely true .. cutting didnt kill me & it only made me stronger in dealing with my pain ..
well good bye for now my loves .. ttul xox
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| im in photo class rite now..we moved..we're finally in tucson..this town sucks major ass but some of the ppl here are cool.my classes are basically lame but w/e
i miss everyone in gurnee sooooooo much....i love you all! and i am gonna try to visit over spring break!!! stephanie i love you like a ninja ranger and i miss you and your crazy family sooo much!!!!
well school's almost out so write more l8r..
xoxo maMa D |
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| [i thought i was.but im straight ] I'm gay/lez/bi
[ ] I have a boyfriend or girlfriend
[ ] I'm currently in Jr. High
[x] I'm currently in High school
[ ] I'm currently attending college corses
[ ] I'm between the ages of 8-12
[x] I'm between the ages of 13-17
[ ] I'm between the ages of 18-22
[ ] I'm between the ages of 23-27
[ ] I'm between the ages of 27-105
[ ] I currently have a part time job
[ ] I currently have a full time job
[ ] I mow lawns on the weekends for extra cash
[ ] My gaurdian(s) give me an allowance
[x] My gaurdian(s) give me money when ever I want to go somewhere
[x] My parents are divorced
[ ] I live with my mom
[x] I live with my dad
[] My parents are still together
[ ] I'm addopted
[ ] My foster parents are divorced
[ ] I'm a test tube baby
[x] I'm depresed
[x.i used to] I've cut myself to take away the pain (or I still do)
[ ] I came close to comiting suiside more than once
[x] I am currently taking medicine to help deal with my depresion
[x] I want to get better
[some ppl do] No one knows the real me
[x] I write poems about how i feel when I'm depresed
[x] I write poems
[ ] I write short stories
[x] I write songs
[ ] I can play a musical instrument
[ ] I'm in band or orchestra
[ ] I'm in a band
[ ] I want to be in a band
[yah] I currently have a crush on someone
[idk] I currently love some one
[ ] I am in a relationship right now
[ ] I'm married
***Not By Family***
[kinda ] I've told someone that you love more than just a friend 'i love you'
[ ] I've told a complete stranger 'I love you'
[x] I've been told 'I love you' by someone
[] I've been told 'I love you' more then once or by several people
[x] I've been kissed on the cheek
[x] I've been kissed on the neck or eyelids or forehead
[x] I've made out with the opposite sex before
[ I've made out with the same sex before
[ ] I've gotten a blowjob before
[x in the pool baby!!1] I've been eaten out before or fingered
[ ]ve had sex before
[x I'm a virgin
[ ] I love anime
[ ] I have this strange obbsesion of an animal
[x] I love greek myth
[ ] I love xmen
[ ] I love hard rock or metal
[ ] I love The Ramones
[x] I love rap/R&B
[x] I love boy bands and pop stars
[ i like some] I love emo music
[ ] I like/love jazz
[ ] I love country
[ ] I love blues
[ ] I love tejano
[im learning spanish and i WAS learning french ] I speak more than one language not inclueding sign language
[x most of the time] I put a lot of effort in the way I look
[x if my ass werent so fat] I would wear pajama's to work/ school for all I care
[x except when i am not going out] I wear makeup everyday
[x my cross] I have a pice of jewlery I wear 24/7
[yah] I meet a lot of people throgh Xanga or LJ or My Space
[ ] over half my buddy list is people I've never seen before
[x omg yah!] I love to swim
[ ] I've been on an island before
[never seen the ocean..want to really bad tho] I've felt the ocean water with my feet
[] I've watched a sun set with someone special
[ ] I get sick a lot or very fast
[x] I dye my hair
[ ] I wear colored contacts
[x] I wear contacts because i have very poor vision
[x i have braces.ick] I wear braces or use a retainer
[x only at nite or early in the morning when i dont have my contacts in] I wear glasses
[] I'm disturbed
[ ] I'm possessed
[ ] I'm gothic
[ ] I'm a punk
[ ] I'm emo
[ ] I'm Christian emo
[ ] I'm missunderstood
[ ] I'm a getto chicka
[x fer shizzle mah nizzle.jk lol] I'm a gangsta
[ ] I'm a Cowboy
[x hell yah..i know how to ride those cowboys] I'm a Cowgirl
[x] I F%CKING HATE LABLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[ ] I can't wait for this survey to be over!
[who cares, i have else better to do] Im glad this is over |
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