i am in utter disbelief. it's finally time for vacation. it's too bad i don't have much time to enjoy it with all the homework i have. oh well. i think i'll allow myself this much time to be lazy and xanga-crazed.

my life has been changed within a month. hard to believe, but i am so much more satisfied. i finally got a job. yes, i am paying for all i desire without delving into my parents' wallets. i am going to take my written next month, and hopefully get my provisional in the summer. i actually get ap physics. i'm trying. i'm trying to stretch myself out without tearing myself apart. i actually feel comfortable with myself for once.

today was an awesome day. the presents were sweet, but the cards and hugs were even sweeter. thanks for everything. the band/choir concert was today, and my dad actually took off of work to see my solo. i was touched. everyone did really well. congratulations to val, momo, yanie, ryan, and crystal. your solos were absolutely gorgeous. i felt good. maybe not so good after school because i felt like crap knowing that i had nobody to be with, but that was just me in bitch mode. [i'm sorry for being such a downer, ryan.] i love everybody. wow. i sound like such a stoner...

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things i want now !

wow. i want a lot of crap. oh well. happy holidays everybody! merry christmas ! lastnote: mar wanted a shoutout. so, shoutout she gets. you're awesome fartbuddy.