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Birthday: 6/30/1983
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Sunday, June 26, 2005

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

did it really happen, these past five months? all the people from my daily life are now gone. coworkers, classmates, and random acquaintances are pretty much gone for good. i don't know why this finally hit me tonight, weeks after graduation. the only other time i've transplanted myself was the transition from high school to college life, but at least there was structure to that move.

i'm loving every second of life with john and our apartment will finally start to come together after the final move this weekend. our apartment complex got our move-in date wrong by a whole month, so we've been living out of boxes since May. saturday movers come to do all the heavy lifting (paid for by the apartment complex) and john and i can unpack. my poor baby hasn't seen his books or dvd's for two months!

i know this move will take time to adjust properly, i just wish i had an external life that is set up as well as my home life. clear as mud, right?

i haven't been able to sleep well for two nights, i keep thinking of random events from the past ten years or so: people who influenced me and those i met in passing, weddings, funerals, birthdays, family trips, the whole nine yards. i think part of this insomniac version of memory lane is because i can't go home anymore. my parents sold my childhood home and now live in a different city. I can't go back and see San Antonio the same way anymore. granted, it's not the same city either. the finality of my parents move has changed the way i see my own move.

i'm excited about what's coming in my life, i guess this is just part of the process of moving on. besides, going home again isn't the same as never leaving in the first place.


Friday, April 08, 2005

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Monday, December 13, 2004

desperate housewives

some say guilty pleasure, i say hell no.  i don't feel guilty at all, i LOVE it!!

now, the new Digital Video Recorder i got from my cable company, that's closer to a guilty pleasure...

 


Tuesday, December 07, 2004

i went to delaware for an entire week of november.  i missed school that week, even though i tried my hardest to get things turned in early the week after i came back was one of the hardest weeks of college in my life.  why, i can already hear you asking, was i in delaware?  as much as i would like to say that i was reenacting a scene from Bill and Ted's excellent adventure, i was there with my boyfriend to see his family.

 

so much about john is clearer now that i've met the living grandparents, the gaggle of aunts and uncles, and gone drinking with cousins.  the experience was amazing, especially being in a blue state for the election.  having lived in a devout red state my whole life, it was strangely affirming to be there even though kerry lost.  anywho.  john's family loves me.  i was really nervous meeting the whole bunch, but after a few days everything was great.

 

while in delaware, john and i took a trip to Washington, DC (day after the election no less!) to visit with my friend chad, whom i have not seen in quite some time.  lunch and dinner were a bit surreal for me, but i loved every minute of it.  seeing chad again (even if there were a couple 30 pounds missing.  that boy can loose weight!)  brought me back home to san antonio and the good old days.  tear.

 

john had his 26th birthday last month.  how odd is that, i'm dating a 26 year old.  oh well, it's not like he's that much older than me.

 

thanksgiving this year was just another day where i ate a lot.  since i could only get thanksgiving or christmas off from work AND my family is doing christmas this year instead of thanksgiving, i worked.  on thursday john and i went to his coworker's place for the meal.  we ate in our pajamas.  let me tell you, that is the best way to have holiday meals.  pajama pants stretch to fit the expanding waistline.  after dinner we watched movies and played some pop culture trivial pursuit. 

 

the busiest shopping day of the year was fruitful for me.  i had to work a double at work and of course everyone was out shopping not eating, so i didn't make any money at all.  but i did get out to Target early that morn (around 6:30!!) to pick up the fourth season of the simpsons and seventh season of buffy the vampire slayer for $17.77 each!  hot damn, i'm still loving those sale prices.  between my shifts i went and really splurged.  best buy had a deal on a wireless-G internet router and laptop card package i couldn't pass up: only $20 after rebates (still waiting on those...)

 

so now that i've got my desktop and laptop set up on a network, i can use my laptop as a remote control for my desktop!  windows xp has a nifty feature called Remote Desktop for network administrators to take control of computers on the network.  well, for me this means i can be sitting in my lay-z-boy with my laptop, no wires attached, and have complete control of my desktop.  oh, the level of laziness i have sunk to is abysmal.  but if you ever get a chance to see it, it's really cool.

 

December 1st was world AIDS day.  did you know that?  neither did anybody i talked to on that day.  the public schools here in texas made such a big deal about 'freedom week' you'd think they would at least hand out ribbons or something.  one of my teachers made a disparaging gay remark that day too.  really made me feel crappy.

 

okay, that pretty much brings me up to last weekend.  two words:  Dolly Parton.  two objects: Dolly Parton's boobies.  both were fantastic.  john and i went to see Dolly Parton in concert last weekend in Houston.  tackiness, boobs, a little lip-syncing (c'mon, nobody goes to see dolly for live music, it's the entertainment they go for!), more boobs, and some great music.  she sang a cover of John Lennon's Imagine that was out of this world.  chills.

 

so yeah.  today was the last day of classes for me.  all i have left is one sit-down final next monday evening, a five page history paper due by next wednesday, and that's all folks!  this is my second to last semester and it went by in a hazy blur.  it was nice having some classes that didn't tax my sanity to within an inch of, well... , insanity.

 

how are you guys doing?  it's been awhile between posts here, i'm trying on fixing that. 

 

 



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