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| Well its been a great ride but I think ill bail
before i get sick. Something important came to my attention
yesterday. I was talkin to Katie K. which we dont really talk
much we just usually act stuipid or watch her act stuipid shes fun but
can be a handful ....shes pretty much a silly sally....We had a deep
talk it was lke the first time ever. I said yea i know some
things you dont like to talk about i was told that i bring people
down. She said you do bring people down, like the one time u said
when im not with mike im really cool, it made me feel bad ,But it
was the truth. I perked up and realize thats what it was.
No point in sugar coating things. Another instance that i had was
when i was really young me and my friends would talk all the time in
class when the teacher would leave the classroom and the girls
always stayed quiet. A girl told the teacher we were talking i
got really mad this was when i was like 10, I said shut up, no we didnt
i was like screaming. I lied so I wouldnt look bad and i had to
make an action fast. It made me look good infront of my
friends. Some people move away from it, aviod it, ignore , lie,
because in the end the truth really does hurt.
In one instinse I remember people shouting the truth
in my ear. I blocked it all out I wanted to be fake so I could be
like everyone else and feel whatever else was feeling. It didnt
really matter, this isnt my life I hate it. It will mess with who
you really are change your views. When in the end there was
nothing wrong with you. But you cant be sheltered from this
....well u can but it makes you a stronger person to go through these
things If it doesnt kill you. I used to stress the truth but
people just say they dont want to talk about it or get pissed off at
me.........If I get pin pointed on it and its the truth I get
frustrated. If my mind isnt as open as i think it is its because
I narrowed it down to the little truth of the matter that i know.
But what is the truth when bickering between another teen? Arne
hope you get better man.....later
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| My DaRk AnGel My outgoing butterfly , you made my worries go away
You were with me for a lil while
I wanted to think i wasnt lieing to you, it was something i didnt want to say
It meant something to me, you let go easy
You were smart and strong
You stood up and went on
I want your power
I can taste the best things but will still be sour
You brought the light in my dark day
You told me it would be ok
I missed you when you let me go
Im so sorry I did something so low
I say sorry it doesnt change anything
I dont want you to feel my pity
I just wanted you to know you were my angel in this sin city
(its to late now but i would of done anyhing to take it back)
This writing i do vents my stress, i dont do it for show
thats just me ..... maybe a lil emo <<<Dacripto>>>
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| Venus Fly TrapI take a chance and put all my weight in one hand
not thinking about if I would crash or land
While I watch my green plant wilt to sand
To protect is to lead, a heart of darkness with only intimacy to feed
It cant live in the light, so moves on to plant its next seed
Tell me to look at it like a man, its dangerous but it looks so good
If running had to be with being a man then i could
A boy accused of only turning his head
it can be changed........only because it said ....
cut it down , dont turn ur head and dont wear a frown
block it out until , god is the only thing around
It runs and runs
I stare into the sun , and i wont close my eyes
Our faith is our only bind
But hes not here hes only in mind, I get no blessings for leaving this behind
but u said i would
I see it now......I didnt before
how i didnt see it before i dont know how
i lost sight because I didnt want ur light
why.......did it take another
I could of swore he was my brother
Because you were never forgiven
I labeled you
Now u label me
I am the unforgiven II.
<<<Dacripto >>>
Kristen dont think about this one to much, your head might start
to hurt hehe j/k. I <3 the new song Ex's and Oh's
...makes me feel good....I.M.P.!!!
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| The Shomo EpisodeAh yes the house to my self. What every kid whishes. A song
plays in the back of my head. O what merry things might
happen. I call some friends, that just drop there plans like
nothing. Isn't that strange. My Friends call there friends
that call there friends. The more the merrier has
backfired. I'm located in the middle of nowhere. A
straggler wants to join the fun. I give the tongue slurring
directions. She came down the road I come stumbling with my pants
coming down. I pull them up quick without tripping and falling
down. She showed me her smoking device "doesnt this look cool",
My eyes grew big as she puffed on the sub*@#*. She parked I start
running to my house. I look at the twisted and blurry road
outside my house. And my heart started to race. A police
car strolls to the drive way. My eyes get even bigger. I
run inside to my bedroom hiding from a monster. She walked to the
car. But it slowly drove she was saying the adress he was talking
was down the road. The car.....drove away no questions asked. I
wondered to my bedroom. I began to think but it just made my head
spin more. Then my mind goes black. I dream of the beach,
sitting in a recliner watch the babes walk by. One of the girls
stops infront of me approaches me. Says "hi:". She was
gorgeous. She said with a weird "you might want to get up."people
are moving furniture and shit". As I awoke to my friend walking
out the room. I got up out my bed and my head started
pounding. I noticed I didnt have my pants on, everyone was
leaving. I looked in my livingroom and it was bare. I then
looked outside my bay window only to see my livingroom outside on my
lawn. I worked my way outside listening to everyone laugh as they
drove away. I started to put furniture back inside and my
neighbor drove by watching me as I was in my underwear a chair in my my
hand and my wacky messed up hair. I laughed about it later wasnt
happy at the time. Was a different experience, it was a
blur. That was before alot a lot of episodes
happened......it was a good time......I miss ya man
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| The Last Song"Echo"
For the Forsaken
I Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)
I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind
[Chorus]
Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)
So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
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