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Monday, December 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 05:06:38 GMT

Coldplay - Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 04:04:39 GMT

So this morning I woke up, and was getting out of bed, i was standing up, and then it felt like someone pushed me really hard.....I woke up half in bed an hour later. I went downstairs and talked to my brother, who told me that he had dropped my dad off at work, and when he came home he opened the back door, walked in and immediately passed out. He woke up at the bottom of the fridge, and then threw up. He walked over to the stove and saw that my dad had left the burner half on. The whole house was filled with gas. He went to turn it off and as soon as he hit the knob all the burners turned on. He shut it off and aired the house out. But we both felt really bad all morning, upset stomach, headache...not a good start to the day! So pretty much we are both glad to be alive today, I guess I would have been dead if he decided to run an errand. Anyway, my Dad soooo heard about it later.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 05:06:55 GMT

So last night I went to Lodo's downtown, and it was the most painful night out ever. I got pulled into a fight at the bar, I was trying to walk around, and someone bumped me into the middle of these two guys, and one went to hit the other and hit me in the stomach instead. Someone pulled me out, and that was that. Then we went downstairs, and I was talking to my friends, and some girl stepped on my toe with her heel. It hurt but I just pushed it aside as nothing. So maybe 5 minutes later I stepped in something and said "Oh what did I spet in, is that a drink?" And Carrie said it was blood, and I said, what, no it's not is it? Then one of the guys we were with bent down to look, and it was a pool of blood I was in. I thought that maybe it was someone elses, until Carrie said that it was coming from my foot. So I looked down and saw that my toe was gushing blood all over the floor. It was sick. I guess when she stepped my on toe it broke right through the skin. So then I had to walk downtown with no shoes on...gross. The nice thing was that Carrie took hers off too, so I didn't feel bad, and Ryan was my crutch, and Matt carried my bloody shoes. Talk about excitement! Anyway...my toe hurts.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 19:25:38 GMT

So, I figured 4 months was a decent amount of time to not update my Xanga, and I better do it now before I lose all interest completely. School is amazing as usual, this past weekend I had the immense pleasure (maybe/not really) of going to a poetry recitation at a local cafe here. I didn't go on my own, but was forced to go by my English teacher, who is convinced she is the person solely responsible for forming "well- rounded literary individuals". So I went on Sunday, and watched what I can only classify as a freak show. These people got up there and screamed about everything. The weather, women, "blades", children, old people, witch doctors, relationships and dirt. My favorite performance however was "Casper" who got up on stage and started doing some weird ass jujitsu/karate/yoga/ballet/robot dance. In between crazy body movements, he would scream something, just anything I think, nothing that had any meaning. "Red, blue, green, black. these are the colors of Honda Civics". And things like that. Then he screamed that poetry has turned into performance and everyone was fake, no meaning in the words, only words to draw attention to the performer. Then he said "I don't know if I can come anymore" Please don't. I may have laughed at him, which looking back was a mistake. I thought he was going to jump off the stage and choke me. I went with Carrie and Ryan, who laughed too, but apparently it wasn't funny, because no one else laughed. They shook their heads as if to say "Yes brother, tell it like it is". No, please don't. I wrote a paper on it.....Did I like it? Would I go back? What did I learn? ......No I didn't, Not in a million years, and Fake poets are CRAZY.

More later, I have 4 hours of accounting now.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 21:09:43 GMT

So I haven't updated this in forever, but the way I look at it, Xanga's are kind of silly anyway...so who cares! Anyway, I'm home in Michigan for the summer, and start working at the test kitchen at MSU later this week. It's pretty exciting. I have gotten to spend a lot of quality time with the family and Travis, which has been great. I want to hear what everyone is doing for the summer, so let me know!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 06:51:04 GMT

Time for an update on my life. School is mad crazy this term, way too much homework. I think I may actually go insane before I finish all of it. If anyone wants to offer to help let me know...well, maybe not, I like everything to be done perfectly, so unless someone can live up to that, I guess I will just do it myself. Anyway, life has pretty much consisted of school, with the occasional break for other things, like laying out by the pool. I figure this will give me enough of a break that I can feel like I do more than school. Lots of exciting things are coming up in the next month though, like Laura's graduation, going home for the summer, and my 21st Birthday!!!!! I know all of you are going to get me something great! hah, or not. I think I may be going through minor seperation anxiety, but I am trying to be optimistic about it...I'll be home in a month right!?! Well time for bed I guess, night.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 06:38:00 GMT

