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Name: tiffany
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Birthday: 10/16/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: everything almost beautiful
Expertise: understanding the realm that exists during which consciousness of the world is suspended
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Real Estate
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Member Since:
3/27/2005
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| i almost forgot i had a xanga. while browsing over my old posts, i realized a few things:
1) my xanga name is lame: black_vixen16 wtf? 
2) i use to be really selfish and depressed when there was no reason to be. i have a home, a family, good health, and taco bell. so why waste perfectly good time wallowing in self-pity? if that happens again, someone PLEASE smack the piss outta me. thank you.
3) there was a third thing, but i forgot. something about kit-kat bars, i think.
ok, good night.
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| poetic correctionearly this morning, as i strolled alongside my roommate, i remarked, "today, the sky looks like the ceiling of the sistine chapel."
she smiled and replied, "you know, i would have liked that statement much better if you had said, 'today, the sistine chapel looks like the sky.'"
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| sooo...it's been quite awhile since i've written something in here. i fear the literary / creative portion of my brain is fizzling away. i haven't had the drive to write something pretty in a long time...i think it's because the atmosphere here is so science/math driven. hmm... well, you know what? i'm not going to blame this on good 'ole tech. so, here's my second theory: i only feel motivated to write when i feel (a) depressed or (b) surreal. and i haven't felt either lately. i either feel angry or happy (maybe a little sadness here or there, but nothing too terrible). aannnd i'm also beginning to ~truly~ connect with the people around me. i have a better understanding of who i am and where i am. no more "i'm too good to be human" attitude. i feel absolutely down-to-earth. i'm loving life and can't get enough of it!
i've realized, a big part of this "new me" has to do with finally finding faith. it has both humbled me and freed me.
you see, for a large portion of my life, i had felt caged and smothered by philosophical questions and moral dilemmas. but now...i've realized that finding the answers to those questions isn't important anymore. i don't need those answers. all i need is Love.
because
Love is free and everlasting, incredibly unselfish and unspeakably beautiful. give up all your guilt, all your worries, all your concerns to Love. Love will settle everything for you. because, in the end, Love says everything will be okay.
after knowing Love and trusting in Love, i can see the true beauty within and around us. Love is so wonderful!!! Love provides us life and promises us purpose. Love settles the unrest and unforgiveness in our hearts. and you begin to see everyone around you as your brothers and sisters, as daughters and sons of Love. Love empowers us. Love gives us authority. we don't have to be afraid anymore.
because Love is here.
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| wednesday. low 70s. scattered storms. paper due tomorrow.
there's a certain feeling you get when you're watching a disney movie or musical and you know the character is about to break out in song about life, about nothing, but usually about the things going on around him. you just know when he's going to do it. there's something about the setting, the camera angle, the way everything moves around him.
that's how i felt today walking back to my dorm. i felt like that character in the movie. with rain steadily falling. not too heavy, but not too kind. then those clusters of cars, you know, the typical number for this time of day, this kind of weather. people with umbrellas stepping quickly across the street. people without umbrellas stepping just a bit faster. i'm one of those umbrella-less people, yet i walk as if i had two. then, reaching the end of bobby dodd way, i stop at the traffic light, pausing longer than usual for the slow-moving parade of cars, nothing less than expected for this rainy day. when all is clear, i hop swiftly, giving my step a slightly longer stride to dodge the puddle of water gathered against the curb.
and that's when i felt it.
something was building up, not just inside of me, but around me. the atmosphere, the sounds, the movements. it was an all too familiar feeling, yet crisper than before.
yet i wasn't sure what i was suppose to do or say. was i suppose to stop and look at the scenery? or maybe perform an act of philanthropy? that person over there looks kind of lonely. is that what i'm suppose to do?
my pace slows as i try to place the feeling. then my thoughts are interrupted by four large feet splashing and stomping near me. i look up in time to see two chubby teenagers dash down the sidewalk. i hear them say something about wet sneakers and video games. then my attention falls on a couple to my right, fussing over an umbrella as if it were the most important thing at the moment.
and that's when it happened.
i freakin break out in song, without any warning or any thoughts about it. it felt one hundred percent natural. everything--every step, every raindrop--felt in rhythm.
as the lyrics rolled off my tongue, i would look to the right and then to the left, taking in the things around me, as if they gave meaning to the words i sung. every now and then, i would adjust my bookbag or run my fingers through my half-soaked hair. and every motion i made felt just right, like it flowed with the song.
but my musical debut ended shortly after i came to my senses and realized i probably sounded very silly. however, for those few moments when i was singing, it felt wonderful, like the world needed to hear what i had to say. or maybe, i just needed to hear it.
so yeah...i'm back in my dorm room right now, being a little lazy, not doing any work. but it's a good kind of lazy. it's the kind of lazy you feel when you realize that there's only one important thing in life. so yeah...imma gonna go revel in that for awhile.
until next time.
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in this past week's issue of Technique (my school's newspaper), i read about this chick who's suing Tech for its tolerance policies. the newspaper article was a bit vague and confusing, so i decided to look up more info. here's what i found:
Christians Sue for Right Not to Tolerate Policies
Many codes intended to protect gays from harassment are illegal, conservatives argue.
By Stephanie Simon, Times Staff Writer
April 10, 2006
ATLANTA — Ruth Malhotra went to court last month for the right to be intolerant.
Malhotra says her Christian faith compels her to speak out against
homosexuality. But the Georgia Institute of Technology, where she's a
senior, bans speech that puts down others because of their sexual
orientation.
Malhotra sees that as an unacceptable infringement on her right to
religious expression. So she's demanding that Georgia Tech revoke its
tolerance policy.
With her lawsuit, the 22-year-old student joins a growing campaign to
force public schools, state colleges and private workplaces to
eliminate policies protecting gays and lesbians from harassment. The
religious right aims to overturn a broad range of common tolerance
programs: diversity training that promotes acceptance of gays and
lesbians, speech codes that ban harsh words against homosexuality,
anti-discrimination policies that require college clubs to open their
membership to all.
The Rev. Rick Scarborough, a leading evangelical, frames the movement
as the civil rights struggle of the 21st century. "Christians," he
said, "are going to have to take a stand for the right to be Christian."
In that spirit, the Christian Legal Society, an association of judges
and lawyers, has formed a national group to challenge tolerance
policies in federal court. Several nonprofit law firms — backed by
major ministries such as Focus on the Family and Campus Crusade for
Christ — already take on such cases for free.
read the rest here
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if you ask me, this whole case is absolutely ridiculous, and ironically, rather unchristian.
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