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Name: Raven
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Tampa Bay Area
Gender: Female
Interests: voice acting, reading, writing, drawing, comic books, horseback riding, design, surfing, horror anything
Expertise: voice over acting, drawing, surfing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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Website: visit my website
AIM:  thatblackraven
AIM:  plaguemenolabels
AIM:  surfravenraving
Member Since:
7/13/2004
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| letting go of yesterdaythis is difficult for me. but i know it has to be done in order to move on. i've spent 15 days thinking about my new years resolution. i finally found it. yes. i'm letting go of what is hurting me. i know it's going to be difficult. i know it's gonna suck. but i know it's for the better.
she hasn't shown any sign that she even cares about me anymore. she says hi to me when i see her, the rarity in itself, but it's just a friendly "hi" and you give to a movie-goer when you welcome them to muvico. sorry. only example i could think of. corny. i know. yeah. it's not a "hi" that really means, "oh my god! i haven't seen you in a while! how have you been? tell me. i'm actually interested!" it's a "hi. welcome to muvico." that in itself just kills me.
she doesn't consider me a best friend anymore. i'm just a friend. probably that's even pushing it. i've tried my best to talk to her. i've even bugged her sister just so i can get a chance to talk to her. but no. she doesn't want to talk to me. she doesn't care to. she doesn't even give a damn about me anymore. i guess the only way to get her attention again is to have another person from my family die. that was the last time i felt like she actually cared. i'm even questioning that. no. our friendship isn't even worth the death of another family member. family is number one. i guess my friendship with her is pretty far down the list now..
we had this song. a wonderful song. kinda cheesy. but it's from a sailor moon soundtrack. what can you expect? i wish i could still say it's our theme..
you've been there for me not matter what the cost
my best friend since we believed in santa claus
you have always stood beside me
and i want to let you know
i'll be the one who hears your prayer
don't have to ask me, i'll be there
i'll be the friend you'll never have to do without
when you have nothing at all
you'll still have nothing to worry about
oh nothing at all
when i was lost inside a forest of dismay
you always knew just how to help me find my way
in a world that's so uncertain
i will promise this to you
i'll be the one who hears your prayer
don't have to ask me, i'll be there
i'll be the friend you'll never have to do without
when you have nothing at all
you'll still have nothing to worry about
oh no, when you have nothing at all
you'll still have nothing to worry about
oh nothing at all, oh
i am still here. she just doesn't turn to me anymore. so what's the point of holding on? it's only killing me little by little.
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| super..dad's in pain. had to go home from vacation early. he's going to go to the hospital hopefully tomorrow to get checked-up. hopefully it's not what he thinks it is..
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so i just got some disturbing news. then again, i kinda saw it coming. i just found out that a few of my best friends (well, i still considered them best friends) don't think i'm worth their time anymore.
wow. kinda a kick in the clit, huh?
it just hurts. it's already been eating me in the inside knowing that i'm not someone they think about on a weekly basis. now i hear that i'm not even worth their time? ouch.
apparently they decided to stop being my friend because i love my boyfriend? woah. so what? i love my friends. does that mean my other friends should hate me? what the fuck?! it's pissing me off, but i think it's more so making me sad. i'm sorry i have a boyfriend, guys. if i'm not mistaken, some of you guys had boyfriends too. why am i being punished for it?
right. no one reads this.
i really want to confront them about this, but i know e-mail isn't the best answer. phones don't work because they probably don't even have me on their contact list. i remember calling one of them once and she was like, "who the hell is this?!" niiiice. i'm thinking about making a video for them about this. so they know how i feel. i'm afraid i'm just going to cry the whole time though.
well, since i'm not their friend anymore, that means i have less people to worry about getting chrismas presents for. so i've been working hard for nothing. well damn..
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