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

Monday, April 04, 2005

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 18:42:00 GMT

I just went to www.humanforsale.com to find out what I am worth. I was hoping for something in the billions, because it seems like a person should be worth a ton of money, but I guess I am worth $2,798,945.00. Everyone should check it out and let me know what they are worth. I would pay more than that for most of you, at least Luke anyway. Just kidding, pretty much all of you, but it's a fun thing to know, regardless of how true it is!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 05:20:06 GMT

I just finished watching Shall We Dance, and I loved it. Such a good movie, I know it's definately a girl movie, but watch it anyway. It made me miss dancing! I'm hoping to get a great job this summer so I can take classes again...we'll see how that goes. Anyway, this song is at the end of the movie, and it sounds kind of corny, but I fell in love with it, its so pretty. If you need a demo watch the movie, or call me and I will sing it to you, maybe, or, yeah just watch the movie!

The Book of Love

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything
The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
You ought to give me wedding rings

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 06:15:44 GMT

So, typically I hate these things, but I am so bored I have actually resorted to this...wow...

FOR STARTERS...
+ today's date: March 30th 2005
+ time: Around 11:45
+ name: Jennifer
+ age: 20, almost 21!!!
+ birthday: May 26th, 1984
+ school: Johnson & Wales

BASIC INFO...
+ eyes: Green, brighter some days than others, who knows
+ hair: Complicated question, it's kind of light brown, with carmel/blonde highlights
+ height: 5'9"
+ shoe size: 8 1/2
+ who lives with you: My roomie Carrie, and her puppy Tucker
+ when is your bedtime?: Umm, it depends, I'm a dork and like to sleep so I am refreshed for school, so late on the weekends, and not so late during the week.

HAVE YOU EVER...
+ flown on a plane: Yes way too many times to count, it's not fun anymore
+ ever been so drunk you blacked out: No, I have never been drunk
+ missed school because it was raining: Hah, miss school? What if I missed something important???
+ told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Yes

+ put a body part on fire for amusement: Heck no, who does that
+ had a crush on a friend's girlfriend/boyfriend: NOOO
+ been hurt emotionally: Of course, who hasn't?
+ kept a secret from everyone: Mmm, everyone? Not that I can think of....
+ wanted to hook up with a friend: Nope

+ cried during a movie: I try to keep the tears to a few movies...like 25
+ been on stage: Yes and I am not a big fan, I don't really like people staring at me
+ cut your hair: Of course, you have to in order to keep it healthy, although mine is pretty long so it doesn't get cut as often as other people's.

+ had a crush on a teacher: Eww, no, although my 65 year old english teacher did ask me to move to some remote country and "teach the children to write" What the hell.
+ cried over a boy/girl?: Yes more than I should have
+ lied to someone?: Yep, but I try to limit that to nosy people I don;t really know
+ been in a fist fight?: No definately not, I did make a guy in one of my classes cry though when i elbowed him in the stomach.
+ been arrested?: No I don't do anything cool enough to warrent that

FAVORITE...
+ shampoo: Humectress and Therapy
+ fav color: Pink, white, black....I love a lot of colors.
+ day/night: I love watching the stars at night, and laying in the sun during the day...so both.
+ summer/winter: Again both, the beach in the summer, and hot chocolate and a fireplace in the winter..but if I had to pick I would say summer because that's when I can wear my skirts.
+ lace or satin: Both
+ fav movies: Thomas Crown Affair, Sleepless in Seattle, Sabrina, and really anything old
+ fav drink: Umm, water?

+ person to talk to face to face: Travis because I am completely comfortable with him, and can tell him anything. Oh and I love him !

+ person to talk to on the phone: My mom because she is a great listener
+ person to talk to online: Melissa because she is so silly, and we trade pictures we draw for each other online, and funny emails.

RIGHT NOW YOU ARE...
+ wearing: My pink velvet pants and jacket from Victorias Secret, and pearls.
+ eating: Nothing, but I had a cupcake a while ago!
+ drinking: Water
+ listening to: Some guy on tv...I have no idea who it is, but he talks like an idiot, I think his accent is fake...hmm

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
+ cried: Nope
+ worn jeans: Yesterday, they have cute little rhinestones on th butt too
+ met someone new online: No, I don't talk to strangers
+ done laundry: Yes
+ drove a car: To school and back, pretty exciting
+ talked on the phone: With my Mom, she was just "checking in"

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
+ yourself: Of course
+ your friends: Yes, but that doesn't always help
+ santa claus: Yes, my uncle made me dress up as him one year for the family christmas party, I couldn't sit in his chair because I had so many pillows stuffed in the suit.
+ tooth fairy: No, because no one could ever tell me what her fairy dress looked like.
+destiny/fate: I believe in God's will which has determined our future, but it's a plan, not fate or destiny.
+ angels: Of course
+ ghosts: No, I never even got into Ghost Busters, it just isn't my thing.
+ UFO's: No, but if anyone knows why when you fly..you see those circles inside the squares when you look down from the plane, please let me know, it bothers me.

