ya know.. i do most of my entries around midnight n dont finish till afterwards so it always seems like im speakin of tomorrow... but desi's probably the only one readin this so it dont matter cuz she aint THAT big of a dumbass right?!?

anyhoo.. today was the back to school bbq.. n i didnt really wanna go.. the only thing that made me go was the thought of free food yes so.. it was nt terrible.. chust chilled with my white friends.. so that was good.. cuz i refer their company + cerise's over others.. idunno why.. its probably cuz all the asians in richmond are either fags or hongers.. but ALL the ones at skool are hongers n i HATE hongers!!! but oh well! i miss my old clique it was THA BEST!! all of us.. all day.. no one standin in our way.. dood.. we literally ruled the school.. but now the clique split up.. a bunch of us in different schools nall.. but we all hafta cope but i honestly think it was toughest on me even though it wasnt even so bad! but.. wutever.. anyhoo! back to the bbq!! i was just standin there with katrina talkin to mrs memmott n all n someone punches me in the back (i got that A LOT TODAY)!! when i turned around.. low n behold.. it was SYLVIA !! my long-lost buddy!! i was sooooo happy to see her!! i was like OMG!!! n i hugged her so tight that i didnt wanna let go!! it felt so good to be able to be friends again!! i havent spoken to her verbally for over 8 months n 2 weeks!! i gave her the silent treatment for 6 months, 1 week n 6 days!! n man.. i missed her.. A LOT!! dood.. we were tight ass buds.. today was the first time i said a word to her in that long!! what a waste of time! but oh well..  we're ok now so thats all that matters.. didnt really have much to say tho.. just her company was enough for me but man.. that hug.. phenomenal.. i missed her soooooo much.. just cant stress that enough..

love ya syl (not in the gay way! sorry to disappoint everybody)! n im still sorry bout all this shit i put us through.. n if it ever happens again.. next time if we gotta fix things up.. call me or sumthin! over msn is so interpersonal!! but ya.. you know what im tryin to say here.. *bigBIGhug*

PS: I AM NOT A LEZBO!!!

speaker status : still broken


i just got my hair cut.. n i dont think it's bad at all! im very surprised! i was sooo pissed off last night though.. cuz i just found out that my sister stole my magazines n left them at her frineds house.. n the picture of how i wanted my hair cut was in there!! n she couldnt just get them from her friend cuz her friend was leavin her house for some orientation or sumthin at 9:00!! n i couldnt just print a pic off the internet either cuz my printers fresh outta ink!! so yes... i was screwed.. i was pissed beyond all reason n i said i wasnt gonna get my hair chopped no more.. but i ended up doin it anyways n it looks good!! so yay!!

omg! i knew katrina was an occasional pain in the ass n all.. but GOD!! she's pissed at ME for not being able to go over to her house tomorrow!! she acts like it's my fault that she'll be stuck doin nothin all day!! fuckin dumbass.. oh well.. i always end up forgivin her anyways.. but who knows why.. ah well.. its probably cuz i've known her for so long.. but still! SHE PISSES THE HELL OUTTA ME!!

nikki's finally gone i knew it was bound to happen sooner or later cause kelly's so freakishly good, but... i just love her too much n it's sad to see her have to go.. so now i have to root for kelly because i absolutely DETEST JUSTIN!!!!!! he's such a faglord!! he's sooooo overflowin with shit!!! "look, i wanna talk about last week, and im soooooo sorry! i was just caught up in the moment n all and im soooo sorry! that wasnt me at all!!! blahblahblahbitchbitchbitch.." what a dumbass.. but i must admit.. kelly should win---CORRECTION---TAMYRA SHOULD WIN!! her being voted off was a fuckin FLUKE!! n every single person who loves american idol knows it!