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Friday, September 21, 2007

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 20:54:59 GMT

i miss you like, avocado juice.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 20:54:21 GMT

mundane & routined?

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 17:32:06 GMT

A - AVAILABLE?:
i perpetually throw myself to homosexual individuals who are males,
LOL, kiddin

B - BEST SPORT?:
shopping? i can walk ten malls w/o complains

C - CRUSH?:
No. only wanna crush satan under my feeet

D - DOG'S NAME?
one, dolce, & the other gabbana. hah, NAY, ive got none

E - EASIEST PERSON(s) TO TALK TO?:
my invisible friend, Sarah Julia Smith, SJS for short.

F - FAV. COLOR(S)?
check out my fav underwear

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?:
bears cos i love to bite the head, then the arms, followed by it's legs & slowly chew its body

H- HOMETOWN?
in your wardrobe & under your bed

I - INSTRUMENT?:
my poor violin's rotting. havent been touching it for years,
havent been playin guitar too

F - FAVORITE JUICE?:
omg, AVOCADO puh-lease. it makes me damn happy,
& uh, isn't this supposed to be a 'J', not 'F'?
but anw, J for JESUS!

K- KIND OF MUSIC?:
i love jazz, gospel & anything non-mainstream

L- LONGEST CAR RIDE?:
up to m'sia

M- MILK FLAVOR?:
ill tell you abt my Mom instead, she's gg thru menopause nw, reallly..

N- NUMBER OF SIBLINGS?
none, ugh )))))))):

O- ONE WISH?:
for my future kid to be uber adorable

P - PHOBIA:
yucks, clowns.. & ugly people, haha! kiddin

Q- QUESTION YOU'D ASK SOMEONE WHO DIED?
why don't you get a life? ha, uh.. nvm. not funny

R- REASON TO SMILE?:
Don't ask me that question now. I'm like. Angry now or something.

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD?:
Wine Red by The Hush Sound

T- TIME YOU WOKE UP TODAY?:
ten aye aym

U - UNKNOWN FACTS ABOUT ME?
i fantasize abt kidnapping cute kids all the time hahahahh

V- VEGETABLE YOU DON'T LIKE?:
uh, green peas?

W- WORST HABIT?:
have been eatin 4 meals everyday, 2am's supper time!
say hellllo to the mass-gaining esther

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD?
none but ive got weird ribs structure btw hahahh

Y- YUMMY FOOD- :
i'm craving for chicken mac nuggets, man

Z - ZODIAC/ASTROLOGY SIGN?
leo, imma LEOOO, rrarh

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 15:39:06 GMT

All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for a love a Savior prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

this song holds so much...

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 14:42:20 GMT

woooolala! i shall wear a turban out one day too! aha (:

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 14:31:00 GMT

silk scarves for the above!
ill aim to collect scarves
in all shapes, sizes, colours, materials! (:

my victoria beckham shirt! ha

& yes, was supposed to stock up opaque tights,
still havent done so!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:15:54 GMT

it was father's day,
a sunday,
one of the days in the calender week labelled,
Lazy.

& as usual, part of my sunday-routine would be
MOS burger for breakfast,
with my mom.
& for tt matter,
w/o fail, mommy & i will always get either get an ebi or unagi rice burger.
but for an occasional change, it'll be mos' fish burger for me,
which, needless to say, beats mac's fillet-o-fish hands down..
not forgetting, the all-time fav ice milk tea
& YUMYUM, im craving for mos' fries alr!
have been eating 4 meals per day & evitably growing fat.
just ate a BA ZHANG for supper,
what a pig i am! (angela will nod her head in agreement)

however, i digress..
father's day..
the12th fatherless father's day
i stopped crying for him since i was 10
but tdy, i felt a tinge of sadness,
no, not becos i miss him,
or tt im envying those showered with fatherly love..
but it's the fact tt im so ignorant, as if i couldn't care less,
for the past 12 years,
i don't knw his whereabouts,
whether he's dead or alive,
whether he ever missed me,
whether he even remember he has a daughter,
me.

the last time i ever saw his face...
8 years ago.

i wondered time & time again
if i'll ever see him.
time & time again,
i asked myself if ill go find him in the future..
even if i really do, how?
hire a P.I.?
mom & i didn't even mention abt my dad to each for the past 12 years,
ever since they went through something,
called divorce.

i can't help, but keep wondering how is he doing nw,
if i ever even see him on the streets will i even recognise him?
which actually im pretty sure he's in aussie..
really... how is he like right nw,
even if he has already long breathed his last,
i really would like to knw. & how long ago was tt...

but nevertheless, i knw i have my father in heaven watching over me.
the Lord is my shepherd, my comforter, my friend.
thank you, Jesus

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Sun, 20 May 2007 06:55:15 GMT

had a bad neck sprain
& had so many messages of concern sent to moi..
AHA
thanks, lovelies!

the acupuncture was cool,
so many needles round my neck area!
will post up the pic when it's uploaded.(comin up!)
i was so frickin worried they'll twist my neck,
yknw those u see no TV,
whr someone had a leg sprain & they twist their ankle?
causin a sharp, excruciating pain???
hah, it wasnt that bad after alll,..
my very first acupuncture experience,
it was surprisingly pleasant,
& they gave me a massage that rocks socks

oh yyyea i bought a new pillow thats so fricking cool its so comfortable byebye.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Mon, 14 May 2007 13:55:11 GMT

an update on meal times:

breakfast:
11:30
lunch:
15:30
dinner:
21:30
supper:
02:30

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Sun, 13 May 2007 11:14:50 GMT

anyhow, folks..
new email: estytsej@gmail.com