FRIENDS & LIFE...
+ do you ever wish you had another name?: Sometimes I wish my name was more original, like Isabella, so people could call me bella, but I like my name.
+ do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Yes, Travis and I have been together for over a year! It's been the best year ever, by far.
+ do you like anyone?: I like most people, but I love a few friends, my family, and Travis.
+ which one of your friends acts the most like you?: Umm, maybe Luke, we are pretty tight, but he is cooler than me I think.
+ which friend have you known the longest?: Other than my family...Joelene and Tim
+ are you close to any family members?: Yes all of them, but don't get to talk to them enough.
+ who do you go to for stuff?: After God, probably my Mom.
+ who do you hang around the most?: Right now, Tucker.
+ worst feeling: Being lonely, or missing someone.

RANDOM...
+ Keep a diary?: nope
+ Like to cook?: Well If I didn't I went to school for nothing!
+ Fold your underwear?: Yes, even though my Dad says it's "pointless"
+ Talk in your sleep?:Not that I know of
+ Set your watch a few minutes ahead?: I don;t wear a watch
+ Bite your fingernails?: No, I like to keep them neat and semi-long.
+ Believe in love?: The best feeling in the world

LAST...
+ Movie you rented?: Some weird movie I don't remember the name of
+ Movie you bought?: I don;t buy movies, so, the last one I bought was like almost 2 years ago, and that was the Thomas Crown Affair, and 9 Months, which I don't really like.
+ Movie you watched?: I watched Sleepless in Seattle on tv over Easter, by myself..don't do it
+ Song you listened to?: At Last, by Etta James
+ Song that was stuck in your head?: The song with Megan Molally in the M&M's commercial.....
+ Song you've downloaded?: I don't do that really
+ CD you bought: The newest Rascall Flatts cd for Travis, because it has our song on it. Awwwwww.
+ CD you listened to?: Bob Marley in Microeconomics, some chick brought it in
+ Person you called?: I called....Matt's phone, and talked to him and my mom
+ Person that's called you?: The Mom
+ TV show you've watched?: The Late Late Show
+ Person you were thinking of?: Travis, of course, and Melissa because I talked to her tonight.

DO...
+ You wish you could live somewhere else?: All the time, both exotic places, and places closer to home, depending on my mood.
+ Others find you attractive?: I guess
+ You want more piercings?: No I am fine with the ones I have, anything more than 3 is not my style.
+ You want more tattoos?: I don;t have any, and I don;t plan on getting any, ever.
+ You drink?: Water? Coke, Tea, Juice, the safe stuff that keeps you out of trouble.
+ You do drugs?: I never have and I don't plan on it.
+ You smoke?: Nope, I'm allergic and think it should be banned in all public buildings, especially restaurants.
+ You like cleaning?: ......yeah, I do, I like things to be organized, and well taken care of....
+ You like roller coasters?: Yes, I loved the one on top of the New York New York in Las Vegas, I had bruises for a week though.
+ You write in cursive or print?: Usually print, unless I am writing a letter, then I will sometimes switch it up a little.

NUMBER...
+ Of times I have been in love?: Just once!
+ Of times I have had my heart broken?: Well, I don't really think broken is the right word, injured? then yeah.
+ Of hearts I have broken?: Only a few that I know of, but it wasn't my fault!
+ Of girls I have kissed?: ok......
+ Of boys I have kissed?: Just Travis
+ Of people I consider my enemies?: I don't really consider anyone an enemy
+ Of CDs that I own?: I have no idea, I don't count them, but nowhere near either of my brothers.
+ Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Our school newspaper here, like 3 times, at home, a ton and I don't know why, they seem to like printing every deans list award I get, which id weird because I am always the only one in that section. Please, take it out!
+ Of things in my past that I regret?: I don't regret anything, I am very happy with where my life is right now, and it wouldn;t be here without some of the things I could chose to regret.